Jim stared at Spock, and wondered if the hormones raging in Lester's body was having an effect on him. He was still Jim Kirk. A strong man, capable of many things that other men wouldn't dare dream. But, in this instant he felt very helpless. It felt like he had no control of who he thought he once was.
Being in a woman's body gave him ironically an escape from the stoic, brave man he was. Here, he could be afraid, he could cry, he could rant and blame it on moods swings, or PMS. Whatever that was.
But he couldn't understand why Spock could be effected by his emotional meltdown. Jim had always cared for the Vulcan. His dearest friend, and most cherished. It was so true what he had said to him. That Spock was the closest friend in the universe and knew Jim's thoughts. He never would have dreamed though that Spock would declare he loved him. But what future could they have now.
Jim slowly raised a hand to Spock's face and caressed a cheek. Jim's eyes filled with tears as he tried to see his friend but couldn't.
Spock covered his friends hand.
"Jim, I do love you. Do you believe me?" Spock said softly.
"I, I don't know what to say. Perhaps, you are being effected by my meltdown. You feel sorry for.."
"No. I am not sorry for saying how I feel. And I do FEEL."
Spock squeezed Jim's hand when he spoke the word feel. For he truly understood its meaning. He felt love for this man. And he was not going to take back what he had said.
"Spock, I am for the moment a woman. Can you still say that, if I change back into a man."
"Yes. When our minds touched, I was not sure what I would find there. And when I did open my mind to find you, you came to me like my cherished sehlat who would greet me after school. With such a frenzy, such love for his companion. And you said to me: "Spock, I've missed you so much. Do you believe me?"
"I remember. And you answered you did. I wanted so much to hold you then. But, we weren't alone."
"No, we weren't. But I did hold your hand Jim. Tried to show you what I felt. And the touching of hands is very intimate among our race. You could say I was kissing you."
Jim smiled and squeezed back Spock's hand.
"We don't have much time at the moment. I for one don't feel like wasting a minute. We will get out of here Spock."
"That, I have no doubt."
"How are you on zippers Spock?"