Chapter 2:
Tara was happy. For a long time after her mother have died she didn't know it could be possible to find a reason to be happy again, but she was and she had found one. Willow, the girl who had made her look up that day at the Wiccan group, was now Tara's reason to smile again. She knew now how special she was, and so powerful! Just as powerful as her mother have been, and Tara couldn't believe how lucky she was to be friends with this special girl. Well at least that's what she hoped they were. She thought, that the moment they got trapped inside that room and together have made their first spell, that she probably wasn't going to see her again. I mean yeah they had share a connection, she felt it and she knew Willow had felt it too, but she wasn't expecting much. I mean she wasn't just going to become best friends with the girl and invite her to do spells and such, how could a powerful girl like Willow would want to be involved in anything with her anyway? She was clumsy, could barely let out three words out of her mouth without stuttering like a total idiot and wasn't even as half powerful of a witch as Willow was. But then again Tara had been wrong, because it was Willow who looked for her the morning after and offered her to come by her room to practice some spells.
She was beginning to get used to their little reunions, and she even found herself looking forward to them each day. She would walk around campus and whenever she spotted Willow she would smile shyly at herself and her heart would skip a beat. There were times when she didn't approach her, not when she was surrounded by her friends. She was afraid that if she walked towards her, Willow would just ignore her or worse, feel embarrassed to admit that she had such a useless new friend like her. So in those days whenever she saw her at lunch or walking out of class followed by her always close friend she would just turn around and go into another direction. Even when all she wanted was to be near her all the time.
This was something that surprised her as well. It wasn't a secret to her now that she was sexually attracted to girls and not boys, in fact she have known for a very long time that boys weren't meant for her. In the beginning she thought something was wrong with her, that perhaps her gift was something bad like her father have told her many times, and maybe it was another reason of why she wasn't normal and why she didn't feel like other girls her age. But with time she realized this wasn't something that had to do with her gift , in fact the first time she kissed a girl and felt that 'spark' she have heard so much about,was when she stopped fighting with herself and admitted this wasn't something that was going to go away. So it wasn't a surprised to her now to find that she felt attracted to her new friends. The small butterflies dancing in her stomach whenever they were together, or the way her heart would beat madly against her chest everytime they were too close, were signs that Willow was working her own little magic in Tara's heart. She was scared though, scared that if she revealed these feelings she would lose the only person who was making her feel less alone in this world. So she kept silent, and just focused in being the best friend she could be. She was willing to hide her feelings forever only to keep Willow in her life.