Author's Note: Thanks to the great first review of devilKagome I'm back with another chappie! This was easier to whip up since the poem used in the story was just lying around, so...TA-DA!
Disclaimer: 'InuYasha' belongs to Rumiko Takahashi & any other owner(s). Any other characters are created by me and you must have permission to use them. If any events in the story seem similar it's purely coincidental. The poem/song used is called, "Reoccurring Sin of Mine" and BELONGS to ME! Steal it, and I'm GOING TO KICK UR ASS! Thank you.
oOoOo Wo Ai Ni oOoOo
Chapter Two:
Just A Star
A Kikyo & InuYasha Love Story
My heart aches every time I see you,
Although I know the reason why.
It's because my feelings for you,
Are hidden deep inside.
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Stars twinkled in the dark sky, smiling like playful children. Shadows grew taller crawling along the forest's floors. In a small opening, Kikyo sat at the river's edge, soul-stealers encircling her, creating an eerie mist. Her raven locks draped around her, like a curtain of the night sky. Cinnamon orbs shone brighter, against the ghostly illumination of the older miko's pale skin.
The raven-haired miko sighed. She had been doing very intense thinking about whom and what she was now, at this present moment. She'd finally decided that the last chapters of her first life needed to be written and then...closed off forever. Especially, her memories of ...him.
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Trying to keep them within me,
But my love only overflows.
I know it is forbidden...
After all, my love for you...
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InuYasha.
Her first love.
A small, delicate smile slowly broke out across her face.
No matter how many times she'd told herself they couldn't be together due to her miko duties, that hanyou always managed to make her heart skip for joy. Obviously, she couldn't express that feeling, for fear of having a weakness to be exploited.
But the feeling had felt so...beautiful! It was a tingling, warmth sensation that went to her toes and then back to head or had it been her heart? Either way...it was wonderful.
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Is sinful...
Even though it seems so pure.
My love for you is sinful...
So I mustn't love you, anymore?
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She closed her eyes, allowing that moment to be relived.
The raven-haired beauty had stood up from the canoe onto the platform, where the awaiting hanyou was. That's when she had stumbled on an unleveled board. Falling forward...into his arms.
His arms...
Strong...
Warm...
Longing to be touched...?
She had looked up at him, catching his questioning, golden orbs gazing upon her. They seemed to ask," Will this be okay? Aren't you afraid...if they find out?"
All she did was smile.
He brought her into his grasp. He had smelled of the forest, wild and fresh like mint.
And that's all that mattered to her, then.
She didn't care if they found out. She didn't care about the consequences.
It didn't matter.
Nothing did.
But them.
Together in that moment...content with no worries.
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Crying to the silver, crystal moon
In hope of some salvation.
Did the heavens truly despise me?
To put me through this hell?
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A lone tear rolled down her cheek, as the older miko reminisced about the aftermath. They had been condemned by Naraku, to a tragic fate of false hatred and betrayal! She'd died with immense pain and negative thoughts about the man she thought she had loved, and who had loved her back.
She laughed. Life was twisted that way, wasn't it? When you feel the impossible within your grasp, why must it be stolen leaving the one so close left behind?! And why...why did it have to be her? Was it the whiplash of being the miko who embraced her emotions?!
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Every night I pray,
Maybe I'll be graced upon?
No matter what I do, the moon still rises,
To shine on my growing pain.
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She shook her head. Now was not the time foe self-pity. Glancing at the sky, she decided it was time...
Surrounding herself with her soul-stealers, she rose above the trees towards the village, which she had called 'home' in her previous life.
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The dark beauty descended by a tree, awaiting the presence of InuYasha, since she knew he would smell her scent of clay and graveyard soil. A few minutes later, a red-cloaked hanyou broke through the canopy landing gracefully in front of her.
"Kikyo, what are you doing here?" he asked without a moment's hesitation.
"Well, InuYasha it's time...I've decided..." she said glancing to her right, avoiding his eyes.
He gave her a confused look, momentarily, and then a look of concern appeared. "Don't tell me, you're going to try to kill Naraku again, by yourself?!"
Kikyo looked up and into his concerned face. "No, InuYasha. What I mean is...we can no longer see each other..."
"W-Why not? Did that bastard threaten you?" he spoke withholding an angry growl.
The raven-haired miko sighed as she felt a tug at her heart. 'Why couldn't this be easier?' she thought miserably.
Swiftly, she walked towards him, placing her palms on his cheeks. He flinched in shock at her loving gesture. 'Is she feeling...okay?' he thought. Cinnamon orbs looked into amber ones, and then a small sad smile appeared on Kikyo's face. "Because...I am no longer apart of this world, and I've truly accepted this now. At first, I lived in a state of denial, throwing my frustration at anyone who crossed me. But now..."
She stood back from the silver-haired boy, wrapping herself in her arms. "A dark beauty such as me will only condemn you, InuYasha, to my horrid fate. And the love we had is nothing but a small, insignificant star lost within the darkness of the sky, now. It was fragile, but magnificent! However...it was a short-lived love..." She stopped herself mid-way to chance a look at the hanyou. His features seemed ambivalent, unsure if he should smile or cry.
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My love is forbidden,
Even if it is pure.
My love for you is sinful,
So I mustn't love you, anymore?
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Refusing to shed tears, the older miko turned her back to silver-haired hanyou, continuing with her purpose. "What I'm saying is, we've loved each other, we've 'falsely' betrayed one another, I've been re-born, I even attempted to bring you into the depths of hell, and now...I want to say goodbye," she spoke softly.
InuYasha's eyes widened; he stepped closer to Kikyo. "What...?" he asked astonish.
She went on. "I can't have you, so I will allow you to experience what I couldn't. I died young...but my first life was bounded by the rules of being a miko. If I hadn't met you, I would have grown a cold woman, but I met you and was allowed a sweet escape into peace. I'm actually very grateful to you, InuYasha. So, now I want you to do this for me: Let me, go."
"But..." he began.
"Listen, InuYasha...living this 'second life' has given me a chance of freedom. I don't have to be bound by anything! So, please let me go, because you have a happy life now, live it. You deserve it..."she said as the tears tumbled down.
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This burden is eternal,
Forever burning in my chest.
I'll never let it go, though,
With this curse, I'll do my best.
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She turned around, right into his embrace. Her eyes widened, as the moment rushed right back.
His arms...
Strong...
Warm...
Looking up at him, tears flowing freely, she tip-toed closer to his face.
And kissed him, lightly, with a smile plastered on her face.
Pulling away, she whispered, "Goodbye."
He smiled, shaking his head slightly. "No. I'll see you around. This is just the end of our old selves, not our new ones."
Kikyo, surrounded by her soul-stealers once more, soar into the night sky. She smiled again, tears rolling down uncontrollably as she thought, 'Goodbye, InuYasha...I love you. I always have. '
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Hell needs to freeze over,
Before I ever let you go.
The twinkling stars,
Within heaven's skies know so.
Choir Angels sing in grief,
They know my dreadful fate.
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He stood there, watching her disappear among the stars.
A howl broke the silence and the hanyou blinked out of his daze, as his senses rushed back to him. His ears tweaked to rustle among the leaves behind him. Turning instantly, his amber orbs pierced the darkness...only to see wide, cinnamon orbs staring back.
"Kagome?"
Without further ado, she turned around running into the forest.
He didn't follow. He only muttered, "Damn."
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My love may be forbidden,
Even if it is pure.
Sinful as it is,
Why was my love never yours?
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Ooh la la! Poor Yasha just can't get a break! Well, if you liked this chappie, please review! Also, there's something about these two one-shots...I wonder who knows what that is? Tell me in your review!
Buy-bye!