Chapter one: The Journal entry.
Dear Journal,
My family see's me as this strong and bright woman however I'm not. My past hunts me much more then I even let my family know. For the past few years my dreams have gotten more and more vivid and I know I'm going to break soon if we don't find her. I've seen the world change around me but there is still a hole in my chest. I'm writing in you now because I hope one day when I find my other half I can make him understand that there is more to me then what meets the eyes. I've pulled the wool over everyone eyes. I hope by the time I have children I will be able to forgive myself and hopeful I can forgive myself for my mistakes. I just hope my other half wouldn't mind I'm not a pure anymore.
I guess I should start from the beginning. I was born from a very gift vampire by the name of Thomas John Clare and one of the few shape-shifter females named Dakotah Clare. I was the middle children of four children born to my vampire father. I and siblings form a very strong bond of love. My life started December 6th, 1940 and I was fully grown seven years later. I am the middle daughter of vampire male and a female shape-shifter. My brother John was born human as was my father. My first father had a strong gift even has a human his gift were semi-strong. My father's powers is are very strong mind gift which is even stronger then Aro.
I and my sisters share the same mother however my brother John wasn't my mother's son. I haven't physical age since I was a very young hybrid. Physical I look seventeen years old yet somehow I hate this body. I'm forever stuck in a body that can bear children.
My name is Dakota Marie (Clare) Cullen. In my new vampire family I am the second oldest. I and my brother John were the first to join what is know as Cullen family. I was the mother figure for Edward for a while before my mom Esme join the family. I was finally happy to have a mother again after losing my birthmother.
I'm currently live in the Olympic Peninsula of northwest Washington State. A small town named Forks exists under a near-constant cover of clouds. It rains on this inconsequential town more than any other place in the United Sates of America. It was from this town and its gloomy, omnipresent shade that I and my two sisters of my birth family were born. For eighty-seven years I lived in what is now called La Push. I lost my first family here but gain my new family here in forks.
I think fate can be very cruel at times. There is also a reason I'm writing this journal is because I want to always remember the reason I and John lost our sisters and our parents. My own reason for hating human drinkers. I have and never been a human drinker as I call those who feed on human. Because I love people and my first father taught me and my siblings that you can live of the blood of animals. I've never tasted human in my life which for some vampires it hard to believe. In my fourth year of life when I looked to be rough about twelve years. I do have a younger sister named Sora. I know my sister Kira and my father are alive because my dad told me. My siblings and I along with my first father are very gift and the Volturi want powerful vampire. My sister Sora can take the family gift and maker them stronger.
After eighty years Carlisle found us and took us in. John and I started to care for him like a father. After so many years together then Edward join the little family during September of 1918. Then sometimes during the 1921 Esme became part the family to. However six years later Edward left to us but four years later Edward returned to the family. During the same year Rosalie joined them. In 1935 Emmett joined them. A year later they meet the people that they made a treaty with. The last two people to join was Alice and Jasper in 1950. Fifty years later we've moved back to Forks. This my story as I try to let go of my past…