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As we stood in the parking lot and I had just had my "I may love Edward Cullen Epiphany" I found myself at a loss for words. Apparently so did everyone else until Rosalie or should I say Mrs. Perfection spoke up. "So I don't really see why we should even care about this Bella or Megan's problem. She is human and clearly not one of us so what is she to me? I say we let her figure this out on her own and get on with our lives. I mean if she's not going to put our family secret out there well then I won't have to kill her, but I definitely don't see why we should help her?"
"Figures you would think I am some scared little human, but honey I've got news for you while sure you may be perfection, I know you and you don't know me. I know that this may be hard for you all to grasp, but I know a lot about all of you and while I would never expose you I am not going to be afraid of you either. I am not afraid of death and obviously I am not afraid of perfect looking bitchy blonde vampires. I seriously think that just because you were robbed of your humanity as you have bitched about in the books doesn't give you the right to be such a bitch to me. Humanity isn't all its cracked up to be and I mean what do I have to look forward to besides growing old, getting married then divorced, and popping out whiny little un grateful brats? Yeah I can see why you'd want to be human. The grass isn't always greener on the other side and I guess we all always want what we can't have, but get over it." I sighed finally getting a much-needed breath in.
It was then that I noticed all the vampires staring at me with looks of shock playing over their perfect faces. I also noticed a wave of calm spread over me and I looked up searching for Jasper. Then I saw him, finally saw him and he looked just like he was described in the books and he seemed a little uncomfortable, but he was clearly impressed with how I handled myself. Bet he didn't see that coming from a walking happy meal did he? I glanced at Alice who I knew had to see it and smiled until I quickly noticed she was a little on edge. I then chanced another look back up at Edward and noticed that he and Emmett were trying to hold back a fairly irate Rosalie. She didn't seem as angry as the calm spread through all of us and I now realized that maybe I shouldn't have just blurted out all that information. I mean they didn't know they were characters in a book and I had just let the cat out of the bag. I seriously hoped that little word would go unnoticed, but how else would I know so much about all of them and how else would I not fear them? They weren't stupid and they had better memories then me and I knew they would have questions so I decided to make things a little bit easier for them. As I begin to tell their story or should I say give them little summaries into the life of the Twilight they watched in awe. I basically told them that Stephanie Meyer created them in a four book set and we were only now in the beginning of the series, the first book. I also told them that I didn't know why I was here or how this was all possible, but that I needed to get home because I sure as hell was not going to be stuck in Forks with a police Chief as my father and a life that was certainly not meant for me.
They were all pretty patient after a while and even Rosalie seemed to feel a little sorry for me of course maybe that was because of my apology and maybe it was because she saw that I was just as sad as her. I wanted a different life just as she had and the fact that I got my wish and it wasn't exactly what I thought I wanted only made her seem more secure with her own situation. I think that I actually liked Rosalie Hale, who would have guessed we'd have some things in common. Emmett kept on making jokes "So if Rose and me go home and screw its only make believe sex and our orgasms are only fictional?" Lame. He seriously wasn't as funny as I thought he'd be, but maybe that was because he was in shock underneath it all. I decided to one up on him and said "Well if Rose's orgasms are fictional then maybe you just aren't doing it right?" He huffed, but didn't bother to reply and Rosalie snickered. Yep Rose and me would get a long. Jasper and Alice took it well and she even made a joke that her life did seem a little too good to be true. The only person I couldn't seem to get a good read on was Edward and that was because his expression never changed. He stared into my eyes with the same emotion in his face. Relief. He seemed relieved to know that what he had done and what he was wasn't real and that sort of made me sad because he truly couldn't see the good in him and without the real Bella Swan maybe he never would. I had robbed him of that and now all I could think to do was hate myself more.
The Cullen's decided that sense school was letting up they should probably go and see Carlisle and explain to him what they have discovered. I suddenly begin to panic I was suppose to go home, Bella's home, and I had no idea where that was or even how to drive her truck considering that I never found the need to get my license and I never even owned a car. Sensing my nervousness and probably reading Alice mind Edward nonchalantly agreed to drive my truck and me home to the Swan residence. I watched the others leave in Edwards Volvo before I saw him turn around and come face to face with me. He smiled actually smiled I think the broodiness was gone and maybe that relief had something to do with it. I was actually anticipating on seeing a scowl, but when I saw that smile my heart beat increased and I blushed like an idiot. He actually started to laugh and shake his head telling me to follow him as if I would rather be away from him. I'd follow him to my impending death and that in of itself scared the shit out of me. I watched him walk gracefully over to what I presumed was Bella's rusty old red truck and I giggled. He turned then and stared at me probably wondering why I randomly giggled, but I guess he figured it was nerves because he didn't ask and instead gestured for me to get into the passenger side door. Somehow he found my keys and somehow as I got into the truck I realized that I was now alone with Edward Cullen and I had no clue of what to say.
To say it was awkward as he pulled out of the high school parking lot was an understatement. I mean we both were trying not to stare at one another and when the other caught one that one would quickly look away. Of course his reaction was a lot faster then mine and that both humiliated and infuriated me. I couldn't stand the silence so I put on the radio finding something I actually liked on the radio station. It was an oldie, but a goodie. Billie Joel's Uptown girl what a classic always put a smile on my face. So I started humming the words as I closed my eyes and pretty soon I was actually singing them. I must have been really deep into the song because I noticed laughter cutting in and turned totally mortified in Edward's direction. I quickly became mute and red all at once and he smiled at me laughing a little and making me even redder. I didn't even know that was possible, but apparently it was and Edward Cullen was the master of making girls blush. I don't know why I let myself get so relaxed and actually start singing a song as if I was actually alone. Maybe it was because he was so still and quiet or maybe it was because he just had a calming affect on me? Who knows, but now I would remember that next time I am in a car with Edward Cullen I would not sing.
"Why did you stop? I was actually enjoying that. I didn't peg you a Billy Joel fan, but I must admit that while I liked his version of Uptown girl yours was so much more riveting." Edward said why a crooked smile. Oh shit the famous crooked smile. Ok now note to self maybe I should actually sing more in front of Edward and thank my mom for those singing lessons.
"Um I just totally forgot you were here and I don't know I've always liked to sing kind of like you with your piano I guess. Music just calls to me and I don't know I just let myself go I guess. So um I think it will probably be a couple hours till the chief is home….would you like to keep me company we can hang in my room or my living room whatever makes you comfortable?" I stuttered. Wow this whole being forward thing was becoming a lot harder then I thought. Great he probably thinks I am coming onto him again. Fucking A I really don't want to scare the poor boy away.
"Um Megan are you sure that's a good idea? I mean I'd be glad to keep you company, but I don't want to make you uncomfortable or anything like that. But I suppose if you would feel more comfortable with me there and it's probably in your best interest not to be alone I could come in. I guess that would be alright if you would still like my company?"
"Edward I would love your company and I would love the chance to get to know you ask you questions or answer any you may have for me if you would like. I mean no pressure or anything I just never thought I'd get the chance to meet the Cullen's. You all fascinate me and I mean I've always wondered what it would be like to talk to you."
"Well I am not nearly as interesting as you would think, but I would be happy to answer any of your question and I would really like the chance to get to know you as well. I must say that you fascinate me as well although I am not use to someone with such a colorful vocabulary even more colorful then Emmett's, but I find it sort of endearing. In my day as I am sure you know women never spoke with such profanity's, but you're not like most women. You seem so strong and brave and outspoken not as timid as the women were in my day. They were always so dull and even after I changed I never thought I would meet someone as refreshing as you are to me. Sorry if I am rambling I can see I have embarrassed you and we are here so if you would still like my company then I'd be glad to stay."
I was in such a daze hanging on every one of Edwards's words that I didn't even realize that we were here until he had said something. So with a nod he accompanied me into Bella, or I mean my house and all the while I was on cloud nine. Edward Cullen was willingly walking into my house and possibly in my room. I didn't know where to begin and I definitely felt like I could use a little liquid courage so I told Edward to meet me upstairs. I quickly scanned the kitchen looking through all the cupboards for some form of liquor, but with no such luck I gave up. I sat for a minute and then it came to me. Charlie Swan was a beer drinker in the books so maybe just maybe I would find some beer in the fridge. I opened the refrigerator and the heavens above were singing down on me because there before me was four cans of beer. Realizing that Edward may not like the idea of me drinking I decided to down one beer before I went up the stairs and poor another in a glass. As I made my way up the stairs to what I presumed was Bella Swans room I realized that Edward probably already smelled the beer and there would be nothing I could do, but sense he didn't stop me I figured he must not have minded. As I peeked in the door to my room I saw him my angel lying on my now bed waiting for me with a beautiful smile on his face.
The way he looked lying their practically begging me to come straddle him was more then stimulating it was excruciating. I knew I was stunned and standing at the doorway like an idiot with her jaw to the floor practically drooling, but I couldn't bring myself to care. I took one long gulp of my beer and smiled like an idiot. The drink before was now beginning to catch up with me because I was feeling kind of giddy and I unexpectedly had this urge to be more courageous. I walked over to him slowly slightly stumbling, but not drunk and I smiled down at him as I sat down next to him timidly. Suddenly feeling kind of hot even next to his cold perfect skin I decided to shed my flannel over shirt and chose to just wear my white wife beater. I coyly looked up from under my lashes at Edward and I was in taken aback. He was so striking and I'm sure he was aware of the affect he had on me as I slowly felt the wet heat between my legs. I was becoming aroused and this breath taking immortal before me could most definitely smell my arousal, but I couldn't think to care. I gulped the last of my beer in silence slowly working up the courage to finally ask Edward Cullen all the things I wanted to ask him, but once I finished my drink I noticed him looking at me with this intense stare. His eyes were so dark not black, but penetrating, his nostrils were flaring, and his breathing had become sort of irregular. As he lay on the bed looking up at me I noticed his eyes scanning my body and I couldn't help, but do the same.
So I slowly inspected every perfection that was Edward Cullen and the odd thing was his body was sort of trembling as if my gaze could make him crack. Still I kept staring him down until I finally got to the part of him I had been avoiding most other then his face, his lower abdomen. I leisurely looked down at his now fully erect penis and although I couldn't see the real thing and it was just a bulge through now tight straining pants I couldn't help, but start to gasp. I was now panting for breath and my whole body was aching for his touch and I couldn't stop myself from the pure want I now had for him. Realizing that he made no move to cover his erection and he had not stop me so far from looking I took the chance now to put my hands on him. I shakily put both my hands on Edward Cullen's face and caressed him carefully. He seemed to enjoy that as he closed his eyes and smiled letting out a small moan only further turning me on. I couldn't take much more of this as my control was not as good as Edward's or Bella's had been for that matter so I started to move my hands away from Edward and lay myself beside him. He groaned at the loss of contact, but I think once he saw me lay next to him he understood why I stopped myself.
I knew I wasn't ready to look at him so I closed my eyes and begin to speak. "I know you can see the affect you have on me and I know you haven't had a lot of experience with women, but I wonder if you have ever fantasized about what it would be like to be with a woman? To give your body so completely?"
"Well yes I have had fantasies, but none that meant more then the one I was having earlier in your room while you were downstairs drinking beer. I almost wanted to protest to your choice of beverage, but I was curious to see what it would be like to see you drunk. Human's often tend to lose their inhabitations when they drink." Edward said clearly trying to make me forget about the fantasy he had supposedly had about me.
"Hmm well I am normally not a big drinker, but after the day I had I thought it sort of necessary to have a beer or two. I hope you don't mind, but you kind of make me nervous and I never have been good with men so I figured what the hell why not. But as for that fantasy what was it about exactly and no avoiding the subject." I smiled still closing my eyes and eagerly awaiting his answer.
"Well I guess I just sort of fantasized about what it would be like to have sex….with a human. I mean what it would be like to make love to someone like you. To feel you, to touch you, to love you. I know I am not very original, but I have never really had thoughts like this before and I had always thought that I never would." He sighed.
"Well its ok to have thoughts and its ok to act on those thoughts that is if the person you are having those thoughts with is a willing participant. I know you don't know me that well, but I just want you to know that I am more then willing because well to me you are special. Of course I am not the type to just sleep with anybody, but you wouldn't be just anybody you would be amazing. Sorry I think I am a little drunk and I don't mean to offer my body to you because that's not what I am doing, but if you ever wanted me that way I am just saying that I would cherish that moment and I'd never forget it or regret it."
I heard Edward sort of laugh it off and the last thing I remember is telling him my life story. I would have surely bored him to sleep if he could sleep instead I found that I myself had fallen asleep and when I awoke it was night and Edward was gone leaving a note on the pillow he laid just moments ago.
Dearest Megan,
I hope you slept well. I just want you to know that you are anything, but boring and if I ever had the honor of just kissing you let alone making love to you I would be the lucky one. You truly don't see yourself clearly and I intend to show you just how special you are if you will let me.
Love,
Edward
Wow he was just too good to be true. Well of course he was too good to be true he was a fictional character for god sake. A fictional character I found myself loving even more. He wasn't exactly Bella's Edward I mean there seem to be parts of that there, but now it was like he was my Edward and I loved that. So in true Bella fashion their were three things I was sure of one I was Megan Clancy not Isabella Swan, two I was stuck in the book Twilight as a main character and three I was foolishly falling in love with Edward Cullen. What the hell was I going to do and how the hell could I ever go back to my normal life now? All I know is that some part of Edward seemed to care about me and every part of me thus far seemed to care about him. I couldn't bare the thought of returning to my void life, but at the same time I didn't know where I would fit in Edward's. Stuck in thought I didn't notice my door edging open until I saw him standing before me with an almost irritated look on his face. All of a sudden I was paralyzed and I didn't know what to do or say so I just sat there with this terrified look on my face.