Hey guys, this is kinda a long chapter and I was just really trying to write in a third person.
Hope you can bear with me
Jerome was sprawled on his bed with headphones on. He was busy contemplating what just happened a few moments ago.
He was trying to comfort Mara when she said something that struck a nerve in him.
"I'm ugly and nobody wants to love me" Mara said after breaking from the kiss with Jerome "So don't lie to my face telling me that you love me cause no one ever love's me" Mara stood up and pushed Jerome out of the door and cried again not knowing what to do.
Jerome was surprise when Mara said those words, he was shock that Mara didn't see what Jerome sees in her.
Mara is the only person that makes him nervous in the best possible way; she was and still is his best friend, she always knew what to say, she was modest, polite, and smart. Jerome was completely and utterly in love with her. But he was struck when she said those words. He felt sorry, sorry for her not seeing what an amazing person she is.
He thought that this was all the meathead's fault. But he did know this wasn't the meathead's entire fault, he knew deep in his heart he did contribute for Mara's self harm. Like for abandoning her during the elections for Amber, not speaking to her since Mick came back from L.A. and for not telling her what an amazing person she was before it was too late.
He couldn't believe that Mara cut herself. Jerome knew that Mara used to cut herself when she was young and he was hurt but he didn't knew that the things happening now will make her do self mutilation again.
"Hey mate what you listening to" Alfie said walking in making Jerome sit up from his bed
"Oh its only you, I thought you were-" Jerome was cut off by Alfie
"Thought I was who? Mara?" Alfie said teasingly.
Jerome took a pillow and through it at Alfie "Shut up and why are you dressed like that" Jerome said looking at Alfie from head to toe wearing a green T-shirt, a jacket and jeans
"Out with Amber" Alfie said grinning like a moron
"With Amber? With Amber 'I'll never go out with you' Millington?" Jerome said in disbelief
"Yup" Alfie said getting his wallet from the drawer
"Well congratz mate, you finally made her to go out with you" Jerome said sounding somewhat happy for his friend
"Thanks" Alfie said headed out the door. When the door closed Jerome resumed to his position.
Thinking what can he do to make Mara see what he sees in her?
Mara was in her room still crying when Patricia entered the room.
"Mara, are you crying?" Patricia said as soon as she sees her
Mara didn't answer; she stood up, fixes herself and went outside leaving Patricia very confused.
Mara headed out of the house, she went to the one place she knew she could get so time to think. A clearing in the woods not far from the school grounds, she sat under a tree the very same tree she went to every time she had a problem. When she first came to Anubis house she went exploring the grounds and found the clearing.
Now every time she needs to think, do some homework and there is just too much drama in house, this was the place where she would go to. She sat under the tree for a long time and thought 'why? Why was this happening to her?' She didn't know what was wrong with her; she couldn't believe that this is happening to her because of a guy and her former best friend.
Amber was pretty and talented, not the brightness star in the sky but she could always get what she wants. The last time she didn't get what she want when Mick broke up with her she got over that very quickly or she says but she was acting weird when Mara ask her if she could do the numerology thing with her and Mick.
Oh Mick. why did Mara every believed that he liked her? She was blinded by the attention to see what was really happening. When she and Mick were dating everyone was nice to her and everyone talked to her as if they were best friends. It was pretty much perfect and she didn't mind that half of the female population gave her dirty looks when she and Mick were together, she actually like it a bit.
Mara hated to be depressed, she knew if her parents and sister saw her now, they would not be pleased. Her parents didn't have time for her but they did have enough time to see how she was; once in a while they would ring her to check on her but that wasn't enough for her.
Her sister and she were so closed always e-maling each other and sometimes calling her on the phone but she still felt alone. Her housemates in the Anubis house weren't that close the barely talk to her except for Amber and Patricia but Patricia only talked to Mara cause they are roommates after all and Amber, Oh God. Amber she and Mara were friends but Mara distanced herself from Amber but she didn't know why, she just knew she had to for some reason.
Mara brought out a small compact mirror she looked at herself trying to smile but she didn't like what she saw. She throws the mirror away from her and it broke, she picked up the mirror looking at it with cracks in it.
She looks at the mirror almost in a trance; she throws it again this time completely breaking it. Bits and pieces of glass on the ground, she took a glass and pressed it against her skin.
She wanted to cut herself again but she couldn't. Her family, her once friends, her sister and him all came to mind. Did she really want to live or die? Sometimes she wanted to give up and go all the way killing herself and then he comes along and changes her mind. They were friends and that's all. Mara would never ever tell anyone but she liked Jerome and after what happened earlier in the house she was wondering if what he said about loving her was true or just a joke, a very cruel joke.
Back at the house Jerome hatched a planned to make Mara realized what a wonderful person she is. He went to her and Patricia's room but it was empty, he went to the common room but she wasn't there, he tried the kitchen she wasn't there. He ask Patricia where Mara was when he saw her but Patricia only answered
'She went out, somewhere I don't know where'.
Jerome knew where Mara was, he felt stupid for not realizing it sooner. Jerome knew about the tree where Mara always came when she needed time to think.
"Nice one mate" Jerome said looking at Alfie with a unpleased look on his face "you made a perfectly cute girl run away"
"Oh sorry" Alfie said looking down
"Never mind" Jerome said sitting down on the couch
"Wait. Do you like her?" Alfie said sitting next to Jerome
"What? No I just meet the person but I do say she is quit something" Jerome said staring to space
"Oh well. Seen Amber lately? " Alfie said.
Alfie started taking about alien things that Jerome could careless
"Yeah. So good luck with that mate" Jerome said patting Alfie on the shoulder and run to the stair trying to find Mara.
When he knocked on her door, he didn't find Mara but instead he found Amber
"Jerome what are you doing here" Amber said as she open the door
"Well I was looking for the new girl, Mara" Jerome said trying to sound coolly
"She went out, not sure where." Amber said "Why what have you and Alfie done to her"
"What? Nothing" Jerome said surprised that he and Alfie would do anything to Mara
"Well bye see ya later" Jerome said leaving Amber
Jerome headed downstairs and went out the door to look for Mara. He saw her in the nearby clearing sitting under a tree, reading a book. That scene made Jerome fall even harder for Mara. She was beautiful, she looked perfect. The light coming from the sun was hitting her just right. Jerome hid behind a bush so she wouldn't notice him.
Since that day Jerome knew where to find Mara every time she was missing. He would always find her there. When she was missing, Jerome would always go to the clearing and see Mara under the tree. He always felt relived knowing Mara was safe and fine but this time Mara wasn't fine. She was hurt, depressed and confused.
Mara was about to slit the piece of glass on her wrist when Jerome came running out from now where and grabbing the glass from her
"Mara no!" Jerome yelled as he grabbed the piece of glass from Mara's hand
"What the hell Jerome" Mara said shocked where in the Queens name did he came from.
"Don't do it Mara. You don't have to do through with this alone." Jerome said looking at Mara
"Oh how would you now" Mara hissed " You don't know what I feel right now"
"Yes I do" Jerome said "I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. How you hurt yourself on the outside to kill the thing on the inside"
"Jerome, I can't control myself, I want to escape this hell I call my life" Mara said a tear escaping from her eye "if every day is like this, I will kill myself this year."
"Don't say that cause if you kill yourself I have to kill myself" Jerome said cupping Mara's face and whipping her tear using his thumb
"Jerome" Mara said whispering
"Listen Mara, people who die by suicide don't want to end their lives, but they want to end the pain" Jerome said
"What's wrong with me Jerome" Mara said "Why do I have to feel this way?
"I don't know but we can get help" Jerome said
"No" Mara said breaking free from Jerome's grip "I don't want to go to a psychotherapist"
"Okay fine" Jerome said taking a step closer to Mara. "But you need to stop cutting yourself, look at your arm it looks like blue cheese from all the bruises" Jerome said talking a look at Mara's arm
"I promise that I'll never cut myself again" Mara said unsure if she really meant what she said
"Good now let's get back to the house" Jerome said holding on to Mara's hand
They walked back hand in hand. There was silent but not an awkward silent. They were just glad to be with each other. For those few moments with Jerome, Mara forgot everything that was going on. It was like he was the only thing important in this place and time.
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