Chapter 2

Sessomaharu

Talia had barged in, Kagome protected Rin, poison in the water, Kagome using Tensaiga and her reiki to kill Talia. Tears and then a thud, my body was fine but I was trapped in a spell and with Talia dead I was free to move. I ran to Rin and did what I could with the poison and the old healer came rushing in along with servants.

"Lay her down and move aside Sessomaharu, she'll live." Lora said and I did as I was told.

"Sessomaharu.." The Miko whispered.

"Kagome!" I said and ran to her.

She smiled at me.

"Don't worry about me, I, I'm sorry I couldn't keep her safe, do something for me?" She asked.

"If, if, I, I, die, raise Shippo protect him, for me. One more thing." She said and coughed.

"No, you won't die! I won't let you except me here and now. Let my demonic aura and your reiki combine! Please!" I said and shoved my demonic aura towards her.

Her reiki wrapped around my demonic aura and they fused with each other.

"Tell Rin and Shippo I love them , and Sessomaharu, I, I told t-Talia we were m-mates before she died. I, I hope that was o-okay." She whispered and she stared to panic.

"You'll be okay! Yes Kagome it was okay to say that. Stay with me! Lora!" I yelled.

"I'm right here. Move aside. She'll be fine. Go to Rin, she needs you." She said and I saw Rin staring at Kagome.

Tears were streaming down her face.

"Momma!" She yelled and went running to Kagome.

I stood and caught her. She fought to get to the Miko.

"She'll be okay. Just let Lora do her work. Let's go find your brother." I said and picked her up and carried her away.

We walked through the joining rooms and we entered the kits room to find it a mess.

"Shippo? Where are you?" I called out.

"Right here." A voice said and a pink thing transformed.

"I heard Talia coming so I disguised myself. She tossed me around to make sure I was fake and then she stomped out mad. I was scared so I kept my form. Where's Kagome?" The fox kit asked.

"She'll be okay, Lora is treating her wounds. She'll be fine kit, come with me, you both will stay in my room tonight with me so I can protect you. I won't have my children or any child attacked in my home." I said and picked up the kit.

"Do you promise Sessomaharu?" Shippo asked and looked up at me.

"Yes Shippo I promise." I said and we went to my room and I layed with the kits until they fell asleep.

I got up and closed the door locking it but kept two armed guards at the door.

"No one goes in or out." I said and went to the healers quarters.

"Lora? How is she?" I asked walking into the room where Kagome was.

I stopped and looked at Kagome. Her hair had changed in length. There were pink streaks on her cheeks and her hair had turned a silvery pink.

"What's happening to her?" I asked.

"She's changing. She'll have a much longer life than she's supposed to. She's becoming a half demon I'm assuming but I could be wrong. You were in an emotional state and your beast was furious so the aura that infused with her reiki was furious so more power went into her than a normal mating so we will see. She's fighting hard. Did she make a promise to her kit?" Lora asked.

"I think she made a promise to Rin and the fox kit yes." I said.

"Talia was wrong, she isn't like other humans. She's accepting of our people and doesn't judge before she knows us. She is different from others. Keep her Sessomaharu." Lora said and left us alone.

I looked down at the Miko and kissed her forehead.

"Come back to us, Kagome. We need you and love you. Please live." I whispered against her forehead and left the room.

I went back to the kits and fell asleep hoping Kagome would wake.

Kagome

I was running from Inuyasha and I was holding Shippo. Inuyasha still attacked me but this time I got up faster and fought back better. I sat up gasping in the bed I was in. I looked around and didn't recognize the quarters I was in but I knew it was the healers room. My nose was picking up all different kinds of scents and I wrinkled my nose. I got out of the bed and walked over to the mirror on the wall. I gasped. My black hair was gone and in its place was silvery pink hair. My eyes had stayed brown but now had flecks of silver and pink in them. I brought my hand up to my face and gasped again. I had claws. I put my hand down and then I looked down. My body had changed. It was more plump and filled. I looked away and looked for clothes. My school clothes were destroyed so I grabbed the kimono next to my school uniform and put it on. I left the room and headed upstairs. As I was walking up I heard footsteps and talking.

"Oh Mom, I miss you so much. I wish you would wake up and come back to Rin and I. We miss you so much." The voice said and as he rounded the corner I stepped out in front of him.

He was so much taller. My little Shippo had grown up. He stared at me and then I saw the tears.

"Momma?" He whispered.

Tears started falling down my face and I launched myself at my son and hugged him. He wrapped his arms around me and lost it.

"Shippo? How long was I gone?" I asked making him look at me.

"Years Momma, you wouldn't wake up. The change took a lot out of you. The trauma you went through and then Sessomaharu forcing his demonic powers on you took its toll. We have you back though, Rin and I do." Shippo said.

"It wasn't just the physical trauma Shippo. Talia attacked me while I was protecting Rin and my mind hurled me back to that moment when I was only human and had to protect you from Inuyasha. My psych took a huge hit and my body and mind had to reconnect and recognize the changes happening to me and once I knew I could protect you on my own I woke up I was ready to come back. I'm so sorry it took so long but I'm happy to be back. Where is Rin? How is she?" I asked.

"She's thriving Momma. She got married and has a baby girl now." Shippo said.

"What's her name?" I asked.

"Kira. She's beautiful Momma. Rin wanted a K name to honor you." Shippo said and I looked down.

"That's so wonderful. Shippo where is Sessomaharu?" I asked dreading the answer.

Shippo lifted my chin and I looked at him. His eyes showed sorrow and anger.

"What did he do?" I asked.

"I'll show you." He said and picked me up and ran with me.

I closed my eyes and when I opened them I was in the main room and Sessomaharu had a demon on his arm and was kissing and fondling her.

"Put me down please?" I asked and Shippo did and I stayed next to him.

"A year and a half is how long he waited. You were gone for nine but he didn't want to wait." Shippo said and I bit my tongue.

"Screw him then. He's as bad as Inuyasha. Let's go see Rin." I said and walked away.

I heard the room go silent and people started staring. I didn't care. I grabbed Shippo's hand and we left the room. The festivities continued and as we were walking down the hallway I heard footsteps.

"Lord Sessomaharu What is it? What has you so riled up? Come back to the festivities and afterwords we'll have some fun." A female demon said and I walked faster.

"Hey, it's this way." Shippo said and I looked at him.

There was sadness all over his face.

"Lead the way." I said and he went a different direction and I fallowed.

"Miko?" Sessomaharu called and I just ignored him.

I kept walking and followed Shippo to go see Rin.

"Wait here." Shippo said and I smiled.

Shippo knocked on the door.

"Yes?" Rin called.

Tears started falling.

"I have a surprise for you Rin. Open the door." Shippo said and I heard rummaging inside and smiled.

A man opened the door and Shippo grabbed my hand.

"What is it Shippo?" Rin asked.

"I'll let her show you." Shippo said and I walked into view.

Rin looked at me and so many emotions crossed her face.

"Momma?" Rin whispered and then she got mad.

"Why were you gone so long?! I needed you so much over the years and you were gone! I had no one. I came and talked to you all the time! I begged you to wake up but you never did! Why?" She yelled.

"Rin, sweetie I fought to come back to you. I fought so hard. That night when Talia showed up she attacked me while I protected you and in that moment I had a flashback of Inuyasha. My mind broke and my body was forced to except Sessomaharus demonic aura. My body was week from the poison already. My mind and body had to reconnect. I fought to wake up. I heard everything you said and inside it hurt. I hated Talia and I was mad at Sessomaharu. Then you quit coming and I was so scared I'd lost you forever. I love you Rin." I said and she was crying.

"Get out!" Her mate yelled.

"I'm sorry." I whispered and ran.

Shippo didn't run after me. That was a good thing. I ran out of the castle and felt something stir inside of me and then my body changed. I turned into a ginormous dog, wolf to be correct. I howled and ran to the one place I might be welcomed. I ran until I found Inuyasha's forest. I sniffed around and found his tree. He was no longer pinned to it. I whimpered and sat down. My body started to get smaller and once I was in my normal body I cried. I curled up in a ball at the base of his tree and passed out. I woke up later to find myself surrounded. I sat up and found Sango, Miroku, Kilala, Inuyasha, and Kikyo.

"Who are you? What do you want?" Miroku asked.

"Miroku, Sango? Inuyasha? Kikyo? Where's Kaede?" I asked.

"What is your business with my sister you-" Kikyo started and stopped.

Tears had started to fall down my face and Kikyo started walking towards me.

"Kikyo don't! We don't know who she is. She could kill you." Kikyo stopped and I looked down at my hands.

"Of course, you don't me, I look different. I'm not the same girl I used to be." I whispered and stood up.

Sango readied Hiriko and Miroku had his wards ready and Inuyasha pulled out Tetsaiga. Kikyo just stared at me. Kilala started growling. I looked at the tree and touched it.

"Who are you?" Sango asked.

I looked at her.

"I'm nobody. Just an old friend." I said and she hesitated.

"Put down your weapons." Kikyo said.

"Don't Kikyo. It's okay. They don't need to know. I've changed. I'm different. It's okay." I said and tears started falling again.

"Ka-" She started.

"Don't!" I yelled and ran to the well.

I jumped down but nothing happened. I couldn't go home. I've lost everyone. Except Shippo. I have to go back. I jumped up out of the well and transformed again. I ran to the castle and howled outside. Demons looked out and so did Shippo.

Come. Let's go see Sango and Miroku.

Shippo smiled.

If I jump will you catch me?

I barked and got closer to the building. I found Rins mind.

I'll be home soon. I love you Rin. Just call out to my mind and I will come. I love you sweetie.

Shippo jumped down and we were off. He laughed and held on to my silvery pink fur and as we arrived to Kaede's village people saw me and panicked. I layed down and let Shippo off.

Be careful Shippo.

I entered the villagers minds.

I will not harm you I promise.

I layed my head on my paws and closed my eyes. I was awake of course. I listened in on Shippo's conversation with Miroku and Sango.

"Where is Kagome? We know she is alive we want to see her." Sango said to Shippo.

Is it okay Momma?

Yes it is Shippo.

I transformed back to my normal self.

Bring them out.

I waited as Shippo guided Miroku and Sango out to see me. Shippo pointed at me and I bit my lip. Sango looked at me and I smiled.

"That can't be her Shippo! She's a demon! Her hair is the wrong color, her eyes aren't-" Sango stopped and looked at me better.

Sango stepped closer to me and I stared at her. She was five feet away when she finally stopped.

"Kagome??" Sango asked.

I looked at her and nodded my head. She put her hands over her mouth and started crying. Miroku came over.

"How are you no longer human?" Miroku asked.

"It was Sessomaharu. I had saved Rin. We had been poisoned and I had protected Rin the best I could. By moving the poison spread through my body faster and I was dying faster. Sessomaharu didn't want me to die so he forcefully shared his demonic aura with me. So much so it fused with my reiki and I had to go through changes. Also that day Inuyasha attacked me came back to my mind because I was attacked in the same manner while protecting Rin. My mind shattered and it took nine years for my body and mind to fix itself. I'm so sorry Sango. I didn't choose this it just happened. Please don't hate me. I've missed you Sango. I-" I started and she hugged me.

I looked at Miroku and hugged her back and started crying. I put my face against her neck and smiled. I missed my friend. My family.

"Thank you Sango. You're part of the group in this group I call family. I'm happy to have you back." I sobbed and Miroku smiled.

I gasped and felt pain explode in my stomach. Sango let me go and I fell. The blade burned my flesh and I screamed. I heard Shippo yelling my name. I saw him get mad at Sango.

"Shippo...no, don't hurt her, don't hurt my sister. It's okay because I'm not the Kagome she remembers. It's okay." I said and pulled the blade out.

Miroku was holding Sango back.

"It's okay Miroku. She has every right to hate me. I disappeared for nine years. It's my fault and Inuyasha's fault." I said standing up.

Sango had quit struggling.

"What do you mean yours and Inuyasha's fault?" Sango asked.

"Nine years ago Inuyasha and I were intimate and he said Kikyo's name while we were doing things so I didn't bring him anything and he was in a bad mood. I started back towards the village when he attacked me. I was wearing my school uniform and I created a barrier around Shippo and I. After Shippo marked me as his mother he ran to the village. Inuyasha was angry at me and threatened to kill Shippo and I. I pinned him to a tree. The same tree that Kikyo pinned him to. After I did that I'd collapsed. I had lost a lot of blood and was using my reiki so I was losing consciousness when Sessomaharu showed up. He saved me. He picked me up, brought me back to Kaede's village and then he left with me and Shippo to protect me. We arrived at his home and on that same night I killed a demon for hurting Rin. We had all been poisoned by then only I didn't know it. I killed the demon who poisoned us and by the time Sessomaharu got to me the poison had spread all over my body. He shoved his demonic aura towards me and my reiki excepted it. I passed out after that. My body went through changes and my mind was experiencing trauma. When Talia attacked me, she was the one who poisoned us, I was protecting Rin and my mind threw me back to when I was protecting Shippo from Inuyasha. For the past 9 years my mind was trying to fix itself and my body was trying to reconnect with my mind. Once my body and mind reconnected I had to go through the memory of Inuyasha attacking me. I loved him. He hurt me in ways I could never imagine. I didn't really have a choice in going with Sessomaharu. The choice was made for me Sango. Everything that happened was mine and Inuyasha's fault and I'm sorry." I said and looked away.

Nothing was being said and I was about ready to turn away when I heard my name.

"Kagome??" A voice said.

I looked up to see Kaede. She was there but she also wasn't.

"Kaede?? What's wrong? Why are you faded? Wait, did you die?" I asked and could feel the weird looks I was getting.

"I did. I had to see ye one more time though. Ye were like a daughter to me and I had to make sure ye had lived." Kaede said.

"Kagome what's going on?" Miroku asked.

"I see Kaede. I shouldn't be able to but I do. I can." I said.

"Kagome I know that ye are confused but ye must focus. I want ye to tell my sister I love her and will see her again. Tell Inuyasha if he kills ye and ye son I will come back and haunt him and most of all, I love ye my child. We shall meet again." She said and vanished.

"I need to speak with Kikyo and Inuyasha. Please take me to them." I said.

"Momma I don't know if it is such a good idea." Shippo said.

I looked up at him. I smiled.

"I'll go alone sweetie. I don't want him near you. You also have to remember though, I'm a lot stronger now." I said.

"Promise me you'll come back?" Shippo whispered.

I lifted his head.

"Have I ever broken a promise to you, Shippo?" I asked smiling.

"No Mama, you haven't." He smiled.

"I won't start now either. I'll be okay and I will come back to you I promise." I said and hugged him.

I looked at Sango and saw the tears rolling down her face.

"It's really Kagome." She said.

"Yes my love it is." Miroku said and kissed her on the head.

I smiled and Shippo pulled away.

"I'll take you to Inuyasha and Kikyo." Sango said and I looked at her.

"Alright, Shippo you stay here with Miroku. I'm ready Sango." I said and we walked towards the village.

I was nervous because I hadn't seen Inuyasha in a long time but also because I could see the dead floating around. I ignored them the best I could and when we got to Inuyasha's hut Sango knocked. I was nervous again but looked up and then Kikyo opened the door. She looked at me and smiled.

"Kagome? Is it really you?" She asked.

I nodded my head and Inuyasha appeared. I felt a pain in my chest and looked away.

"I have a message from Kaede." I said.

I looked back up and saw the surprise on Kikyo's face.

"She wanted me to tell you Kikyo that she loves you and you will see her again and wanted me to tell Inuyasha that if he tried to kill me or my son she'd come back and haunt him." I said and kept my head down.

I heard a sob and I looked up. Kikyo was crying and Inuyasha was looking at me with pissed off eyes. I cringed and hugged Sango.

"I have to be alone for a bit. I'll be back soon." I whispered in her ear and ran.

I found the pond I used to bathe in and sat down beside it. I felt my heart breaking. My life wasn't supposed to be this way. I was supposed to defeat Naraku and go home. Not become a full demon. Sesshoumaru couldn't wait and Inuyasha had already chosen Kikyo and Koga has a mate already. I layed down and looked up at the blue sky. I missed Inuyasha but I missed Sesshoumaru more, and I missed Rin. I missed my family. I felt the tears fall down the side of my face and then their was a shadow above me. I looked up to find Inuyasha staring down at me.

"If you plan on killing me get it over with. That is if I don't kill you first." I said and wiped my eyes.

"I won't kill you Kagome. Not after what you've been through. Besides you're my best friend and I'm happy you're okay." Inuyasha said.

I smiled.

"That's just it Inuyasha I'm not okay. I have my son but I lost my daughter and my mate. I'd say that's a pretty crappy life for me so far." I said and sat up.

I pulled my knees up to my chest and rested my chin on my knees.

"Can't you go back home? To your Mom, and Sota?" Inuyasha asked.

I bit my lip and shook my head.

"I tried. The well won't open for me anymore. I can't go home and I couldn't even if I wanted to. They would lock me up and I would lose my freedom. This is my home now." I said and looked over at him.

"Did you ever really love me Kagome?" Inuyasha asked.

"You know I did Inuyasha but you chose Kikyo and you have to live with that. She is your mate now. I lost mine do to my own stupidity. It's my fault I lost him. I just wish that I could get Sessomaharu back. I know we never really had that chance but a part of me misses him. I'm sorry if this hurts you but I really miss your brother. I know he's cold hearted but I miss him so much Inuyasha. I don't know how to get him back. I know you don't want to hear this but I feel broken." I said and realized I had started crying again.

Inuyasha put his arm around me and I started crying.

"Why couldn't he wait Inuyasha? Why did Sessomaharu wait? I love him, he couldn't wait for me. I was trying my best to get back to him but I took to long, I lost him Inuyasha. He chose someone else! I lost him." I said and started sobbing.

"Kagome I am so sorry. I'm sorry our world has caused you so much pain. If you need me I'm-" He started.

"Don't say you're here for me. You have a mate who is pregnant. You have a family now, you can't afford to risk your mates love for my friendship." I said pulling away.

I started walking away.

"Kagome wait." Kikyo said.

I turned to look at her.

"What Kikyo?" I asked.

"We are still here for you no matter what. Not just Inuyasha." She said and the tears started falling down my face again.

"Thank you Kikyo I just want him back. I need to figure out how to get him back on my own. Rin too. She is my only daughter and I miss her so much. I feel bad about missing so much of Shippo's and Rin's life. It caused me to miss out on the important parts of both of my children's life and I lost my mate. I want the chance to earn my life back and that's what I'm-" I said.

"Miko! You left without permission! You die!" Sessomaharu yelled.

I turned to see Sessomaharu and bit my lip fighting the tears. He stopped and just stared at me.

Sessomaharu

I stopped once I saw the tears streaming down her face. I saw the pain behind her eyes. She wrapped her arms around herself. She backed away and was turning to run.

"Don't think about you slut!" The demon female I had been intimate with yelled.

The Miko froze and started panicking. She looked like she was in pain. The demon female ran towards the Miko and the Miko dodged.

"Fight me you bitch!" The female demon yelled.

"I won't fight Sessomaharu's mate." She whispered and I saw the tears falling harder down her face.

I looked at the Miko and then I looked down. My mate? Is that why she left? She must've heard what I said to the demon wench during the festivities. She left because she thought I had moved on. I looked up at the Miko. She kept dodging her attacks. The Miko kept her head down but I could tell she was losing control. I saw the change and then she shifted. She pinned the demon female to the ground.

Kagome

Stay away from my mate, he will never belong to you! He is mine you stupid demon female! Leave to a far away place and never come back or I will kill you!

She looked up at me terrified.

Do you understand bitch?

"I understand m'lady. I will leave and never come back." She said and I let her go.

She ran and I looked towards Sessomaharu.

Will you run after her?

Sessomaharu stared at me in surprise.

"Miko, I-" he stated.

Will you run after her? Yes or no?

I stared at him and then someone touched my side. I turned my head to see Shippo.

"Momma please go back to normal." Shippo said.

I shifted back to my normal self. I hugged Shippo and stayed next to him.

"I will come back soon Sessomaharu. I just need time. You have no idea what it's like to wake up and see your mate having relations with another female. It hurts. You hurt me." I said.

"I hurt you? You were gone for nine years! I begged you to come back we all did. You wouldn't though! You stayed asleep! You didn't want to wake!" Sessomaharu yelled.

"That's not true! I fought every day to come back! That night I was attacked by Talia while protecting Rin, I didn't see Talia! I saw Inuyasha! My mind shattered! I broke and it took me nine years to realize it wouldn't happen again! That I was different and would be able to protect my family without being so easily injured and beaten!" I yelled and turned away from Sessomaharu and Shippo.

Kikyo came up to me and hugged me. I couldn't hold a straight face. I leaned into her and cried. She slid down to the grown with me and then I felt Shippo kissing my head.

"I love you Mama and no matter what I'm always here." Shippo said.

"Thank you my son." I whispered smiling.