Some people just don't know how to take all this grief. Those people would ask for help from another and that's that. However sometimes it's not that easy. Just sometimes they don't ask for help. It's not ok if this person just ignores it and decides to pretend everything is ok because it's not.
Saying nobody took it well would be an understatement. We did what was typical for us. We sang songs to comfort each other and just talked. However not everyone did this. Some of the glee members needed time alone to sort things through…well that was for most cases. One of these would be Puck who's anger at the world multiplied by ten folds. He left the room each time one of us began singing saying that he just couldn't stand it. We eventually found out the he and Rachel had been friends since they were small. It was because they went to the same church every Sunday.
The ones who didn't know her much or had much connection to her just felt regret since they never took the time to meet her or actually give her a chance. I felt the same. I caused this. If it weren't for me. If I just called her by her name and protected her from all the bullies. Not only me but we all stood up for her. The what ifs hunted us in an endless chase of doubt, longing, and most of all regret.
Things seemed pretty bad for us but if we looked at Puck or Finn we realized that wasn't the case. Finn just looked so…what word…he seemed so broken. It was weird not seeing his dumb ass smile or his wild ideas at what to do in glee club. When I say this, I'm pretty sure I say this for all of us but we missed the old him. It all seemed so unreal. It was like you were in a nightmare and couldn't wake up no matter what you did. Not being able to start again and look back at your mistakes. They may seem to not have any meaning or impact. You don't know the whole story even if it may seem like you do. I guess…we all learned that the hard way. Mr. Shuester tried to look strong. We all know that's not true. I've seen him cry when he's alone in his office.
All of us had our ways to deal with this. One thing we all found kinda shocking was that Quinn quit Glee Club. She said she just need time. An entire week she seemed pretty depressed. After that she seemed so happy. You could never know with her, for all I know she could be acting. She didn't come to the funeral either. I caught her in the hallway and asked why, she just looked at me confused as if I was asking some trick question. I asked myself if it was denial, but I the thought didn't last long. We were all busy with all our personal reasons to ponder it for much.
It's after a few months when we finally managed to gather all the broken pieces of our family and put it together. It was then we noticed Quinns missing. Sure we saw her around but we figured she would eventually come back. No one has heard of her or even talked to her in the last few months. Even if they did see her, it was only during class apparently she never goes to lunch anymore. Any glee members also said that whenever she was in class she was genuinely happy. That didn't stop me or Brittney from worrying tho. So as soon as school was done we went to find her, we didn't so we decided to go visit her at her house.
This where everything came tumbling down. Maybe it when way before this, maybe it was when Rachel died or perhaps even farther but something tells me that no one could have prevented this.