Be My Sacrifice
Chapter 2: "Survival"
A/N: First of all I would like to say sorry to all the people who expected a quick update from this story. I've been very consumed by 'Affection in an unloving world' and somehow pushed this story aside… not anymore!
I've finally got an idea for this story and I'll try to update whenever inspiration comes to me ^^
And my school allows me to sit down and write…
Anyway enjoy, and thank you for the following patience ^^
"I would like an audition with Aizen-Sama"
Her words were clear, determined, and never seemed to sway – the truth was, however, a completely different case.
She was scared, unsure of her future, and desperate – desperate to the extent that her eyes couldn't completely cover up the feeling. And not in front of the piercing green emeralds that had found hold in her figure.
He did not seem convinced at her words as his cold and neutral voice resounded in the cell – making her resolve sway more than what she found comfortable.
"For what purpose?"
She took a deep breath, meeting the core of the strong green color as bravely as she could - finally allowing the fatal words to slip from her mouth;
"I want to submit completely… To Aizen-Sama"
Silence filled the little cell for what seemed like minutes as she felt the otherwise composed Espada's gaze linger – just for a moment, but she certainly felt it.
There was no other way for her… She had been warned – warned about what would eventually happen if she just left things like they were…. Was it wrong of her to use that information for her own best? to submit completely like some kind of little animal, afraid of getting eaten by the larger and stronger predators?
It wasn't exactly something she had found preferable… but somehow she had no choice. She was cornered with only two options to choose from;
her pride or her life.
"I understand"
She blinked her eyes in disbelief when the simple words reached her ears. He didn't wanted an explanation?
"Follow me"
Before she even got the chance to express her confusion Ulquiorra turned around on his heels, heading towards the massive door that held her captured in the little cell.
Stumbling slightly upon leaving the couch she had been sitting on, she followed him, not wanting or daring to think about his motive for complying with her request.
It just seemed… too easy. No explanations? No reasoning? He simply took her words without questioning them?
It took her eyes a couple of seconds to get used to the sharp color of the white hallways – painfully reminding her of how long it had been since she last got the permission to leave her cell.
Fast on her feet she walked up to him, obediently following behind him as if she was some kind of dog following her master…. The naïve idea of escape lingering in her mind
If she ran… would she be able to outrun him? She had experienced far too often what kind of power his slim form held, and what kind of speed he was able to use when it became necessary. So if she chose to run it would probably only be a matter of mere seconds before she would be pinned down beneath his raw strength.
"Ulquiorra?"
She asked softly, in an attempt to not break the silence too sudden
All she received was a small confirming hum from the 4th Espada, making her wonder if she had heard the almost nonexistent sound in sheer delusion.
"Why do you serve… Aizen-Sama?"
She immediately placed her eyes at the floor when the words left her mouth – afraid to meet his eyes if he, against all her beliefs, would turn against her.
"I mean… you're not weak… not at all… so… why do you?"
The words came out much more insecure than she had planned, and when Ulquiorra suddenly stopped walking she couldn't help but bump her head painfully against his back – only enforcing the confused emotions she held.
"I'm sorry! Just forget what I said!"
She exclaimed quickly in hopes of redeeming herself in front of him.
However she got her answer, short and simple, said in the usual neutral tone Ulquiorra's voice carried;
"You don't have to concern yourself with such matters"
Blinking her eyes in wonder she gathered the needed courage to perceive the subject further
"But… Aren't you happy here… serving Aizen?"
It sent shivers down her spine when he turned to face her – the strong green orbs staring directly at her with an expression she hadn't seen until then
An expression of… wonder?
"I don't think I'm familiar with the human emotion you're speaking off"
He turned against her completely, lazily dragging his feet towards her in a manner that only made her feel more and more uncomfortable with the creature in front of her
"I assume you're speaking of the emotion you humans define by a feeling of mental contentment?"
She tilted her head slightly by his cold reply – even though his answer wasn't unexpected, it still made her feel like they were 2 completely different creatures. No matter how much they may look like each other on the outside, they were definitely far from each other when it came to mentality.
"You make it seem like a trivial matter…"
She answered carefully, not liking the fact that he suddenly chose to give her his full attention
"I just can't see why such a human emotion should have anything to do with the fact that I'm serving Aizen"
She felt how his gaze found hold in her eyes – his voice still seemed calm and neutral, ultimately making her more and more comfortable in his presence.
She felt like there was no reason to fear him… He might had the needed strength to strap her down and force feed her like she so painfully had experienced earlier, but none the less, he never did something without a good reason.
That was a thing that made her hold just some kind of respect for him… The kind of respect that only a trapped desperate girl could begin to experience towards her captivator.
It was twisted… it was wrong, after all she wasn't meant to look with mild eyes at the one person that had brought the most suffering to her. She was supposed to hate him for what he had done, supposed to fear the emotional creature that stood in front of her, gazing at her with only questions present in the deep cores of his eyes.
But she didn't… She felt like there was more to him than what the eye could see. He was not the one at fault, he was merely another puppet being moved by an unknown puppeteer.
Another piece in a bigger game…
"Don't you ever feel happiness? Aren't there anything you enjoy to do?"
The words slipped from her mouth before she had a chance to withdraw the words. She felt like she was talking to a mechanical doll as Ulquiorra just turned his head slightly, the green color of his eyes analyzing her gray ones in search of the deeper meaning… the deeper meaning of her words.
"I don't require such an emotion to serve Aizen effectively"
Turning around on his heels he began to walk again – making Orihime feel the ever haunting presence of his eyes even when they were gone…
"Come woman, we don't have time for such a discussion at the moment"
She allowed his words to loop in her head for a while, before slowly dragging her feet after him somewhat reluctantly – this time she did not dare to perceive the subject any further… at least not at the moment, and not after the last remark he made.
Before very long they were met by a big white door which Orihime knew lead to the room where she earlier had spoken with Aizen.
Upon entering, she took a deep breath, while noticing how Ulquiorra stopped at the door when she walked completely into the room… apparently leaving her on her own with the mighty presence she already had felt before they entered the room.
The presence emitted from a more human like figure than Ulquiorra, even though Orihime knew it was illusions and lies.
A false smile wasn't something that fooled her so easily anymore.
"Welcome Orihime, what do I owe the honor of your presence?"
She quickly diverted her eyes, looking back at the white silhouette of the 4th Espada, before turning towards Aizen.
Taking in a deep breath to calm her nerves she spoke, gentle words that were supposed to hide her real feelings - the feelings of disgust and betrayal.
"I offer you… myself… body and soul"
She swallowed hard when the words refused to leave her throat for a moment.
She couldn't believe what she was doing…
"In exchange for your mercy on my life…"
A/N: As said earlier, sorry about the very late update.
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