Chapter 2

Sam entered Kensi's darkened apartment. Sam turned and looked at Kensi who still had her weapon in hand. Kensi knew why Sam was staring, she quickly turned and locked the door and put her weapon in the small of her back.

Sam had seen PTSD before and knew the best way to approach Kensi was akin to approaching a wild animal. Small steps, soft voices, not startling her in any way.

"Kensi" Said Sam. Kensi didn't respond.

Sam took another step forward and put his hand on her shoulder. Kensi re-coiled at Sam's touch, she turned around to face him.

"Yeah" she replied. "Sorry"

"It's alright Kensi." Said Sam

"I wanted to talk to you if that's okay. Can we sit down Kensi?" Kensi nodded.

"Can I get you something Sam? Water, coffee, tea?"

I' m good Kensi, come sit down." Sam said. He knew what Kensi was doing, she was avoiding talking about the situation if she didn't talk about what happened it stopped it becoming really real.

Kensi walked over to the couch and sat one space away from Sam.

Sam took a moment before speaking to just look at Kensi. She was a completely different person. She a shadow of her former self; she was withdrawn, anxious, scared.

"Kensi I know you've been through alot but I need you tell me what happened in Afghanistan after you were captured"

Kensi shook her head. "I can't." She said as she stuttered as he her hands started to shake.

Sam looked her in the eye. "Kensi, you're not going through this by yourself. I'm here. Please tell me what happened. Just start from the beginning."

I ca..." Kensi started to say.

Sam put his hands on Kensi. She stopped shaking. "I'm not going anywhere Kensi. I'm not leaving you to go through this alone."

Kensi nodded. "They put a hood over my head. They took me to a cave."

"What happened next Kensi?

Kensi stared straight through Sam almost back in that trance like state she'd been in when they got back to the States.

"Kensi" Sam called.

Kensi snapped out of her trance.

"Sorry" she mumbled.

"It's okay Kensi, I've been there."

"What happened to you Sam."

" I've been through it more than once Kensi. But one of the worst times was in Somalia. I got separated from my squad. I was captured. I was interrogated for hours, beaten, waterboarded, starved, hung from the ceiling, torched."

"How did you get through it." Asked Kensi

"I had to leave my body I had to pretend it was happening to someone else. There was a little bit left behind if I had to fight or escape but I was gone."

"What about after you got home."

"When I got home I was different I had the physical scars of what was done to me but I suffered PTSD I had nightmares, flashbacks. I was spiralling down a deep dark hole when one of the men from my SEAL team came to see me. He told me that while I will always have the physical scars of what was done to me. I won't have those mental scars. He told me that I had a choice right there and then was I going to give in to them and let them hold power of me forever and continue to spiral down into that hole or was I going to stand up, heal those scars and not let them have power over me and move forward. I remember one thing he told me Kensi that was so important."

"What was that Sam?"

"He told me that I would help someone else one day that I would help someone else stand up and be strong." He smiled at Kensi

"Let's stand up strong...Together."

"Tell me what happened it's the only way you're going to heal and not let them hold power over you."

Kensi took a deep breath and explained to Sam what she had been through while she was be held captive.

"They beat me Sam, they threatened to rape me, they tied me up with no food no water, they played Russian Roulette with myself and another hostage." She started to sob. "He's dead Sam and it's my fault. Jack's dead

Sam pulled Kensi into him. "None of this is your fault Kensi. None of it"

"If I was stronger. If I could have found away to escape. If I could have killed them, he wouldn't be dead. "

Kensi continued to sob as Sam held her. "They broke me Sam." She whispered

Sam looked at Kensi.

"Kensi, they did not break you do you hear me, they did not break you. You are alive and you are here and you will get better. You have the whole team standing next to you side by side to get you through. Me, Callen, Deeks, Nell, Eric Hetty everyone is standing right there beside you and don't ever forget that.

Kensi wiped her eyes and whispered "Thank you."

"You're family Kensi and we do anything for family.

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