A/N: Wow! I'm so happy with the response that I got for the first chapter. I hope you like this one. Please read and review.
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"Do you really want to know? Or do you just feel guilty from this morning?"
Elliot sighed. "A little of both." He admitted softly.
Olivia looked at the TV and changed the channel. "Well I don't want your sympathy."
"Come on, Liv. We're best friends, you can tell me anything." He gently pushed.
Olivia scoffed. "Best friends? You wouldn't have been able to tell this morning."
Elliot put his hand on her thigh, which caused her to flinch.
"Don't touch me." She seethed and moved away from him.
"Liv, please talk to me. I'm so sorry about this morning."
"I'm not ready to talk. Go home to your wife and kids." She replied emotionlessly before turning the TV volume up as some medical drama started.
Elliot sighed and stood. "I'll see you at work in the morning."
"Mmm-hmm" Olivia mumbled, not taking her eyes off the TV screen.
He walked out and softly closed the door behind him.
Olivia then turned the TV off and decided to take a bath.
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Elliot walked in to the squad room and in to Captain Cragen's office.
"Did you talk to your partner?" Cragen asked as he put something in to his desk drawer.
"I tried but she won't open up." Elliot said sadly.
"She will when she is ready. Just keep at her." Cragen stated before deciding that he would give it a go.
He saw her as a daughter that he never had and he was concerned. It wasn't healthy for her to keep her emotions bottled up deep inside.
The next morning came too quickly for Olivia. She slammed her hand on her alarm clock to shut off the offending noise. It was six am. Time to get ready for work. Time to prepare herself for another day of questioning her own existance. Was she only on this Earth to help Special Victims? Was she ever going to be given the chance to be a mother? Or be given the change to find true love?
She walked in to the squad room dressed in black slacks, a red shirt and her favourite pair of black boots. She only had enough time to put her purse in her locker and coat on the coat rack before Captain Cragen called her in to his office.
"Benson, my office." He called from the doorway.
Olivia nodded and ignored Elliot's stares as she walked toward Captain Cragen's office.
She walked in silently and closed the door behind her.
"What's up, Cap?" She asked innocently.
"Take a seat, Olivia." He replied gently from behind his desk.
Olivia sighed and sat down. "What's going on?"
"I should be asking you that same question. What happened while you were away?"
Olivia shook her head, not wanting to talk about it. "Nothing, I got to get back to work."
She walked out and sat down at her desk without a single word to Elliot.
"Come on, Liv. We have to finish talking to Patrick Smart." Elliot spoke softly.
Olivia nodded and stood. "Let's go then."
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Elliot stopped at a red light and took a quick glance at his partner.
She was just sitting there silently looking out the side passenger window.
"Liv?"
"Yes?" She replied still looking out the window.
"What happened while you were gone?" He asked cautiously.
"Oh my God. We're not having this conversation."
"Liv, please."
Olivia sighed and took a long, slow, deep breath. "I can't have children." She replied in a near inaudiable whisper.
"Huh? Of course you can, Liv. You'll make a great mother."
Olivia sighed. "I can't have kids, Elliot. I'm infertile." She finally admitted.
"Huh? How come?" He gently pushed.
By now Elliot had pulled in to a parking lot, parked the car and was looking at her, waiting for an answer.
"I was in a car accident about a week after I came back from undercover.. I was trapped for long time. My left leg was broken and I was pinned between the steering wheel and the seat. I had internal bleeding so in the hospital they repaired what they could... my ovaries...I was told my ovaries and uterus were already damaged and asked if I had been... abused... Are you happy that you know now?" She said softly and looked back out the side passenger window.
Elliot put his hand on her thigh and was about to speak but Olivia brushed off his hand.
"Do me a favour...shut up and drive." She replied emotionlessly, still looking out the window.
Elliot sighed and started the engine before pulling out and driving off.
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Elliot watched Olivia for the rest of the day. He'd never seen his partner so depressed.
Five pm finally came; Olivia grabbed her purse and coat and left without a word to anyone. Elliot used this time as an opportunity to talk to Captain Cragen about his idea. One that he knew would definitely make Olivia's day. He got up and walked to Cragen's office. Knocked on the door and waited for an answer.
"Come in." The older man called through the door.
Elliot opened the door and walked in.
"What's up, Elliot?" Cragen asked, looking up from his pile of paper work.
"Olivia is so depressed." He said sadly.
"Yes, I am aware of that." Don replied with a sigh.
"I am going to adopt Cameron and put Olivia as the adopting mother and myself as the adopting father."
"How's that going to work?" Cragen asked sounding very interested.
He didn't want to lose one of his best detectives but if being a mother was going to make Olivia happy then he was willing to do anything to help her.
"I'll make it work." Elliot replied confidently. "I'll going down there to work it out right now."
Cragen nodded. "Let me know how it goes."
Elliot nodded. "I sure will." He replied before rushing out of the office.
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Elliot had called and made arrangements and since he knew someone in the business, the progress was nearly finished already. They were allowed to go pick Cameron up and Elliot wanted Olivia to be there.
'Meet me downstairs. I'm in my car.' He sent her a text message.
Olivia was sitting on the couch with her feet behind her when she heard her cell phone vibrate on the side table beside the couch.
She picked it up and read the message before replying. 'I'll be down in a couple minutes.'