I looked up at my best friend, studying the way his hair covered his face before he shook his head to remove it. He stared off into space for a second, as if he were trying to decide how to put what he had to say into words. "Demi," he finally said. I nodded. "This song...it's crap. We can't seriously perform this tomorrow." He looked at me. I sighed and looked down. I was never the best at making eye contact. He sighed too. "Why don't you ever look at me." He asked me seriously in a whisper. For some reason, I felt my heart jolt as he spoke. I tried to get a grip on myself. "I just...can't make eye contact. You know that." I reminded him. He smiled a little and nodded. "I know. It just sucks when you can't look at me." He complained.
"I love your eyes, and I never get to see them." He tried to physically force me to look at him. I laughed and pushed him off. We started wrestling around as we usually did. It was something we did often for fun while touring together. "We're not-performing that song." He grunted as he pinned me down. I laughed. "You-" I took a deep breath. "Make it sound as if we have a choice." I pushed him over, tackling him and pinning him in the same position. He huffed slightly. "We would if you would just-" He started fighting me to break free. "stick up-for yourself." He had finally straddled my waste, pinning me down completely so I couldn't move. "Joe." I whined, struggling. He laughed in victory. "Beg." He said simply, pushing the song away for the moment. I laughed. "In your dreams." I teased him. He smiled and pressed his stomach to mine as I started fighting back harder. My breathing hitched in my throat as he did so. I was surprised that he couldn't feel my heart beating against his stomach. I noticed his facial expression change to something I just couldn't...comprehend. He gazed into my eyes. This time, I couldn't find myself looking away.
"See?" He whispered to me. "Was that so hard?" He asked huskily. I blushed feeling his hard on. Awkward moment to ask that question. Huh? I couldn't find myself answering him in that state. I just stared at him. He bit his lip slightly before capturing my lips in his. My eyes widened incredibly. I couldn't process myself to do anything at first. I felt as if my heart had stopped. Joe was actually kissing me. Like I had wanted for years. I hesitantly and slowly started to move my lips with his. The second that I did, Joe took that as a good sign and removed one of his hands from my wrists so that he could tangle his fingers in my hair. We both heated up the kiss up more and more. I felt shudders ripple down my spine as I felt Joe's tongue slowly grazing my bottom lip. I hesitantly opened my mouth, letting my tongue dance with his. I heard him groan slighlty, switching his position to get more comfortable. He placed both of his muscular arms on each side of my ribs and rubbed his chest against mine. I let out a sigh, which accidentally came out as a moan. I flushed slightly, shutting myself up.
As soon as Joe heard that small moan, he took things another step. He started slighty bucking his hips against mine. I was in my pj's which was just small shorts and a flimsy tank top. He was still in jeans and a t-shirt.
I gasped slightly in Joe's mouth as he grinded against mine slowly. He opened his eyes slightly, to see if I was OK with it or not. I just kept my eyes closed and kissed him even more intensely than before. I started moving my hips with his, shuddering at the amazing friction it created. I felt light headed as I heard him groan throatily.
I gasped slightly as I felt Joe becoming harder against me. I blushed a little, but continued my actions as if it didn't phase me. "Demi." He whispered my name throatily. I looked into his eyes intently. He pressed his cheek against mine and kissed my ear gently, making me shudder. "I want you." He whispered to me dangerously low. "I always have. And I want you. Right here. Right now." his voice was husky and filled with lust as he spoke to me. He didn't let me respond. He grabbed my hair, tilting my head up so he could have better access to my neck. He started trailing hot kisses down it to the top of my tank top, making me breath harder and harder. I just nodded, unsure of whether I could speak or not. I knew one thing for sure. I wanted...no I needed him right now.
I wasn't exactly scared of the sex itself. I wasn't a virgin. That is for sure. I had had sex once before in my life. It was a huge mistake in my eyes, since I didn't even love the guy. But I was drunk and I didn't hardly remember it anyway. All I knew was that I lost something that night that I could never get back. I wasn't even sure if it was by choice or not.
I was more afraid, though, that this time, it would be with Joe. I had, of course, always wanted him. But...I was scared. I was nervous. I could feel my hands shaking as I gripped the bottom of Joe's shirt. He froze a little and looked into my eyes, asking me if I was sure. In a silent way. I just nodded again and started pulling his shirt up his very incredibly built body. I gasped slightly when I got his shirt off, trailing my hands down his abs. He hissed slightly at the contact.
He lifted my shirt up off of my body, taking a deep breath as he did so. He left gentle kisses along my flat stomach, nuzzling his face against the warmth of it. When he lifted his head, he flushed slightly, realizing that I wasn't wearing a bra. His eyes lingered on my breasts before he looked back into my eyes. I was blushing uncontrollably, attempting to cover myself. He stopped me and looked a little while longer. He gently left a kiss along my exposed nipple, grinding his body against mine once more. I let out a small gasp, staring down at him, lust dancing in my eyes. His were completely black with lust as he continued to kiss my breasts. He gently brushed his thumb over one as he softly sucked the other, causing me to writhe a little below him and moan slightly. I was in shock, but still as happy as ever. We were actually going to do this. Right here, right now.
I slid my hands down his bare chest and stomach, making him shiver slightly, but continue his actions more intensely. I tried to ignore the sensations that entered my body as he did so and started unbuttoning his jeans. I unzipped them and pulled them down, eying his boxers and the large bulge outlining them. He pulled away from me for a moment to discard his jeans and started kissing me roughly. I kissed him back just as hard. I had no idea where this confidence was coming from.
As weird as it sounded, I knew that if I thought about Joe and I doing this, I would also build up the confidence to change the song and make it worth while. And that was exactly what I was going to do. I had a song I had written as a duet and I knew that I could maybe get Joe to perform it with me. I hope.
Joe quickly pulled down my shorts and tossed them across the bed, grinding his body against mine hard. I arched my body in pleasure. When I had first had sex, I didn't get these feelings, I knew for sure. Even though I didn't fully remember my first time exactly, I knew that I would at least remember this feeling coursing through my lower body, making me twitch slightly below him.
This is real This is me I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now Gonna let the light shine on me Now I've found who I am There's no way to hold it in No more hiding who I wanna be This is me
Song lyrics danced around in my mind for a moment as Joe started to pull down my underwear. I was trying my hardest to think about something else to keep myself from blushing. And the first thing that came to mind was the song I wrote but was told it was no good.
Joe gasped softly as soon as he had me completely naked. "God." He whispered to me, brushing his palm up my thigh. I felt goosebumps rise quickly as I writhed slightly beneath him.
My hands shot up at Joe's boxers, tracing the hem of them slowly, making him eye me darkly, dangerously. I stared back at him with the same look and started pulling them down. I bit my lip once I saw him fully exposed. I could feel myself become wetter, just imagining him inside of my pussy with that.
Joe rubbed his body against mine again, pressing himself against me and grinding rapidly but softly. I gasped and moaned, gripping his jet black hair harder than before. He groaned in pain and pleasure. "Are you ready?" He whispered huskily to me. "More than ever." I whispered back, digging my nails into his shoulder blades as he pressed inside my pussy.
To ne honest, it did hurt for a fraction of a second, making me gasp. He was afterall, bigger than who I was with on my first time. The pain abruptly faded when I though to myself Joe is inside of me.
I lifted my knee up slightly, bending it so that it was pressed against his ribs. Joe wrapped his hand around my thigh, curling my leg around him tightly as he started pulling out of me and pressing back in more firmly. I felt my whole body jolt with heat. My stomach swam in flames as he started pumping a little faster. "God." I whispered. It felt amazing. I moaned his name slightly, gasping as I did so when he pushed into me harder. "Fuck Demi. Do you know how long I have wanted this?" He moaned, removing his hand from my thigh and sliding it down my body to rub my clit softly, keeping his other hand fisted into the blankets of the bed to hold himself up. I gasped feeling him rub my clit. He was amazing in bed. Way better then the last person I was with. I tightened my leg around him, causing my walls to tighten slightly as well, making him hiss. He started pumping into me harder. I could feel myself getting closer and closer throughout the hour as he thrusted into me more furiously. "I love you." He whispered into my ear, catching my ear lobe in between his teeth, gently nibbling on it. "R-really?" I found myself stupidly asking. "For years and years I have." He told me softly, grunting slightly, thrusting faster now. I felt myself tense at the burning sounds of our heavy breathing and our bodies slapping against each others. With every thrust, the more and more my walls clenched around Joe's dick. He started cursing and moaning into my neck as he lost it cumming inside me. It was at that moment that I remembered he never put on a condom. But I didn't care. "I love-you-to." I panted, causing him to finish me off roughly. I screamed out. "JOE!" As I came hard all over his dick.