Chapter 2

Once Kanade dressed herself for the day, she found herself still in a daze from the dream. Warped thoughts and twisted fantasies such as her recent wet dream, have been constantly barraging her lately. She knew what she was feeling was "oh-so-wrong", but could never wash away the feelings - along with the shame that came with them. She sighed a breath of exasperation as she mentally prepared herself to hold it together in front of her object of desire - Yukino. She found it harder and harder to hide her true feelings from Yukino because of the constant time they were spending with each other - living in the same cramped dorm room made it difficult for Kanade to focus on anything other than Yukino.

Yukino popped her head back into the dorm room, "Hey Kana-chan! Are you done getting dressed or did you get lost in your pile of dirty laundry?" Yukino kidded as she giggled at her own joke.

Kanade shook her head at Yukino's dorky jest, but she felt her heart leap at the adorable sound of Yukino's giggle. Kanade had to inhale and exhale slowly to calm herself down from the blood rushing to her head. Pull yourself together Kanade, she told herself. You'll have to learn how to get better at hiding your twisted feelings towards your own twin better. She grimaced at her own self-deprecating thoughts as she reached for her jacket and left the dorm.

Yukino was talking to one of the neighbors in their dorm as Kanade approached her. The girl seemed to be absolutely enamored with Yukino as they spoke - Kanade suspected she possibly had feelings for her sister. Kanade couldn't blame the girl, Yukino is really pretty.

And that smile…Kanade thought to herself as she daydreamed about Yukino. Yukino had noticed Kanade come out of the dorm and bid goodbye to the girl - the girl looked sad as Yukino left to walk over to Kanade.

"Kana-chan!" Yukino said cheerily.

Kanade blinked herself back to reality at the sound of Yukino's voice. She thought she felt some drool on the side of her mouth and quickly wiped it with the sleeve of her jacket. Thankfully, Yukino was too busy tugging at Kanade's other arm to notice Kanade's odd behavior.

"Come on Kana-chan!" Yukino urged. "We have to get going or we'll be late for school!"

Kanade swiftly nodded her head in agreement as she tried her best to keep up with Yukino's fast pace.

Once they arrived at school, Yukino bid Kanade goodbye and made her way to her own class. Kanade stood and stared at Yukino's back as she walked away. Whenever Yukino left Kanade alone, she always felt so alone and empty. Kanade sighed sadly as she slowly made her way to the art studio.

As Kanade entered the studio, one of her fellow classmates, Yurippe, was already there drawing frantically an image of the still life of several different inanimate objects. Kanade tried her best to creep quietly to her own area, but Yurippe noticed Kanade slinking her way in. "Kanade!" she shouted loudly, making Kanade jump. Yurippe did not look happy with Kanade. "You're late Ka-na-de!" Yurippe stressed each syllable of her name as she wagged a pencil at Kanade.

"I'm sowwy," Kanade said bowing her head down in shame.

Yurippe folded her arms authoratively. "Why do I always find myself worrying about you?" she asked to herself. "Without me, I wouldn't want to know where you'd be right now."

Kanade continued to hang her head down in shame as Yurippe went to sit back down. "Do you want to get into an art college or not?" Yurippe asked Kanade.

"O-of course I do!" Kanade said quickly.

"Then get to school on time Kanade," Yurippe simply said as she continued to draw her still life.

Kanade simply nodded her head and unpacked her art supplies. Once she unpacked everything and sat down in her own stool, Kanade found it hard to focus on anything but Yukino. She tried to draw the still life that was in front of her, but her mind repeatedly wanted to think of nothing else but Yukino. Her pencil quivered on the empty canvas of paper as thoughts of Yukino in various cutesy outfits plagued her mind.

Yurippe turned her head towards Kanade to see her staring off into space with some slight drool forming at the edge of her mouth. "Kanade!" Yurippe shouted, causing Kanade to snap out of her daydream.

"Uh, w-what?" Kanade sputtered as the pencil in her hand flung out from her fingertips.

"Gosh, you're hopeless, Kanade," Yurippe sighed.

Yukino sat down on the edge of the steps outside the school, her hands tucked deep into the pockets of her coat. The air was refreshingly cool - winter was not far around the corner. Students were streaming out from the double doors as the school bell rang for the last time for the day. Yukino smiled and bade her fellow classmates goodbye as they passed her on the steps. It wasn't until Kanade's face appeared from the crowd, Yukino picked herself up.

"Kana-chan!" she said happily as she hugged her sister. Kanade looked taken aback from the sudden hug. "I've been waiting for you," Yukino said as she clasped an arm around Kanade's.

They walked arm and arm as the they walked through the park on the way back to their dorm. Kanade was being awfully quiet and Yukino was becoming worried that something might be wrong. "Kana-chan," Yukino said through the silence, "is something wrong?"

Kanade smiled and said no, but Yukino suspected that her smile was forced. Yukino continued to inspect the look on Kanade's face - trying to read her expression, but Kanade only continued to look away from Yukino. Yukino couldn't take the silence any longer so instead of taking their usual route home, Yukino tugged Kanade in the opposite direction.

Kanade looked surprised as Yukino dragged her through the other side of the park. "Yukino!" Kanade said. "W-where are we going?"

Yukino didn't answer her, she only continued to lead Kanade through a beaten path through some bushes.

Kanade was worried that Yukino might have lost her mind. She could only helplessly follow Yukino as she dragged her through a place she had never been before.

Yukino finally stopped as they arrived in front of a quaint lake in a desolate area of the woods. Kanade was confused as to why Yukino brought her to this place.

Yukino turned around and gave Kanade a serious look. Kanade felt her legs become paralyzed as Yukino stared at her intensely - she had never seen Yukino look so serious.

"Kana-chan," Yukino finally spoke, "I brought you to this place so we could talk. This place is where I like to come to think and just be alone with my thoughts. I just thought I'd like to share it with you," Yukino whispered as she squeezed Kanade's arm.

Kanade felt her cold body become warm at Yukino's touch. "T-talk?" Kanade asked. "About what?"

Yukino looked into Kanade's eyes as she took a step closer. "Something's been wrong with you these past few days," Yukino said worriedly. "I know something's wrong even if you're not telling me. I am your twin after all," Yukino said quietly as tears formed in her eyes.

Kanade's throat dried nervously as Yukino stared at her - waiting for an answer.

This is it, Kanade's mind urged. This is the time to confess to her. Tell her everything - how you truly feel!" Kanade's mouth opened and closed, wanting to say the words she has longed to say, but the words just refused to come out. "I-I…" she could only stutter idiotically as Yukino hung on to her every word.

Say it! Kanade's mind screamed. Kanade was panting and breathing heavily. Her heart was beating so fast, she felt faint and sweaty. Kanade suddenly felt herself running - running away from Yukino. Running as fast as she could from the truth. She could hear Yukino shouting her name in the distance as she fumbled through the bushes and trees. Before she knew it, Kanade reached the dorm. She went up to her and Yukino's room, shut the door, and cried on the bed.