I know I said this would be based off only Tears for Fear's song….but I found a song that was PERFECT for this story's theme. I owe it all to a friend of mines. Thanks! Together we found a perfect playlist for this story and its helped me a lot with getting ideas for the story – but I think its kidna given me too many ideas so there will be a few different versions of this story in the future, I'm sure.
Songs (Lyrics) in this chapter is: Mad World – Tears for Fears ; Down with the sickness – Disturbed ;
Summary: What's the point? Why survive? Why try? Isn't this the end? Shouldn't we just stop? Why do we continue even though hope doesn't seem to exist – that there will be no end to this suffering…we're the only ones left…the only ones…"The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had," – Tears for Fears
Warning: Character Death, Gore, Language, Yaoi, Self-Mutilation, Violence, Oc, Oc love, Insanity, Dark Humor.
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Post Mortem
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Can you feel that?
Ah, shit…
Amber eyes cracked opened as he felt someone tap him on the shoulder. He picked his head up from the window and blinked sleepily. He sat there for a minute watching the passing scenery through the window before he felt another tap on his shoulder. He turned his gaze towards the person tapping him and was greeted with a smile. "Breakfast is done, sleepyhead," The person said with a chuckle. A plate was sat in front of him and he stared down at it blankly. "Sessh…you okay?" Amber eyes rolled back to look at the person standing over him with a worried frown. The man standing over him had white hair – though his eyebrows were black – and brown eyes. "Sessh?"
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Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
They were sitting outside on the porch in front of the two story house. "Someday, m'gonna be a rockstar!" The ravenette sitting on the steps said. There was a chorus of snorts.
"You ain't gonna be no rockstar, Inuyasha! S'no way you can sing!" The ravenette leaning against the railing said.
"Shut up, Miroku! I sure could sing!" Inuyasha shouted and stuck his tongue out. "Right, K'gome?"
"Ya! Inuyasha can sing! He can sing really good," The girl sitting next to Inuyasha exclaimed. "I heard him sing once!"
"He doesn't gotta know how to sing to be a rockstar. He can just start screaming and call it music," The brunette sitting on the porch swing snorted – Sango. "Right, Sessh?" She elbowed the ravenette sitting next to her.
"Yeah," He said quietly. "But…Inuyasha could probably do it," He said looking at his brother. "Daddy says if you believe in something enough, it'll come true,"
"Yah! See even Sessh and our dad says so!"
"Yeah right,"
And I feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
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"Sessh?" Inuyasha shook the smaller. "Dad, Sessh is spacing out again," Inuyasha said with a frown. Inuyasha moved when his father walked towards him and sat down next to Sesshomaru.
"Sesshomaru," His deep voice rumbled lowly. Sesshomaru continued to stare at the plate in front of him until his father gently pulled his face to look at him. Sesshomaru stared at his father with blank pools of amber.
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Sesshomaru's eyes cracked open when he heard muffled yelling. He sat up slowly and frowned at the door. He stood up and walked towards the door, pulling his blanket with him. He wrapped the thick quilted blanket around him as he slipped on his slippers and walked out the door. He walked towards the light coming up from downstairs and stood at the top of the landing. He walked down a couple of steps and sat down, leaning against the railing as he listened to the rising voices. "I just don't understand why!" A female voice yelled. "The bills are piling up! With both of us working, we're not going to be able to pay for anything!"
"What you're suggesting is not going to make matters any better!" The male voice shouted back.
"It'll stop the incoming hospital bills! My god, Toga, the medication cost thousands of dollars a month! The other one is not helping much chasing a dream that will never come true!"
"Don't give me this speech again!"
"Well it seems you're not getting this through your thick skull at all!"
"Tell me, then. What the fuck do you want me to do? You're not helping by screaming in my ear about shit I have no control over!" Toga boomed in a loud voice that made Sesshomaru flinch. Sesshomaru stood up and walked down the stairs.
"You want to know what I want you to do?" the woman asked in a low hiss. Sesshomaru made it to the bottom of the steps without making a noise. "Just let him die!" Sesshomaru paused and turned towards the living room.
Drowning deep in my sea of loathing
Broken your servant I kneel
(Will you give in to me?)
It seems what's left of my human side
Is slowly changing in me
(Will you give in to me?)
"He's already dying! The medication is just postponing the inevitable! They only gave him 3 years to live! Why are you just making it harder on us for when his time does come?"
"How could you even – " Toga's voice was shaking with anger. Sesshomaru turned towards the front door just as the man began to speak again. "Get out," The man said in a low, threatening voice.
"W-What?"
"I said get out! Pack up your shit and get the fuck out of this house! How could you even think I would let you kill my son?" Sesshomaru opened the front door silently and slipped out of the house. He closed the door behind him just as silently and sat down on the porch swing with his feet up. He wrapped the blanket around him and stared out at the dark street. Sometime later, he heard the voices inside the house pick up in volume. A dark colored sedan had pulled up in front of the house. The front door slammed open and Sesshomaru slowly brought his gaze to the woman standing there with a scowl on her face and a bag slung over her shoulder and two others with wheels dragging behind her.
"I'm sick of you!" She shouted red in the face with anger. She began to stomp across the porch but stopped in front of Sesshomaru and frowned. She glared at him and Sesshomaru stared back at her with blank pools of gold. He tilted his head to the side slightly as the two stared at each other. She frowned at the boy's continued and unblinking stare at her. She shuddered uneasily.
Looking at my own reflection
When suddenly it changes
Violently it changes (oh no)
There is no turning back now
You've woken up the demon in me
"How does it feel to know a man has chosen a dying being over you – someone he can spend the rest of his living days with?" Sesshomaru asked monotonously with the same blank expression. She frowned and turned away from Sesshomaru and stomped down the steps. Sesshomaru turned to see his father standing in the doorway with an angry scowl on his face.
"Stupid bitch," He growled angrily. When the sedan finally pulled away, that's when he noticed Sesshomaru sitting there staring at him. His anger was immediately replaced with worry. "What are you doing out here in the cold?"
"I have a blanket," Sesshomaru said shortly. Toga frowned as he walked towards his son and sat down.
"How much of that did you hear?" Toga asked silently.
"Most of it," Sesshomaru shrugged. He leaned against Toga. "Am I dying?"
"Sessh…"
"Tell me the truth,"
"…" Toga stared down at his son with a sadden expression.
"The silence speaks," Sesshomaru whispered lowly. Toga wrapped an arm around Sesshomaru and pressed his lips against his temple.
"I'm sorry…"
"I'm not," Sesshomaru mumbled. A moment later he spoke again. "I don't want to die yet,"
Get up, come on get down with the sickness
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"And I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles"
Sesshomaru sung lowly. Toga frowned in confusion. "What?"
"Those are the last lyrics," Sesshomaru said, looking at Toga. "Finally finished the song," Sesshomaru stared at Toga with a small smile. Toga managed a smile.
"You're going to write it down for Inuyasha?" Sesshomaru nodded. "Finish your breakfast first, okay?" Again, Sesshomaru nodded. Toga stood up as he watched Sesshomaru turn towards his food and begin to eat.
"He's ok?" Inuyasha asked. Toga looked at him with a nod.
"He was just thinking, I guess. He said he finished the song for you," Toga said. Inuyasha nodded. A few hours later, the vehicle pulled to a stop.
"Well…here we are. Costa Del Inuyasha! Also home to the band," Inuyasha exclaimed as he jumped up from where had been sitting to float towards the front of the bus. Sesshomaru watched his father stand up and walk towards the front. He stood up as well but walked towards the back of the bus to pick up a white hood shawl – which looked more like a cape then a shawl. He slipped the light article of clothing over his head and tucked his white hair back into it before picking up a blue medical mask and placing it over his face. He walked towards the front of the bus.
"INUYAAASHAAA~!" Kagome squealed as she ran up to Inuyasha and tackled him. "Oh, I've missed you so much!" She said happily, pulling away from the chuckling man.
"Hey guys," He said as the rest of his friends walked up to him.
"So," Miroku smirked. "Hello, Mr. Taisho,"
"Just…Toga," Toga said with a frown.
"'Kay. Toga," Miroku smiled. "How have you and Sesshomaru been? We only ever hear from you guys from Inuyasha's letters and a few of the phone calls he lets us listen in on,"
"What? I don't let you listen to any – Miroku!" Inuyasha snapped and glared at him. Miroku grinned with a shrug.
"I'd like to take a soak and then a long nap," Toga grumbled as he glanced at Inuyasha. "Sleeping in a moving van is not very comfortable…" Inuyasha snickered.
"Tohara, can you show my dad to his room," Inuyasha asked the man now walking towards them. The man stopped and clucked his teeth.
"Yes sir," He turned and began to walk away.
"I'll bring the bags in dad,"
A few hours later found Inuyasha and his friends inside and sitting in the living room. Toga had retired for a nap and Sesshomaru was walking around the house taking in the view. He walked into the living room where Inuyasha was and the talking quiet down. "Hey Sessh," Sesshomaru turned his head slightly. "This is the band," He said, standing up to walk towards Sesshomaru. He grabbed the other's pale hand and walked into the middle of the room. "You already know Miroku," Inuyasha said with a smirk and pointed at the pony-tailed man. "He's our drummer," Inuyasha pointed at the man sitting next to Miroku. "That's Koga, our bassist," He pointed at the blue haired man who had his arms spread out on the couch across from Miroku and Koga. "And that's Kai, our guitarist," Kai grinned and did a two fingered salute.
"So you're the brains behind the idiot, huh?" Koga asked. Inuyasha glared at him.
"Your lyrics are bomb," Kai spoke up from his spot. He stood up and Inuyasha glared at him. Kai stuck his hand out. "Nice to meet the one writing such beautifying words," Sesshomaru stared down at Kai's hand. He slowly brought his gaze up to meet Kai's own ambers. Kai's grin faltered as Sesshomaru stared at him unblinkingly. He let go of Inuyasha's hand and walked passed Kai. Everyone snickered. Kai pouted and crossed his arms. "Ass," Inuyasha punched him in the arm with a glare before turning his gaze back to Sesshomaru.
"Hey, Sessh. Kags and us were going out. D'ya wanna come with?" A nod was his reply.
I cut this short because I don't really want to have more than 2 songs in a chapter because then everyone including myself would get confused. Don't worry; the next chapter will be up soon.
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