I am beyond happy about the reviews last chapter recieved. Thank you.. MOre than anything it means a lot when people comment, and say they like it.. I even got a PM about it. That makes my day literally.. The irony I'm posting a chapter of my Jay centric story when a Jay centric episode comes on tonight! Enjoy this chapter!
-Madison
Jay sat quietly. He didn't know what time it was nor did he want too. Erin had gone to sleep earlier than he did. He stayed up watching tv, fixing the room.
It had only been a month. His nightmares had seemed to vanish into thin air. He hadn't had any. Which excited him.
Jay went to work, and everyone knew about Erin. So naturally everyone was excited for them. Hank put her on desk duty. She wasn't going on any raids, or anything until after the baby came.
His phone had sat next to him, ringing.. Over and over again.. Jay hadn't moved to pick it up. It was his best friend Mouse. Calling him to tell him god knows what. It didn't matter to him. He finally got tired and answered the phone.
"What do you want Mouse?" He didn't know what he was calling about.. Jay only thought it was something good but it was 3 in the morning, so it couldn't have been good.
"Le Lex w was in a car accident.. She's on her way to Chicago Med.. It's bad.."
"W was Chase in the car with her?" Jay asked scared to hear what he was going to answer. It was bad enough the nightmares were coming back at the moment. His PTSD hadn't gone away.
"Thank god No. He's with his grandparents.. They called me because they couldn't get a hold of you. I don't know what you are doing but answer your phone."
"I was watching tv. I only answered you because you kept calling. I'm telling Erin then I'll be on my way. Are Keith and Elizabeth on their way?"
"Y yeah. I told them I'd call you then meet you." Jay ran into the master bedroom where his wife was sleeping quietly.
"Erin." Jay tapped her awake.
"Y yeah baby?" She said softly.
"I have to go to the hospital. Chase's wife is there. She got into an accident. I don't know if you want to come or not. I'm sorry I woke you. I love you baby." Jay bent down and gave her a kiss.
"Jay I'm coming. You don't ever have to be sorry you woke me. We're in this together Jay."
"What did I do to deserve you?" Jay asked
He threw on an Army shirt then threw on his shoes and grabbed his wallet.
Erin put on a shirt then jacket and put on leggings that she hoped fit.
They both got into the car. Jay drove to his asking. It was three in the morning.
"Jay if you don't slow down. Your daughter and I aren't going to make it to tomorrow." Jay stopped the car at the hospital which was weird since his wife just made an announcement.
"Daughter? You're having a girl? We're having a girl?"
Erin smiled and nodded her head. "I went with Kim to the doctor. I wanted to tell you. But that was a good time. The doctor. Told me he could find out the gender."
"I I don't care about that Erin. I'm getting a daughter." His eyes were lit up with so much happiness. Erin hadn't seen since before his PTSD came..
His smile was one she hadn't seen in a while either. Now she realized she missed both of those things.
They both got out of the car and walked inside. "I'm here for Alex Kidd? Car accident brought in?" WILL pointed to the room, with the family standing around
"Jay I know how much you loved her."
"Is she gone?"
"Y yeah."
Keith and Elizabeth walked out of the room to see Jay standing there. "Jay? Come here son."
Jay walked towards Keith and he was engulfed into a hug. "It's been a while."
"Y yeah it has. I've been busy." Jay turned around and pointed to Erin.
"Erin! She's my wife. We are having a girl." Keith smiled
"Son I'm happy to hear you're happy. Chase is over there with Mouse. Lex wrote a will. You're on that will. We were going over it the other day in case something happen."
"What do you mean?"
"She gave Chase to you and your wife.. you're Chase's godfather."
"Chase is mine? Are you sure you don't want him? I mean. He's your grandson."
"Jay, I want him. But Chase and Lex would want you to have him. We'll still see him. I guess we'll call the lawyer. I don't know if your wife will be mad either.."
Erin was walking towards them. She stopped once she saw Jay. "Erin Chase is mine..",
"Hold on. So Chase is your kid?"
"No. Lex and Chase have custody of him to me. Erin I can't just leave him. I mean his grandparents would take care of him. But I want to take him. If you're okay with that.. We're in this together. It's your choice too babe." Erin walked closer and put her hand on his chest.
"If this is what you want then we are doing it. I only want what you want, but Jay you have a daughter coming in a couple of months. I need you here for her."
"She's at the top of my priorities, so is Chase.. He can be her big brother." Jay smiled
Erin smiled, she didn't know Chase but from what she's heard Alex did a great job raising him.
Jay walked towards his nephew and bent down. He grabbed his arms and smiled. "Chase."
"Uncle Jay!" Chase screamed.
"Hey bud."
"Where's Mom? Is she gonna be okay?"
"Bud listen. Your mom isn't going to be alright. She's not coming back home. She went up to see your dad.. As much as it hurts to say that. I have too. But you're going to come live with Myself and your Aunt Erin. Do you remember her? Well She's my wife now. I know how hard this is.. but Your mom loved you and I love you. Your Aunt Erin is gonna try her hardest, her and I are having a baby."
"Uncle Jay do I get to bring all my toys?" Jay smiled
"Yeah you do bud. Do you want to meet Aunt Erin?"
"Hi Chase…"
"Hi Aunt Erin. Uncle Jay told me great things about you." He whispered into her ear.
"Well I'm glad he's told you good things.. If not he'd be in the dog house huh Halstead?" Erin smiled
"Yeahhh… sadly."
"Chase do you want to go sleep?" Jay asked
"Yeah.."
"I'll pick up some clothes for him tomorrow.. He's got a couple shirts and things at the house still from last time he stayed."
Keith nodded his head. "Hey Chase. I'll see you later bud. Don't worry Mommy is up there watching you I promise bud." Chase stood up and hugged his grandpa then hugged Mouse.
"Erin Can you take him out to the car? I gotta talk with Mouse." Erin nodded her head.
"So Chase, I heard you like to play baseball." Erin bent down and smiled. "I do too." She whispered into his ear.
"Aunt Erin? Do you like my Uncle Jay?" Erin laughed, for a ten year old at almost five in the morning. He was very jumpy. Erin thought.
"Yeah I do. Fun fact kid he snores when he sleeps.."
They both laughed. Chase didn't have a hard time getting used to her. He warmed up quick.. Jay had come out of the hospital. He had driven them home safely. Once they got to their house Chase went into the spare bedroom which would become his room soon enough. Luckily they had another room for their little girl.
"Jay I'm glad we took him.."
"If we didn't.. I would have. Chase deserves a home.. We are going to give him one with Lydia."
"I love you Jay. I know how hard it is to deal with a death. You just gotta tell me. What about Jess Jay?"
"She's staying with Will until she moves out.. Obviously we can't take her in. I mean I just took Chase in Lydia will be here soon.." Jay said
They both went to bed silently. Jay hadn't thought about anything bad but he had been thinking about Chase. His best friend. Both of his best friends gone in the split of a moment. Once Jay got settled he closed his eyes for a good night's rest. Or so that's what he thought he'd be getting. The named ripped through his mind again. His conscious telling him "Don't think about it…" Jay didn't listen he kept thinking about it. Which kept bringing him more pain than happiness.
"Chase. Chase." Jay shouted throughout the playground.
"Stop calling me Jay. I'm trying to hide from Lex. Besides go play with Shannon." Chase and Jay both laughed
"Chase. Come on." It was a cold winter day, it hadn't begun snowing yet in Southern Chicago. Which surprised everyone.. It was 1988 Jay was back at his childhood playground. little four year old Jay sitting there with his action figures. Chase sat besides him. While Shannon and Lex were running chasing the other kids at the playground. +-+
Their parents were sitting there talking until all of them heard. The sirens. No one wants to hear. The tornado sirens… his mind went back to another memory back in his mind.. He was back in 2003.. Where his whole life was ripped apart.
He heard the sirens once again, before he noticed where he was.. He was back in Afghanistan. He was sitting in the desert with his rifle in his hand and his dog tags close to his heart.
"Jay. Get up off your ass. We have things to do.."
"You're going to be a dad." Jay said
"Yeah I know. Now get up.."
"Chase. I'm not mad anymore. I don't care that you like Lex. She's yours now.. I I will take Shannon."
"Jay this isn't a tv show you can't get brought back to life. Come on before you get us killed."
Jay got up and went into the building where his Sergeant stopped him.
"Halstead you Kidd and Walker. You all have a mission." Jay nodded his head
"I need sleep."
"You'll get it after you finish this." Jay moaned then started walking away towards the humvee. He got in and so did his buddies. They drove to a remote location and waited to get out.. Once they did they blew down the door and shot at the person at the door.
After that they checked every room… Jay was shooting then Chase fell at the fault of a terrorist. Jay's eyes widened then he fell with them.. Walker got low and started shooting until he killed all of them.
"I I need backup. MY friend were shot.."
Jay's eyes opened and suddenly he was back in the real world, with his wife sitting next to him and Chase was right in front of him.
"Hey bud, what's wrong?"
"I couldn't sleep.." Jay looked at the time and realized it was 7.
"I'm sorry bud how about you and I get up and grab some breakfast… I've got something I wanna show you.."
Jay left a note written for Erin on the counter, Chase threw on jeans and a shirt and his shoes then walked out of the door. Chase went to sit in the back.
"Chase you're ten bud? Sit in the front.."
"What if we get stopped by the cops?" Jay laughed
"Did you forget I am a cop? We'll be okay. I missed you bud."
"I missed you too Uncle Jay. Mommy was getting busy with work so we couldn't come see you. SO Aunt Erin is pregnant?"
"Yeah she is. We are having a girl. I know I'm not your dad, and she's obviously not your mom. We just want you to have a home kid. We aren't trying to take their place."
"I know you aren't trying to take their place. Can you tell me about my dad?"
"He was my best friend, he no matter what would always make me laugh. He was so excited about you. When your mom told him. His smile was from ear to ear. I was smiling too. I grew up with your mom dad and aunt Shannon. So hearing that was exciting. I should have saved him. I could have. I should have." Chase looked over with his face frowning
"Uncle Jay, I know you miss him. I do too. But it happened for a reason that's what my grandpa told me. He was mad but it happened for some reason.. in the end you got me. I can carry on his legacy.. And yours too I guess."
"Well we are here ? Did your mom ever bring you here?"
"No.. she never did. She always told me that she didn't want to see his grave. That it was too much."
Jay turned off his engine then got out. Chase followed him to his dad's grave.
"These two men.. MY two best friends." Chase bent down then looked up at Jay.
"It's okay if you want to cry bud.. That's why I come here sometimes. To cry." Jay bent down and engulfed him in a hug.
"I miss you daddy. Momma went to visit you. Uncle Jay said she's never coming back. That scares me. I'm sorry I never came to visit you. I hope you take good care of her up there. She deserves it. I love you Daddy. If you were still here we would have been best friends.. but I'm stuck with Uncle Jay I guess." Chase started laughing through the tears.
"Chase I miss you so much. Everyday I think about you.. I think about your son.. Erin is having a girl. I never thought I'd be more happier.. then this curveball gets thrown. I'm raising your son, but I'll raise him good.. If i was going to have a son, I would have named him Brandon Chase. I miss you more than anything.. I love you Chase..I'll see you again."
"Uncle Jay why didn't my mom ever take me here?"
"I don't know bud, She wouldn't let me see you for the first couple of months.. When I got back.. She blamed me for what happened.. Since then I've blamed myself. Chase,your mom didn't know what to do. I don't blame her. For a while after it happened. I couldn't sleep." Jay bent down and grabbed his nephew's arms. "I wouldn't eat, I would sit in my apartment all day and watch tv, drink beer. I got into a couple bar fights. I hadn't been that type of guy ever. Until your mom told to act straight.. I got up and got a spot in the Police Academy. Then I became a patrol officer, After that I took the Detective's exam.. I met your Aunt. She made my whole world complete. When I came home that first day your mom let me see you.. My smile was the biggest it had ever been kid. She goes 'I know I'm mad at you but Chase would want you to see him.. As he is your godson.' I was so happy. Chase.. It's okay to be sad about your mom.. I am too. If you ever wanna talk. I'm here always.."
"Uncle Jay,I think Aunt Erin is really nice.. She's a keeper."
"I think she's really nice and pretty too. She's not going to take the place of your mom.."
"I know. So when the baby comes.."
"Hey kid it'll be you and I till the end. Lydia will be the cherry on top.."
Jay and Chase walked back. JAy held him in a hug. Tightly until they walked back to the truck.
Erin woke up not much after he left, and once she did she got scared. She looked over at the note and smiled. "Chase and I are going to run some errands for my beautiful wife. You and Lydia stay safe. Love Jay and Chase"
"Uncle Jay I think Aunt Erin would love this." Chase held up a pink onesie that said "Daddy's Princess and Mommy's Mini Me."
"We'll get that. Chase,come with me and pick out a candy or something." Jay's phone rang He smiled at Chase.
"Hey Babe. Anything wrong?"
"No. Nothing is wrong. I just wanted to know when you were coming home. Jay Are you okay?"
"I'm fine.. I'm gonna give Mouse a call.. He deserves it I guess."
"I think he'd enjoy hearing your voice."
"I love you baby. Chase is picking out some food."
Erin laughed "Alright I'll see you in a bit."
Jay smiled at Chase who was trying to pick out his favorite Oreos.
"Momma always let me pick them out. So I decided I wanted some."
"Alright get them. C'mon Bud." Chase laughed
"Can we grab some cereal. I looked in your cabinet. All you had was Special ." Jay laughed
"I think we can get some." Chase picked out his favorite Froot Loops, little did he know it was his uncle's favorite.
The two finished at the grocery store. Then drove home to their house.
"Alright Chase I'm gonna go in unlock the door then be right back out to help you."
"Okay. I'll be okay though." By the time they got home it was mid-afternoon.
"Erin?" Erin walked out of her daughter's room.
"I was looking in her room. She's gonna be so spoiled. She already is." Lydia had already been given dolls and a whole bunch of clothes in the past month.
"She's definitely spoiled. She's our princess." Jay pulled out the onseie from behind his back and showed her
"I got her this.." Erin smiled then started crying.
"Baby don't cry." Jay pulled her in for a hug
"I'm having a baby. With you. I i never thought I'd get here."
"But you're here. With me."
"Uncle Jay." Chase said
"Yeah?"
"Can I join in on the hug." Jay and Erin both smiled
Chase ran toward them and was in the hug. He felt loved.. he felt protected.
I am seriously so proud of this chapter.. I tried my hardest to get it alright.. I know it took me a week, I am so busy but I've been writing a lot more.. Those of you who read Life Ain't a Fairytale, I will try to update that one this weekend. Thank you so much for reading last chapter, so many people said continue so here's the second chapter. I know it's probably not what you expected, not what I did either.. I want to get more of this.. Jay's PTSD isn't disappearing anytime soon.. But Would you want more Mouse in the story? More Will? I plan on doing a part where they are in the district..