When Monday arrived, she was even more confused than she was last Friday. She knew she should tell him the truth, but she also knew that he did not get in. In fact, he hadn't even told her that he was applying. His mom had let it slipped in a conversation between her and Rachel. Carole wanted Rachel to cheer him up because he seemed a little down. He hid it well, but she could tell something was wrong. She decided not to pursue it. When her letter had arrived two days later, she was going to call him and tell him about it, but she knew that he might be hurt that she would get to go without him. When he had confronted her about NYU, she did not want to talk about it. She was trying to protect their relationship from reality.

All it took was one look at Finn, to know that he deserved the truth. She stopped him in the hall on the way to first period and told him to meet her in the choir room at lunch.

He knew she would crack eventually even if she got a little angry on the way. When he walked into the choir room, he was hit with the most beautiful sound he had ever heard. She was practicing her song for Nationals and even though she was sitting on a piano bench and the song was soft he could swear she was on a stage with blaring lights and billions of screaming fans. She is just that kind of amazing.

She heard his footsteps as he entered the room and stopped singing. This was serious business and he needed to know that. She made her way over to the front row of seats.

"Come on. Have a seat. We need to talk."

"You do realize that those are the four most feared words in a man's dictionary" he said trying to make light of the situation.

"Finn, this is serious" she paused for dramatic effect, " I did get into NYU and I am going to attend in the Fall."

He stood up. "I knew it. I knew it. You're gonna be great, Rach. You're gonna shock them all. They won't know what hit them." He smiled.

Well, if she wasn't confused before, she certainly was now. She had expected him to be upset that she lied and had decided to go there without him. That was the whole reason for the awkward box of Kleenex in the seat next to her.

"Wait. So you're not upset?"

"Why would I be upset, Rachel? This is great news! Now that you have finally decided to tell me. I mean do you want me to be upset or something?"

"No, it's just, I thought you might not be as excited since you didn't get in."

Looking at the change in expression on his face, she knew she had made a mistake in her last comment.

"How did you know about that?"

"Your mom might have mentioned it."

"I can't believe her. And you… Why didn't you say something? Tell me that you knew?"

By now he was standing/pacing around the room just fuming.

"Finn, calm down."

"Well, you wanted me to be upset."

She looked down knowing she had approached this completely wrong. She decided to stop talking to prevent her from making it worse.

He noticed, of course. He instantly regretted blowing up in her face. She didn't deserve that. He knelt down in front of her and softened his expression.

"Rach, I'm sorry. I'm sorry for getting upset. I'm sorry for prying into your life. I'm sorry for everything. It's just nothing is working out right and I hate that I have no control over what is happening. I know that if we tried, we could have a long distance relationship, but I don't know how I could live without seeing your face every day. Hear me when I say this okay? I love you and whatever happens I want you to follow your dreams. I want you to go to New York and be in a thousand Broadway productions. I want you to sing in a packed auditorium and know that I am with you wherever you go. I'm tethered to you Rach and you are tethered to me. I love you, soo much!"

By now she was crying and shaking her head over and over again. She couldn't have her happy ending without him. She was sure of it. She just didn't know how to fix this. When she started to speak, her voice was shaky which of course never happens.

"I don't want it. I don't want it if I can't have you there by my side. It isn't worth it. I need you. You are my dream."

She was pretty sure he was tearing up, but didn't say anything. She only kissed him.