Sorry it had taken me so long to update (a week...), I was on vacation. Well here is chapter 2 of this story. As for the whole poem thing, I decided to not irritate myself with that idea. I shall try to update every other day. I am also working on another story about Rin so that will be updated on the days that this is not. I apologize for any grammar mistakes/bad writing... Anyways I hope you enjoy chapter 2! Reviews are appreciated :D
"Rin, why do you still insist on traveling with Lord Sesshomaru and me? By this age you should be married and have ten children!" Jaken yelled at me. The short little demon had struck quite a tender nerve. I gave him a good punch to his skinny arm accompanied by an icy glare. We barely ever talked now and the few words occasionally exchanged between us weren't nice ones. Of course we always fought in the past but there was always a bond shared between us. Now it seems that bond has withered away just as mine with Sesshomaru had.
"Shut up Jaken! I am not interested in marrying any human or having kids with one! I will stay with Lord Sesshomaru forever until the day I die!" I said with crossed arms. I used to say that with such confidence but in recent months I believed that less and less. Jaken rolled his eyes and tugged at Ah-Un's reigns. I pet the dragon as it trotted by and it seemed delighted from my touch. At least I knew he would love me unconditionally.
I followed slowly behind Jaken and wondered when Sesshomaru would return. It had been at least a week since I had seen him. I had always been curious about where he went off to for so long. I would wake up in the morning and he would be gone without a single word to me or Jaken. I missed him each time he left, it didn't matter that he never spoke to me; just seeing him walk gracefully in front of me and his beautiful, silky hair fall down his back so perfectly was enough for me to want to never leave him.
It's no wonder he knows I love him. Each day I watch him with my lustful eyes. How I used to blush when he caught me staring at his perfect face. At night I would sit and dream of us being together and being married. My face absolutely glowed from the thought of it happening one day. I used to pick him flowers everyday and lean against his arm, hoping that he'd take the hint and take me as his wife. That obviously never happened. I laughed to myself about how stupid I must have seemed: A poor village child trying to romance a great demon lord. Sounds like the stuff of fairy tales.
"Oh Me Lord you've come back!" Jaken exclaimed as he and Ah-Un ran toward Sesshomaru. I froze and looked at Sesshomaru's expressionless face nod to the two demons before him. He began to walk in my direction and my heart beat quickened. Was he going to hug me, to hold me? I stared at him wide-eyed and smiling like a fool. He wasn't looking at me though; he wasn't acknowledging my presence at all. He walked right past me and my smile quickly disappeared as I realized that I just happened to be in his walking path. Jaken passed by me with a smirk on his green, bumpy face. I shoved him to the ground and began to walk behind Sesshomaru.
"Hello Lord Sesshomaru, did you have a good trip?" I asked in my same cheerful voice. He grunted at my question and from that I knew that it was the end of our conversation. I sighed and looked at my bare feet. I was tired and wanted to rest before we continued our seemingly endless journey to nowhere. Jaken was babbling on about how an ungrateful and rude child I was. It was mere background noise to me. My attention was focused on my 'human issues', as Jaken liked to call them.
"Jaken, do us all a favor and silence yourself." Sesshomaru ordered with his usual calm yet threatening tone. I snapped out of my thoughts of food and water as my stomach did flips and a million questions about my Lord raced through my mind. Was he defending me? Are things returning to normal finally? Does this mean he truly does care? I smiled to myself and decided that ignorance was bliss.
Jaken was quiet for the rest of our walk until we reached a small stream. I rushed over to it and cupped my hands to collect the cool water for my dry mouth. I felt amazing; Sesshomaru had stood up for me (possibly). I gasped at all the fish darting around in the stream and my stomach began to rumble. I tied up my kimono and jumped in the water, scaring all the fish away. I giggled loudly as fish slipped through my fingers and I was splashed by their dives back in the water. I turned to look at Sesshomaru, sitting against a tree meditating. Jaken was grooming Ah-Un and most likely grumbling to himself about why he even bothers.
I decided to instead collect fruit from a nearby bush instead of continuing my attempt to catch fish. Kaede had taught me about poisonous berries and edible ones. I knew exactly which ones to pick for my empty stomach. After collecting a sufficient amount of berries, I ran to Sesshomaru and sat right next to him. Maybe I was acting too confident for the time, but what if he hated me again tomorrow? I couldn't take the chance; I had to win him back over today while he found me tolerable.
"Hello Lord Sesshomaru, Jaken and I had missed you!" I beamed. I began eating berries and waited for his response. Even in the past when I was younger, he never talked much. I would just continue to talk at him with him occasionally nodding his head and making sounds of agreement. "It seems like I haven't spoken to you in forever! Did you defeat any strong demons while you were gone?" I continued to talk and ask him questions that he never answered.
"Rin, why are you bothering me with such pointless chatter?" Sesshomaru interrupted with harsh words. I felt my face get hot with an embarrassment and my eyes involuntarily began to produce tears. My mouth could, for once, find nothing to say. I knew there was no right response to give him, it wasn't an actual question but instead a nicer version of what he told Jaken. He hadn't been defending me earlier; he was just irritated by the sound of Jaken's whiny voice, as he was with mine. With that realization, I stood up and walked away from him. I walked off into the nearby woods to escape the sight of the heartless demon and his followers. I didn't want anyone to see how emotionally weak I was as I cried. Sesshomaru would still probably smell the salty tears as they roll down my flushed cheeks but I felt better knowing that Jaken wouldn't see me so vulnerable.
I knew it was a dumb to walk off into these demon infested woods alone but some strange part of me wanted to get attacked. To see if Sesshomaru would save me like he always used to and if he didn't, maybe he would feel horrible about hating me after I got injured or even died. I laughed at my stupid logic and continued down the natural trail that was created from years of animals traveling through the woods. I just didn't understand why Sesshomaru couldn't just accept me as his wife, if not that then why not just a faithful companion as he used to? He had gone out of his way to revive me twice and I can't even count how many times he had saved my life. He used to protect me and make sure I was comfortable and happy. Isn't that what a husband does for a wife anyways? Sure he would probably never kiss me or think of me in a sexual way, but I doubt he would feel that way about anyone. I would be the closest to a wife he would ever have, so why couldn't he see that?