My Disclaimer: I own nothing relating to Instant Star or Sober by Kelly Clarkson. I am just using both parties as I wish.
As of yesterday he has been gone three months. And as always there is a girl sitting in a recording booth trying to write her next hit. But little did this girl she was being watched by her older sister and her sister's boyfriend.
"I want to help her so bad but I don't know what she needs" Sadie explains to Kwest
"I know you do, Hun, but you have to believe she can do this without you."
"But what if she can't, Kwest you saw what she was like the day after he left." She says as she turns to her boyfriend of two and a half months.
"Yeah you're right I did." He pauses and looks in the window at the girl they have been discussing for the past two months. "And that is why I think she can do this on her own. She is strong Sadie, Stronger than I think anyone would believe."
Sadie nods her head in agreement as she make her way back to her place at the receptionist's desk. Kwest takes a deep breath before walking in the room that held so many memories for the one who was already there.
"Jude, do you have anything to record?" He asks her as he sits in the chair next to her.
"No, but I do want to talk to you about something important." She tells him as she turns to face him.
"Okay, Shoot."
"Was there ever a point in your life where you loved someone so much that, you were to afraid to tell them how you truly felt?" She asks him but not totally looking him in the eyes.
Kwest looks out at the receptionist desk to Sadie before answering Jude's question. "Yeah I have. And to tell you the truth, I think you should tell them before it is too late."
"But what if it was already too late. How do I tell this person I love him when I don't even know where he is?" She asks on the verge of tears.
"Is this about the way you feel about Tommy?" Kwest asks her as gently as possible, knowing the delicate state she is in.
She let the tears silently fall down her face as she shook her head yes.
"Then I say you write him 2 letters. One that says you love him and that he is the one for you. And one that says you have realized that you love him but he is not the one for you."
"How do I know that he isn't the one for me?" Jude questioned. "I've loved him since I was fifteen. And that hasn't changed one bit in the last three months."
"You don't and you never will, if you don't try and get over him." Kwest reasons with her.
"But what if I don't want to get over him?" She asks.
"Then your love is meant to be and you need to let your heart tell you what to do." Kwest answers.
"Can I ask you one more thing?"
"Yeah you can ask me anything."
"You are in love with Sadie aren't you?" She questioned,
"Now to be able to answer that question you have to promise what I tell you is just between you and me."
"I promise it stays in this room only." She pauses, "When are you going to tell Sadie?"
"I haven't even answered your question and you think you already know the answer." He exclaims.
"NO I know the answer I just wanted to be sure. So do you or what?" She asks again.
"Yeah I do. That is how I knew to answer your first question." He confessed to her.
"So why haven't you told her yet?" Jude asks him.
"The same reason you haven't told anyone about you loving Tommy." He explains to her.
Jude looks at him as she processes the truth behind her feelings for Tommy. Kwest takes her not replying as a sign to leave her alone so she can process her thoughts. As he gets to the door he looks back to see she had already started to write in her notebook which was a good sign considering she hadn't been writing since Tommy left.
She sits there and writes for hours before she finally has what she needs to record the song she has been needing to get out of her system. So she walks into the recording booth and sets everything up before going in the sound booth and pressing record but putting it on a delay.
She straps her guitar around her shoulders and starts to play and sing.
And I don't know
This could break my heart or save me
Nothing's real
Until you let go completely
So here I go with all my thoughts I've been saving
So here I go with all my fears weighing on me
Three months and I'm still sober
Picked all my weeds but kept the flowers
But I know it's never really over
And I don't know
I could crash and burn but maybe
At the end of this road I might catch a glimpse of me
So I won't worry about my timing, I want to get it right
No comparing, second guessing, no not this time
Three months and I'm still breathing
Been a long road since those hands I left my tears in but I know
It's never really over, no
Wake up
Three months and I'm still standing here
Three months and I'm getting better yeah
Three months and I still am
Three months and it's still harder now
Three months I've been living here without you now
Three months yeah, three months
Three months and I'm still breathing
Three months and I still remember it
Three months and I wake up
Three months and I'm still sober
Picked all my weeds but kept the flowers