Running, hiding, cowering, for all of my god forsaken life! How long has it been since I've seen the sunlight?
Too long.
For ten unyielding years I have stood behind that wicked, hypocritical, stupidly ignorant man's shadow.
He has stuffed me, muffled my voice, and mounted strings on my every limb, turning me into a lifeless marionette. Turning me into him! Into everything he wants me to be.
I want out!
To rip the stings from my back, to undo ten years' worth of seams, to run away from the lurid gleams and unending nightmares into the warmth of the sunlight, that is my dream. That is why I continue to live this hopeless life, that one day I may live. Truly live. Apart from him.
Just three more months until I can sever the ties that binds me to the imposturous hypocrite. Until I will sever the ties.
I utterly despise the beast for he knows not of his faults yet tells everyone to "Repent, for the kingdom of heaven is at hand" (1). I abhor all the more that he preaches to the people "…first take the log out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly enough to take the speck out of your brother's eye" (2) when he does not remove the entire forest that has sprung up in his own eye!
Why God? If you are my God, do you bless him and spurn me? What have I done to receive such punishment?
Alas, just three more months until I will leave this foolishness behind me. Until I am free from the iron hand the pulls at my strings.
I want out. Be it your will or not, God, I will get out!
~Sasuke
1. The verse is from Matthew 4:17
2. This verse is from Matthew 7:5 (NASB translation)
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