Bella POV:

Where's Edward? I just got back from Renesmee's wedding. Which, as a mother, is the saddest thing ever, but I am happy for her. Jacob has been my best friend and will treat her good.

Thud.

"Sorry Bella," Jasper told me. Oh, we ran into each other. I must be really out of it, oh yeah it's because I can't find my husband

"Sorry Jasper," I gave a little frown and cursed my distracted mind. As he was walking away I thought of something, "Jasper," he spun around to face me, "Have you seen Edward?"

He thought for a second, "No, sorry." Then he walked off.

I walked around the house some more. When I got back to the cabin Edward and I have I saw a note. It was blotchy. Something about the note screamed crazy. I was scared, but I still I read it.

I'm off to show the humans how pretty I am when I glitter. I know none of you care anyway. You left to see the daughter you have. Maybe I'll come back. Just maybe. If you really care you'll come find me. I know you won't though, the voices told me. Amelia promised we'd be happy,

Bye,

Edward

and

Amelia

and

Tidus

the Other Voices

HOLY SHIT! No god please no he can't be gone. Please.

Ring. Ring.

Probably Alice, telling me it's not true that it's some kind of cruel prank.

"H-Hello? Alice" I stuttered.

"Hey," Alice sounded upset, more than the time she missed a sale.

"I-is he really gone?" I cried.

"Bella… I'm so sorry." She told me. "He went crazy and...I couldn't stop him please believe me he just he didn't listen," I knew what she meant, he doesn't listen to anyone but himself… my eighteenth birthday proves a point.

"I-it's okay." I whimpered. "I'll be fine." I hope.

I was an adult, with a daughter who just got married. I had a loving vampire family. I'll be fine. I'll stand up again. Now...I just need a clear head. I need... to go for a run. To feel the air hit my face, let it slap me, making me feel live.

I ran until I reached a medium sized town, just west of Forks. I just stared at the ground, blocked out all the noise and scents, and I pushed a rock around with my foot. It bounced into the road, so I walked in the road and pushed it around some more. Two cars came screeching at me. The one in the lane I was in swerved into the other as I glanced up the two cars collided. The car crash stopped midway. Time froze. I didn't know how much time I had so I ran over to the smaller car a blue Volvo I believe, I'm not great with the names of cars, and pulled the women out and over to the side of the road. Still, time was frozen. Confused, I pulled the man out of his car, a 1999 Mustang I know this car seeing as it's my dream car but want to by it myself. Time unfroze. I freaked out, I mean, time just froze and unfroze, I think that's freak out worthy. One thing ran thru my mind. I ran, I ran back to the house and up the steps onto the porch. I'd have to ask Carlisle about it.

The door was open when I got there just the screen was closed. An awful smell was coming from inside. Either Emmett was attempting to cook again for some ungodly reason or Seth was here. Probably the second one, since Seth had to drop out really early on because he was going through a hard time, we supported him now. It was an agreement, he would travel with us, we'd feed him and if he didn't have a place he'd have a place.

"Hey Bella, I heard about what happened. I'm so, so, so sorry," he said walking over and grabbing me into a huge monster hug.

"I'm fine Seth," I comfortingly said, I guess some might say motherly. I was distracted. "I mean, Edward was being distant. I guess I knew he'd run away soon, just now I know he's not coming back," I whimpered at the thought of `sleeping` alone again tonight.

"So you're being the strong one?" Seth questioned.

"I guess." I shrugged. "I have a few questions, is anyone home?"

"Jasper is still here," He told me, "Esme and Carl," He thought Carlisle was to long, "Haven't left since they got the news, anything I can help with?"

"Sorry," I shot him pity filled eyes, "I think it's more of a vampy thing, do you want anything to eat?"

"I'm good Bells," He solemnly nodded.

"I think I'll go talk to Jasper." I slowly replied giving Seth one last hug before making my way to the stairs. As I walked up the stairs and went to Jasper's study. I relayed what happened during the crash. The door was tightly closed so I lightly knocked.

"Come in," His voice was sad and dreary but nothing compared to the broken sobs coming from Carlisle and Esme from his office. I turned the golden antique doorknob quickly and gently, I still had to watch my strength or else I would break something else. I placed one finger on the door and pushed to open it, it slowly creaked open.

"Um...Jasper. Can I ask a question?" I shyly asked.

"Just did," He muttered. I ignored that comment, stupid dumb ass.

"Have you ever had like a moment when time froze? Like something bad is about to happen and it just froze?" I asked.

"No..." He was intrigued, "Did that happen?" he asked leaning forward so his forearms were resting on his knees.

"Yeah..." My voice trailed off. "I went on a run...and walked into the road. One car swerved and just as it was about to crash time froze for just enough time for me to get the people out."

"That's odd," The way he said it made him have even more of an accent then I'd ever heard. "I suppose it might mean you have another gift, or maybe you comprehended the scene so quickly that-" He stood up and started pacing ending his sentence there, thinking everything thru.

"So quickly that what?" I asked, I kind of knew what he'd say.

"So quickly that you seemed to think time froze. For now I'll see if I can figure out anything. Maybe someone else has had that happen to them. I might call some old friends about this. Do you think you could do it again?"

"I don't even know how I did it Jasper." I looked down ashamed.

"Well, for now we assume you did, try again. If you can then open the door or something," He encouraged, I guess you could call it that. It was more like a demand. "and stop feeling ashamed Bella, we will figure this out. Together okay?"

"Um...Okay," I said, closing my eyes and thinking about stopping time, then I opened one a crack, no luck.

"What were you thinking about right before the crash?" He asked.

"I-I was thinking about how life wasn't fair...about how I just lost Edward to his own craziness. Hoping his death was painless." I said desperation in my voice. Jasper lost his calmness for a second, losing his control on his gift and then looked at me with pity. Apparently he didn't know.

"Are you okay Bella?" He asked me, concern in his eyes.

"Am I horrible person because I don't feel anything? Because I'm not breaking down?" I asked, looking out of the window by the pink dresser, Alice's I safely assumed.

"No," He quirked his head to the side a bit. "You're a wonderful person Bella. You're just keeping yourself from getting hurt." I walked over and hugged him. For a second he froze, like when I was human and got to close, then returned the hug a few seconds later. When we parted after a few seconds he spoke again. "So it's probably strong emotions, think about something that induced them."

I thought of my wedding day. How I walked down the aisle, being scared to death. I didn't feel anything. Not sadness or happiness. Nothing...It was like I was watching a movie. I thought of anything I could...and got nothing. Then I thought about Renesmee's wedding. That got something. I was happy. It felt like cotton was covering my face, but when I reached my hand up I just felt my skin. Then I found myself wishing it would go away. When I opened one of my eyes time was frozen, I walked over to close the door and walked behind Jasper. Then I tried to ease the material back slowly but it snapped back on me.

"Boo!" I breathlessly whispered. "I did it." Jasper turned around and looked at me.

"Good Bella." He praised with a small smirk.

"I still will need some help, the thing snapped back at me." I was starting to get a good breath again.

"Explain," He blinked.

"Well, I tried to think of my wedding, but I couldn't feel anything like the horrible person I am-"

"Bella..." He looked kind of annoyed with me.

"I know! You don't need to tell me! I know I'm a horrid person and anyone that tells me otherwise is a liar." I weaved my fingers into my hair near the scalp and squeezed my hand into a fist. It was a habit from my human life I carried over. Jasper grabbed my wrist so his thumb was on top of where my veins are...or were and applied a bit of pressure. My hand went limp without my own will and he dropped it to my side. Then I just stormed out.

***Later***

SPOV:

It was a warmer day for March, 70º to be exact. We were planting the seeds today for our corn. Wearing light clothing, jeans and a t-shirt and a satchel, which was just an old piece of oversize cloth that I had Katie tie on my shoulder so I looked like a freaking postman. We were raised to know that corn grows best if it's planted by hands instead of a piece of metal. We farmed like our grandparents and their grandparents did. We took horses out to till up the land and threw our corn. We didn't use pesticides or anything, the corn grew they way it wanted.

Katie and I started from different sides of the farm. It was peaceful. I spent half the morning praying that the crops would grow good while we threw the corn. I sung to myself, enjoying the loneliness which wasn't often granted.

I wandered thru the fields listening to my IPod, throwing handfuls of seed like Frisbees. The best way to put it is that we plant seed kind of like they did in the newer Robin Hood movie only we have a few little tweaks. My IPod changed songs. Long Black Train came on and I softly sang with it wishing I could get my voice in that deep sexy way he Josh Turner does.