So I'm in college but I promise a chapter a week

"Derek. I have waited so long to hear you say that….but now it is too late… you're too late." She turned back and walked out with Finn. Little did Derek know what was going to lay in his future.

On the way drive back to Meredith's house the car was silent. Meredith's mind reeling about the events that night; Denny dying, prom, words…. All of the words said to Derek, all the words said Derek said to her…and of course the big huge mistake that she just did. The mistake that has her sitting in a car with Finn with no panties on, and honestly still dripping wet. She silently cursed herself. Only Derek and his hands, his hair, his voice, more importantly his mouth can make her instantly wet and want him so bad. She was already aching where his hands and mouth and breathe left her bare. She looked over at Finn. He never made her feel that way. Hell she never gave him the opportunity to make her feel that way. That was beside the point. Looking over at Finn she knows she has to end it. She knows she cannot let this relationship go on anymore. Poor Finn, he never really got a chance. For her it has always has and always will be Derek. He was her it. The bad part was that he was married and that will probably never change.

Finally they pulled up to her house. Meredith turned in her seat. "Finn…" He looks at her with an almost hopeful look. "Yes?" Meredith takes a deep breathe. "Finn I am so sorry. So sorry. So so so sorry." Finn's face drops a little. "Finn I am sorry but I cannot do this. Honestly as cliché as this sounds, it wasn't you it's me." Meredith quickly opens the door and runs into her house, never giving Finn the chance to speak.

Once she got in her house she slammed the door and leaned against it. Gasping for air her version blurred, her head was pounding, and her body was on fire. Everywhere Derek touched her she burned. She knew that Izzie was upstairs, and she knew that she should be a good friend and check on her but at this point she just wanted to run. She wanted to run as far away as possible. Meredith ran up to her room, grabbed a suitcase, and started frantically throwing clothes and shower products in the bag. Finally she opened the drawer on her night stand and pulled out a picture of her and Derek when they were happy and throws it against her bedroom wall. Seeing the broken glass and the picture frame she sank down on the bed. Slowly she pulls out two pieces of papers and pen from the same drawer.

Dear George, Izzie, and Alex,

I am so sorry. I could not work up the nerve to just walk down the hall and talk to you guys. I cannot do this anymore. I cannot go to work every day and pretend to be okay. I cannot keep going on day to day like this. I have to leave. I promise when I get settled I will call you guys. Please do not tell Derek where I am. I hope he is happy with his wife. Izzie, I am so sorry I am leaving you like this but you will be strong. You will survive this. Denny will always be with you. I love you. George, pull your head out of your ass and quit playing games with Callie. Either shit in the pot or get off or however that goes. George take care of Izzie please. Alex, you have always been like my big brother, don't be too hard on Derek. Please take care of everyone. Guys I love you all and I will be in touch.

Love, Meredith

Meredith takes a shaky breath and starts the second letter.

Dear Cristina,

It's clear I am not fine. I give up Cristina. I slept with Derek at prom. I am officially a filthy mistress. I'll call you as soon as I get where I am supposed to be. You will always be my person.

Love,

Meredith

Meredith folds the two letters and places them on her bed. She quickly and quietly takes her suitcase and loads them in her car. Still in her prom dress she drives to the airport looking for the earliest flight to the only other place she thought of as home than Seattle.

MERDERMERDERMERDERMERDER

Derek was a mess. After Meredith left Derek told Addison to go home and he stayed at the hospital. So now three hours later he long changed out of his tux and into the navy attending scrubs and Derek was pacing. If you could wear a hole in the floor there would be one. In the last three hours Derek decided that he was divorcing Addison. He could never love her like he loved Mer. He pulled out the divorce papers from the last time. Without hesitation Derek slid off his wedding ring and signed the papers. Now he just needed to tell Addison. He needed to tell her everything; he needed to tell her the truth. After he told Addison he needed to find Meredith. He needed to tell her how he felt. That he loved her. Finally with a smile on his face Derek felt like a new man. Too bad in less than ten hours his whole world would be shaken again.