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Going Home
A feeling of nerves and anxiety hit me as I arrived in Forks. Could I really do this? Could I face all of the demons of my past? Yes, Bella. You have to, for Leah. She needs you.
I draw in a shaky breath as I pull my Jeep into Charlie's drive. I turn off the motor and grab my phone. I open my door just as Charlie walks out onto the porch. I slip my phone into my pocket along with my hands. Damn. I forgot how cold it can be here in September. I walk slowly up the walk. Charlie meets me half way and awkwardly pulls me into a hug.
Damn, it's good to see you, Bells" he mutters. "Have a decent trip?"
"Yeah, it was ok. Just really long" I say as I hug him back. It felt nice to be with my Dad again. He was the only steady man in my life. He would be the only man to ever hold my heart.
Let's go inside and get you some coffee, you're freezing," he said turning to walk into the house with his arm still around my shoulders. I smiled up at him. He really was more observant than anyone gave him credit for.
I walk into the house that held so many memories. Edward holding me while I slept. Jacob and I having popcorn fights in the living room. Leah telling me about soul sisters, bonded brothers and imprinting. Yep, lots of memories here. Everything looked exactly the same. God, this sucked.
I sat at the kitchen table while Charlie puttered around starting the coffee. After a couple of minutes the relaxing smelling drifted around me. I inhaled deeply enjoying the comforting atmosphere for a moment. I didn't know what to talk about when he cleared his throat and looked at me in his Charlie way.
"Bells, I know it was hard for you to come back here after… well… everything but I'm glad to have you back, kid." He looked down at the table as he mumbled, "I sure missed you."
Damn. I hate this. I don't want to even be here and he says something like that? Guilt flows through me as I realize that my leaving hurt him so much. I really need to get drunk. I don't know if I can do this. Yes! You can. Come on Bella, suck it up. This boo hoo shit is not who you are now.
With that thought, I just roll my eyes and say "Yep, I know."
I REALLY need to get drunk! Maybe get laid too. Yeah, that's a good plan.