Olivia arrived at Stephen's house in LA late with her kids in tow. He had a date and he discreetly got rid of her and got Liv and the kids settled. Once the kids were asleep he poured himself and Olivia a glass of wine and asked her what happened. Olivia gave him the run down of events and collapsed on his shoulder and sobbed until she could get herself under control.
"Liv...what do you want to do?"
"I'm not sure Stephen. I spent so many years hating my mother for putting up with my father's affairs, that I swore to myself that I would never be that weak and take my husband back time and time again. Sitting here now, in the same situations, it's not as clear as it seems now. I know my mother's dilemma now, and I feel like such an ass for judging her."
"Liv, you are not your mother and Fitz is not your father. I don't know if you know or not, but people can be fallible and weak at times, but it doesn't define us."
"I know Stephen, but my real concern is, was I enough for him. Becuase right now I don't think so."
"This isn't about you. What was it that made Fitz stray from his marriage? He is the only one that can tell you that, and don't believe any shit that would put the blame on you. If he wasn't getting something from home he should have communicated that to you. Your not a mind reader."
Liv hugged and kissed Stephen. He had always been her loyal friend and he said the right thing to her to clear her mind. Liv needed answer and the only person who could give them to her was Fitz.
Needless to say she didn't get any sleep with all that was running through her mind that night, but the one thing she needed was answers. She didn't care how early it was she knew he would be awake as well. So she dialed his cell phone.
"Fitz, we need to talk. Can you come down to Stephen's so we can talk face to face?"
"I'm already outside in his driveway. I couldn't sleep. Come out and let's go down to the beach and talk."
She slid on her sweats and checked in on Gerry and Karen before she went outside to Fitz's car. She got in and Fitz didn't even try to engage her. He could feel the rage radiating off her as soon as she got into the car. He drove down to a secluded part of a beach near Stephen's Malibu home. They got out of the car and Olivia sat in the sand and Fitz beside her. Fitz wanted her to go first, he needed to know where her mind and heart were.
She turned to him and said, "why?"
"For the life of me, why would you destroy everything we've made together? Why would you do the one thing that you knew would break me? Am I not enough for you? Was she more fun than me? Why Fitz, why?"
Tear cascaded down her face as she asked the questions and all he felt with each question was his heart starting to break. He did this, no one else, him.
He looked into her eyes with tear brimming at the bottom of his eyes and said, "I wanted to tell you I was drunk and she took advantage of me, but that would be half a lie. At first it was mindless flirting, then touching, and opportunity and alcohol made for the perfect storm for me to cheat on you. It wasn't about you, but me being selfish and focused on the wrong thing. This was all me Liv, I don't have any other excuse than that."
She closed her eyes and let the tears fall as she contemplated her next move. Fitz sat there with his head down listening to the waves crash for what seemed like hours, but it was only minutes before Liv spoke again.
She opened her eyes and said, "I want a divorce. I don't know who you are anymore. At this very minute you are a stranger to me. I don't want to see you or talk to you anymore. Take me back to Stephen's. I'll call my lawyer on Monday."
"Liv, please! Can we go to therapy or I can go to therapy. We can try to work this out. I love you! What about the kids? We should at least try for the children?"
Olivia stood up so fast that Fitz's head snapped back.
"Were you thinking about them when you were having sex with her? Were you thinking about our marriage when you were flirting and touching her? You are so full of yourself which makes me want to get away from you even more. You disgust me! Take me back to Stephen's or I'll walk, your call!"
Fitz stood up on wobbly legs as he went back to his car to take her back. Before he could put the car in park she was out of the car. Fitz wanted to see his kids before he left. So he followed her in.
"I want to see my kids before I leave."
"Fine, there in the room second door on the left. Then I want you to go. I don't want to communicate with you from now on, but through our lawyers."
"Liv...please! Don't let this end like this."
"It ended the minute you were emotionally unfaithful. Go see your kids please, then leave."
Fitz felt like he had the wind knocked out of him as he went down the hallway. He knew this was all his fault, but he never for one moment thought she would throw it all away like this. He now realized that her words of warning were not idle bluffs but how she truly felt. Olivia had always told him that he never took her serious about anything and now he was getting a close up view of his hubris. He had taken his whole family for granted and now he was going to pay.
He entered his sleeping children's room with tear sliding down his face like a water fall. He just stood there watching them sleep. They made them. The perfect example of his love for his wife. Now he was destined to be a part-time Dad or no Dad depending on what happened next. The one thing he swore was that she wouldn't keep them from him. He would fight her to the bitter end for custody. He wiped his face and sat on the bed his seven-year old twins occupied. Karen was the first to wake up. She wiped her eyes to make sure she was seeing her Daddy or having a dream. She leaped into his lap.
"DADDY!"
She kissed him all over his face until she heard him laugh.
"Hi Princess! Did you sleep ok?"
"Yes, but why are we here at Uncle Stephen's house? Why are you eyes so red Daddy? Have you been crying?"
"Hey kiddo, why don't we wake your sleep like the dead brother. I want to talk to both of you."
Karen crawled over and started to tickle Gerry until he woke up laughing. He saw his Dad and jumped in his lap like Karen. He sat them on his lap and looked at both their questioning eyes before he began to talk.
"Look guys. Daddy did something very bad and I hurt Mommie's feeling really bad. We are going to live in different house for right now, but I want you two to understand something very important for me." As he saw them starting to cry. He pulled them into him really tight and started to rock them like he used to when they were babies.
"No matter what happens between me and Mommy. I love you two like no ones business. You will always be the best thing I've ever done in my life. No matter where you are, I will be there too. Ok?"
They both wiped away their tears and said ok in unison. Fitz always loved when they did that. He stayed long enough to calm them back down and let them fall back asleep. He tucked them back into the bed and kissed both their foreheads then he left their room. When he got back out to the main living area Olivia was nowhere to be found, but Stephen was standing at the kitchen island with a cup of coffee.
"Well, well, well, look how far the mighty have fallen. I told Olivia before she married you that you weren't good enough for her."
"And you are Stephen. You've been in love with Liv from the moment you two met in college, but you never had the guts to do anything about it."
"Sure, but you made it all to easy. I knew your arrogance would finally do you in and surprise, surprise here we are."
"You are such a cunt Stephen! You think you are going to walk away with my wife and my children? Think again! I'll kill you before I see you with them."
"Now, now mate, don't make idle threats you wouldn't be able to keep. I'm not one of your lackeys who cower at the great Fitzgerald III's feet. Maybe you need some sense kicked into you. I wouldn't mind seeing you hurt as much as Liv was when she showed up here last night. You have no idea what you've loss yet, but you will. Now leave my house before I forget my manners and that your wife and children are here."
Fitz stood there with murder in his eyes, but he didn't want to make a scene in front of his family. He turned and got into his car and drove to a hotel nearby. He didn't want to drive back home just yet. He wanted to see his kids again before he drove back to San Francisco.
As soon as he got a good distance away from Stephen's house he pulled over and sobbed uncontrollable that he couldn't see out the front of his window. It was finally hitting him what he had done. No more anger to view the situation, but now he saw the devastation of his actions. For the first time in his life he knew he might not be able to fix this.
