The last word drop a 30 ton rock on my heart. " How long?"
"17 weeks, I have known for a week." He says quietly not looking me in the eye.
"Every kiss you kissed me, every time you told me I looked pretty, every time you told me I was the most important thing to you, every time you hugged me or held my hand or laughed at one of my jokes you lied to me. You Casey are a LIAR!"I scream at him. I pick up on of the cups of punch and want to throw it at him so bad but I take a sip and turn from him. "Don't ever bring that slut around here again. Or I am going to make sure someone has to pay?"
"I will not cry, I am over him." I whisper to myself as I walk away. I feel the eyes of the by standers on my back. And i can't say I knew it but Casey just watched me go. He didn't try to stop me or anything. Again.
"Marissa come on answer your phone." I say over and over again. I pump my fist into the air when she picks up. "Can you give me your keys ? I need to leave."
"I heard what happened I am coming over, I am walking from the canoe dock so I'll be there is 5."
"Thanks." I rest my head on the hood of the car. The metal was warm and I stood up again.
"Hey Sammy." The voice belongs to the one and only Danny. I give him a weak nod. He steps closer to me and then pause before giving me a hug. Normal I would have pushed him away and cussed him out but right now... it felt nice someone hugging me.
"I am sorry." I start to sob gently into his shirt. Who knew Danny wasn't just a pretty face? Marissa. Marissa who had the crush on him. I pushed him away.
"Sammy you can't see it can you?" He chuckles. He sways slightly and I know he has had way too much to drink.
"See what?" I ask looking around. He smile a little.
"I'll show you." With those word he press his lips against mine they taste like mint and cheap beer.
"What the fuck!" I pull back surprised. Danny takes a step back.
"Um I think I'll leave." His eyes are looking at something over my head, I turn around to see Marissa. Black tears are running down her face. Silent tears are running down her face.
"Don't ever talk to me." She sobs as she turns around and runs away from me. Or Danny.
"How could you?" I explode I hit him square in the face. He looks surprise for a second before crumpling into a unconscious pile. I stare at him for a second then burst out crying.
Not only had I just lost my boyfriend, I now didn't have a bestfriend. No one to lean on or to ask for help. No one to make me laugh when I am down. No one who knew all my secrets.
Four months ago was our two year anniversary.
It's probably two in the morning but I am still going strong. I ride down a handrail and almost make it before I fall. I stick my hands out to stop my fall but my head still knocks the ground. My hands sting and my head is throbbing. I look at my hands and see them gleam. I must have scraped them really bad because now they were bleeding. I realize how tired I am and how weak I feel. For a numbing five hours I just rode my board to and fro. I feel the cold seep from the cement into me. I let the heaviness, the blackness take over.