A/N: Sorry for the late update. I mean SUPER late! GOMEN GOMEN!! It's been a stressing for me these past few weeks. And I also forgot the chapter I've been making! Sigh, but I hope you enjoy reading my… fic. - enjoy.
Chapter 2: Black and Grey
A Girl went out the kitchen with a tray on her hands. She has a shoulder-length brunette hair with deep murky eyes. Tezuka was stunned on what she look.
"Maa, calm down." The girl remarked as she put the tray on the center table. "Here, have some tea to make you warm."
She really looked like him, Very much alike. The color of their hair, the way she spoke except from her eyes. She's got a darker one unlike him and of course… the gender. Tezuka snapped himself to ignore.
"No thanks." He toughly replied, Perhaps to cover his sudden reaction and added. "Answer my questions first. Who are you and why am I here?"
"Okay, Okay. I'll answer it one by one." The girl sat in front Tezuka and stared at him. "I'm Shiori Yamada. At Sunday's, I always went to the memorial and visit my mother. And that morning, when I came to visit; I saw you lying next to a tomb and you look so drench and… helpless... So I intended to bring you here."
"Is that so? Hn…" Tezuka glanced on the girl's face. He couldn't believe that his horrible nightmare yesterday was really true. He thought it was just a bad dream… but now he knew it wasn't. Tezuka slowly bent his head and stay still.
"Nee, why are you lying there anyway, under the heavy rain? You could get pheumo-"
"It's none of your business." Tezuka cut off. She was surprised. Tezuka glared at the girl that made her shiver with those sharp eyes. Tezuka looked away and stood up. "Thanks for the care. I really appreciate it." Without her saying a single word, Tezuka left.
"Tezuka-san…"
On the way, Tezuka walked to eternal. Feels like an eternal. For, He doesn't know where to go now, to where to lean on. He could still feel in his broken heart the pain it bear. It seemed like every step he makes, was a pierce on his heart.
Suddenly, He stopped. Unconsciously opening the gate of his apartment and walked in the door. He was about to open the door when someone inside opened it.
"Kunimitsu!" A soft voice echoed through his ear. His eyes widened in surprise, thinking 'could it be him?'
"Mitsu! Okaeri!" the happy honey-haired boy hugged the bespectacled man with excitement when he opened the door.
"S-Shuuumph!" The bespectacled man was cut off by the passionate kiss of his koi as he was slowly been pulled inside."
"Mitsu…"
xXx……xXx
"MITSU!"
That voice snapped him out of reality. When he looked, it was Ayana-san; His mother. She had tears left in her glowing auburn eyes and it was puffy for crying the whole night. Behind her was oishi who also looked worried.
"Tezuka-kun, where have you been? Your mother was so worried about you." Oishi said.
Ayana embraced her son as tightly as she could; as tears began to drop again from her rosy cheeks.
"Oh mitsu! Where have you been all night? I'm so worried about you! Oh…"
He thought it was him, shuusuke; but he was wrong… really wrong. Tezuka hugged his mother tightly and buried his face on her shoulder to cover the pain and loneliness he was bearing now. He didn't want his mother to see him like this. He would become a lot weaker if his mother has been affected by his frail emotions.
"Gomen okaa-san. I didn't mean to make you worry but I want to be alone for awhile." Tezuka kissed his mother's forehead, still hiding his pain and headed upstairs; to his room.
Ayana and Oishi followed him in their eyes. But Ayana couldn't bear to see his son like this and intended to go after him.
Tezuka who had just entered the room, sat at the bed and stared on those scattered memories of him and his beloved. Those precious memories he couldn't forget.
.::Flashbacks::.
"Mitsu! Mitsu! Over here!" The brown-haired petite boy called as he cheerfully waved his hands on the cold wind. It was a cold spring afternoon, where flowers began to bloom to the fullest; a perfect day for a date.
The bespectacled man followed. "hai hai… what is it?" He asked by what he's lover doing to him.
"Just stand there and don't move!" He commanded. Fuji stopped and went to the man standing alone beside them.
"Anou, mister? "
The man turned. "Yes?"
"Can you take us a picture? If you don't mind." Fuji said, showing his wide innocent smile.
"Shuu!" Tezuka protested.
"Iya, Iya.. It's fine."
"Maa! Domo arigatou! Here." Fuji gave his camera and went beside Tezuka.
"Okay, in 1, 2, 3 say cheese!"
"CHEESE!"
click
Fuji bowed and got the camera." Thank you so much."
"I'm sorry if we bother you." Tezuka apologized.
"ii, its alright. Is she your girlfriend? Maa, you're lucky to have someone like her." The man commented that made Tezuka blushed but he answer a tough 'Thanks.'. Fuji just let out a silent laugh by Tezuka's expression. He looked so red like the red daisies behind them.
"ja! Mata ne!" The man waved and left.
"Arigatou gozaimasu!" Fuji waved back and turned to Tezuka. "maa, do I really look like a girl in this?"
Tezuka raised an eyebrow. "You have a nerve to ask that?"
"Why? I just want to know." He insisted.
Tezuka looked and observed, then turned back to him. "Well, with that tight shirt that shapes your slim body plus the mini shorts, PLUS those PADDINGS. No doubt." He explained, emphasizing the words 'PLUS' and 'PADDINGS'.
"Oh? Is that so?" Fuji giggled. "This padding was from ane-san. She recommended it to me. I never knew it was that helpful although it was so difficult to wear." He added with a laugh but he suddenly paused.
"Why mitsu?" Fuji reacted on the sudden 'dead' expression of Tezuka. "Don't you like what I did?"
Tezuka breathed deeply and released it, expressing the 'no comment' for an answer.
"Why? Aren't you happy? Don't you like it?" Fuji bowed in remorse. In his eyes the loneliness of his heart. "I'm sorry, I just want to-"
"You don't have to." Tezuka cut, knowing what his reason would be. He gently held his shoulders as he said. "I'm happy for who you are and what you are. You don't need anything else just to please me. I'm contented that I have a caring, loving koi like you who love me much as I do. So you don't need to pretend to be a girl, like this. I don't care about my reputation, As long as you are here. Here by my side, to love you and to be loved by you. I have nothing to wish for."
Fuji gasped on what he had just heard. Those words that slowly melting his lonely heart. He looked up to him, showing his blue sapphires as he looked at those glowing auburn ones; He felt weak on his knees. He was so happy to hear those words, those words so sincere and true.
"Mitsu… don't worry. From now on, I will be myself. I love you mitsu."
Tezuka smiled and claimed his lover's soft lips. "I love you too… shuu…"
.::end Flashback::.
"Shuusuke…" his lips silently murmured as those tiny little pearls rolled down on his cheeks.
If only, if only I could do something to make that stop; I'll risk everything.
"Mitsu-kun?" Ayana's voice suddenly emerged behind the door as she slowly opened the door.
"Mitsu…" Ayana weakly murmured when he saw he's son sitting in misery, as she slowly walked to him at sat beside him.
"Mitsu?"
"Why do I have to feel this? I feel so helpless…"
Ayana enclosed tezuka in her arms and gave him the comfort he needs. "Mitsu, I know what happened to shuusuke was very hard for you. But mitsu, you had to move on. For you, for everybody here… and for him also. Looking at you now, Shuusuke must be very sad to see you like this. Life is so short that it could be taken away in a minute. But on shuusuke's case, we had no choice. You must understand too. It was also hard for him to leave us, especially you. Try to think mitsu, he must be with kamisama, guiding and watching us from above. Don't be so hard on yourself. He will still be with you. Everyday and whenever you will go. In your heart, He will still be there."
Tezuka just answered his mom with silence. He didn't know what to say, or to react. Ayana push Tezuka gently away from her and looked him in his eye. She could see how hazy his eye's glows.
"You know, when fate comes, neither of us could ever stop it. You have to be strong mitsu, for everyone and for shuusuke. Healing those wounds sure takes time to heal but remember, every wound leaves a scar to let us remind that were once outcome a difficult trial in our life-"
"Okaa-san…" He abruptly responded. "It's just so difficult to accept and forget. I'm a graduate of medicine yet I didn't save him!" Tezuka's grip tightened as his anger continued to rise. "If only.. If only I had more knowledge. If only…"
She held his hand. "Mitsu! Don't be so hard on yourself. It hurts me to see you like this."
"Tezuka freed himself and looked down on the floor. "I don't know what to feel anymore. I-I just want to be alone".
"Sigh. Okay. I let you go this time. But be sure you'll eat for dinner." Ayana kissed his son's forehead and stood. "I love you son." She slowly walked to the door and before she completely went out, she glanced at weeping son and closed the door.
Oishi quickly went to Ayana right after she came downstairs, in his face so worried about his friend. Ayana shook her head, knowing what Oishi will ask.
"He asked me to be alone. I could feel his heart breaking apart. It's been a difficult burden for him to bear and accept so easily. Sigh, I wish shuusuke-kun was still alive. He was the one that kunimitsu needs… more than anything else."
Oishi weakly bowed his head. All their friends know it. They could see it in Tezuka's eyes. Those glowing, shining stares every time they were together. But know, all they could see were gloomy, ominous eyes looking solemnly at the deep abyss of torment that kept on swallowing down at the underneath. So much in pain, so much in darkness.
Tezuka remained on where he is as he continued to look at those scattered photos he kept. Those pictures, the memories he cherished more than anything; every single part of it. Suddenly, he noticed the white scarf hanged at the back of his door. It was the scarf that Fuji made for him, was knitted for him.
Tezuka stood up and walked to the door. He took the scarf and went back to the again. He stared at it. This scarf brought him sweet memories. Memories when Fuji was still in his side, when he was still alive.
oOoxxoOo
.::Flashbacks ::.
It's a cold winter afternoon. White snows started to fall from heaven creating a beautiful serene ambiance all over Japan. Every one was warming themselves in the fire and love.
"woah it's pretty snowy outside." The honey haired boy who just walked in the door complained, carrying 2 bags of goodies.
"And cold too." The bespectacled man added with few plastic bags of goodies.
Fuji chuckled as he looked at his shaking koi. "I told you to bring your sweater but you insist not to. Now, look what happened to you."
Tezuka ignored, felt a little embarrassed. He put the plastic bags at the table and sat at the couch as he made himself warm.
This made Fuji chuckled more. That also, made Tezuka a little irritated, giving him a dark glare.
"What's so funny?" He impolitely said, irritated.
Fuji put the bags at the table and walked to Tezuka with his innocent little smile on his face. "Even though you act mature enough. You sometimes still act like a child." He said followed with a laugh.
"Look who's talking."
"Maa Maa… don't get angry. "Sa! Here take this." Fuji tossed it to Tezuka. Tezuka caught it and got surprise.
"Shuu…"
"Well, I know you are a 'cold-hater', so I intended to make one for you. I don't want you to get sick. I know you hate that also much as getting a cold."
Tezuka was stunned as he looked at the scarf. It was knitted in white sheet and on the front it has a lettering of cursivedKS stitched in blue thread. And a heart enclosed to it that was stitched in red.
"Maa, I'll make some hot soup for you. The special one." Fuji winked at him and went to the kitchen to prepare the soup.
Suddenly, after he turned around; two arms encircled him in a tight embrace. Fuji eye's widened. He could feel his warm breath brushing through his ears.
"mitsu?"
"Thanks." A simple word, but it is enough to let him feel how grateful he was.
Feeling his, Fuji closed his eyes and felt the tight embrace on him. He could feel both their hearts pounding in great happiness… and love.
"I love you forever… koi"
.::End of flashbacks::.
oOoxxoOo
Tezuka slowly lifted the scarf closer to his face. He was feeling it; Feeling his presence, his perfume… his softness. Overwhelming emotions surrounds him. Sorrow, pain, regret, loneliness and emptiness, made him to allow the tears that were trying to escape form his auburn eyes and letting his mourn to be heard from above. Like his heart, being torn apart… one by one. In his world, there was only one who could mend his broken heart. But, now that one had disappeared, everything turned black and grey. Everything turned blurry and dark.
Shuusuke…
xXx...xXx
"1, 2, 3 CLEAR!"
Deep silence, Blinding light, People chatting, Mixing with the 'beep' sound that was kept on beeping.
"1, 2, 3 CLEAR!"
"1, 2, 3 CLEAR!"
"1, 2, 3 CLEAR!"
Many white men were staring down, as they tried to make the straight line to curve.
"Last! 1, 2, 3 CLEAR!"
Finally, the line was curved, the cardiac monitor started to beep once again, together with the blinding light bursting on his sight, the long lost sapphires was opened up again.
Mitsu…
A/N: waii! Yokatta nah! I'm finally finished with this chappie. Sorry guyz if it's too short. Like I told you earlier I forgot the plot. cries but I hope you keep on reading these. Thanks to all reviewers! It really helped me a lot! ARIGATOU GOZAIMASU! -
merissala - it will sitll be a tezuxfuji fic. nothing will change. But for the first 3-4chappies, tezukaOC i guess? - anyway, thanks for the support
Next chapter 3, next next week? " well, I'll try to make it next week please R&R.. thank you very much for your support! plz keep on reading.