Peeta...
"What is he doing here" is my first thought. I'm still not ready to face him, to talk to him...
I start turning around quickly, hoping that he didn't notice me, when something moves behind me.
"Katniss" damn it.
"Oh, Peeta, hi" i say trying to find a way to get out of there as fast as i can.
"Hello" he says, clearly wanting to add something else.
"What are you doing here?" The words just come out of my mouth - What are you doing- i think.
"I wanted to talk to you..." he says "Peeta, i don't think it's a good idea, I..." I say looking at him for the first time in weeks.
"then what is Katniss? Because clearly us living like this isn't a solution, i'm miserable, you're miserable, we can't go on like this..." "i'm not.." i start to say looking to his bright blue eyes...
"Don't lie, i know you're well, even if i hadn't heard it from Prim it would be clear just by looking at you" he continues, oh how i missed does eyes...
Wait what did he said, Prim told him about me? - "Have you been talking to Prim? Why?" i ask
"I'm worried about you, I walk around and everybody asks me about you, nobody has seen you since we got back." I don't know what to say..
" I wanted to visit you but i didn't know if you wanted me there, since you told me you needed space... I didn't know how you were doing, if you were having this awfull nightmares as well, God Katniss I was so worried about you. So yes I talked to your sister, i needed to know, I needed to know how you were fine.."
I'm speechless, I know i've hurt him a lot the last time we spoke, and here he is worrying about me, it makes no sense... And the nightmares, how does he know? does this meen that he has them too?
"So you came here to talk to me? How did you know that i would be here today?" i ask ignoring the other questions in my head.
"Sort of.." he starts " In part yes i'm always hoping to find you here, but lately i have been coming here to feel close to you, it's the only way i can feel a little better after having does worrible nightmares" So he does also have them..
"Nightmares?" I ask
"Yes, about the games, about losing you... No matter what i do i have them every night" about losing me? "The only way to know for sure that you are fine is to come here, or to ask your sister, so that's mostly why i have been talking to her". I had no idea, i thought that by staying away i was sparing him from suffering... I can't beleive how selfish i've been. I was trying to let him go, thinking he would have a better life without me, but ended up hurting us both...
"Katniss?" I realize i have been quiet for a long time. "I have them too" it's all i can say.
"What?" he asks. "Nightmares, they're awful, i wake up screeming every night.. It's been ages since i had a good night sleep" i add.
"I know, Prim told me, I can't tell how hard it is to not being able to be there for you when you wake up from a bad dream", Oh Peeta, how stupid have i been?...
"I missed You" I say not being able to stop the words coming out of my mouth.
I can see a small smile forming in his mouth, " I missed you too" he says moving forward to hug me.