I opened my eyes to what seemed like a new world, though I was still laying exactly where I feel down and later started burning. I realized what I was immediately after I felt the painful burning ache in the back of my throat. I was a vampire.
I had no clue what to do. All I really could do was wander around. There was no sign of the vampire that changed me around here, and I'll probably never find out who it was... I didn't know what to do. So I decided to go hunt. I knew I was going to take the lifestyle of the Cullens. I didn't want to be a monster either.
After I'd hunted, I couldn't think of anything else to do. And I couldn't let my mind wander; when I did all I could think of was Charlie and Renee and how I was hurting them, or... Edward, how he left me there in that forest. I really wanted to hate him, but I just couldn't. I still loved him. And I missed him. But, I wasn't good enough. There was no way I'd ever see him again.
Thinking about this was not a good idea. I had ended up sitting on the ground in a fettle position. If I could still cry, I would be right now. I just wanted to die. Either that, or forget everything that involved Edward.
I just sat like that, I couldn't think of anything better to do, so why not? Then the wind blew, I could smell human blood. I knew I wouldn't be able to control myself if the human got any closer, so I ran away.
For now, I didn't know what to do. But I'd figure it out. But I knew I couldn't stay in Forks, I'd have to go somewhere far, far away. Where? I don't know. I just ran, I don't know which direction I was going, I didn't care where I ended up. I loved running. I didn't wanna stop. And I wouldn't, not until I absolutely had to.