A/N: Well looks like you guys love this so far so here is the second chapter of Holding A Heart
Rated M for Coarse Language
I DO NOT OWN ANYTHING TWILIGHT RELATED
II
I saw so many people crowding me telling me to breathe but I couldn't he was back and I didn't want to get out anymore, then I heard yelling
"Bella." I heard Jacob say
He pulled me into his arms and I felt the steady pulse of his heartbeat
"Breathe."He whispered
My breathing slowed and suddenly all the screaming agony stopped as I calmed down, I passed out in his warmth, when I woke up I was in my room and Jacob was sitting my the window thinking.
"Jacob." I rasped
He turned and came to my side immediately
"Are you okay?" He asked
I looked at him
"Right stupid question. Do you need anything."
"Can you just stay in here, please."
"Of course."
I slept facing him and soon darkness overcame me. I had dreamed I was back in that forest three years ago, he had left me there then I saw a light and it was Jacob.
"I will protect you." He whispered
He came towards me and hugged me to him
"Jacob, my Jacob." I sighed
Then we disappeared the light surrounding us and the darkness fighting to breakthrough. Once I woke up I felt something warm and heavy on my stomach, when I looked Jacob was lying on my stomach, somehow I did see the little boy that used to chase me around with muddy hands but the beautiful flower.
Fifteen Years Ago
"STOP IT! DADDY!" I screamed
"Bella, wait, please!" He cried
I stopped and looked to see Jacob crying, I went back to him and he looked up at me shoving the flower in my direction
"You pretty, me give you flower." He sniffed
I smiled and took the flower, he kissed my cheek and smiled
Present
I tried sitting up but Jacob's head was heavy
"Jake." I whispered
He opened his eyes and sat up stretching, and I saw a peak of skin from his lifted shirt, I saw his trail of hair leading down to his surprise area. I looked up to find him grinning. I blushed and looked down.
"Hey, enjoying the view."
I blushed three shades of red and he chuckled
"Trust me Bells, you're not the first one to check me out, I actually prefer it from you."
"Why me." I asked looking him in the eye
"Well Bells if you remember I've liked you for my whole life but I felt like I didn't have a chance with you because of you and your boyfriend."
"Oh, well don't get me wrong Jacob, I'm really flattered. But you don't want me now I mean look where I am, I'm in the mental asylum. I almost killed myself. You don't want someone like me. I'm too broken for you. You deserve someone so much more filled with life."
"Bella, you can't not have someone, you must want to grow old with someone. Have kids, be a mother and a wife to someone. You can't stay here your whole life. You had one slip up in your teenage years but you're a grown woman. You deserve to be loved."
"Jacob, I can't be with you, you deserve so much better than me."
"You're wrong, I need you as much as you need me."
He got up and left. I almost started crying. Why couldn't I let him in, was I afraid of letting him get to close. He would get sick of me and leave me too just like he did.
The next week I was in the art room painting a portrait of Jacob, I had started it a couple of hours ago. I couldn't stop thinking about him and what he had said. He was right I did need him, I needed him to heal me more. I wanted to be loved again.
As I drew the outline, I heard a bunch of laughing in the hallway, I turned to see Jacob and his friends shirtless with grease stains, but I only had eyes for Jacob. Jacob looked over at me and I looked away and kept drawing, I turned back to see him flirting with someone else. I put my stuff away and passed them without looking back. By nightfall I was on the balcony looking out at the small town of LaPush and the lights.
"It's beautiful isn't it?" A female voice said
I turned to see Lila, I smiled and nodded
"You know when you first got here, it was my first day on the job, I made a promise to myself that I would help someone put themselves back together, and you happen to be her. I see the way Jacob looks at you, he has a serious thing for you."
"I know but I can't have him be in my life if I am so broken." I sighed
"Bella, if he's willing to be with you and fix you, then give him the chance. Move on with your life because if you don't you're going to regret it."
"I'm just afraid, if I leave here then I will fall and there will be no one to catch me."
She stroked my hair and kissed my forehead
"Get some sleep Bella, I will check on you tomorrow when I get it."
I nodded
"What are you doing tonight?" I asked
"I have a hot date with believe it or not Paul one of Jacob's friends their going out for drinks and I got invited." She smiled
"Have fun."
She nodded and left
When I got back to my room, I found a suitcase, CD player and dreamcatcher on my desk with a note attached
When you need to escape
Love J
I smiled and thought how lucky am I to have Jacob Black in my life, I opened the suitcase and saw all the art supplies imaginable, I smiled and took the CD player, and pressed play.
When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
I felt like Jacob was telling me all these things and was telling me I needed to give myself a chance and him
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
JPOV
As I sat in the bar drinking a beer I couldn't help think that, Bella found what I left and she loved it, and touched it with marvel. I wanted her to need me as much as I need her.
"Jake."
I turned to see my ex sleazy girlfriend Leah Clearwater stand before me after a year passed
"Leah Clearwater, what do I owe my slut of a girlfriend."
"Don't not you too, I already get that from your friends and the looks I don't need it from you."
"I'm only saying what is true."
"Jake, I came here to apologize."
"So it took you a year to finally confess to your sins. Nice."
"It isn't easy when I know I let the best thing slip from me and you'll never know how sorry I am."
"Did you ever love me Leah?"
"Of course I did, you meant everything."
"Now you mean nothing to me, so if your looking to win me back, I don't want you back."
"Is this about Bella Swan, psycho Swan."
"Don't talk about her that way." I growled towering over her
"I always knew that's why you didn't ask me to marry you because you still knew deep down that you loved her more me."
"Maybe so." I said walking away
Once I got outside and into my car I slammed the steering wheel and cried, I pulled out and drove out of there. The rain started pouring as I drove home quickly. I couldn't see shit but I tried then I saw headlights in front of me and the truck veered on my side I turned and jumped off a huge hill toppling down as I stopped I could see a white angel coming towards me.
"Bella." I sighed
BPOV
I hadn't seen Jacob in days, I wanted to tell him I'd give us a chance and thank you for the supplies. But after the fourth day I hadn't seen him nor his friends.
"Bella." Lila said sadly
"Lila, are my parents okay?" I asked
"Yes."
"What's going on?"
"There's been an accident, Jacob was involved."
Suddenly my heart stopped and I slumped to the ground hitting the table and screams filling my head