A/N: You guys amaze me...I am so excited you want to take this journey with me...something has to get my mind off of the white and green cup that has been absent from my hand for two days now...so, thank you...

Thank you to my favorite girl OnTheTurningAway for fixing this for me...makes me want to beam the rainbow... heart you FW

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February 18, 2010

39 days left.

How did my first day go? Well, let's see...

It started off just like any other morning, tangled limbs and little Jasper nestled against me, hard and throbbing. Jasper ran his hands down my chest, once again normal, as he started grinding his hips against my ass. The lazy grin started to appear on my face, when all of a sudden I remembered...

Fuck, no sex!

So, to remain true and faithful to rule number one, I took the first of many cold showers. In the seven years we have been together, it was the first one I had ever had. It was awful, but it worked.

Now, did I stick to the rules? Let's review the ones that really meant something to me today...

Rule 1: There was absolutely no violation of that one; my ice bath took care of that. After this morning's almost slip-up, I made an addition to this rule.

1a) Boxers and lounge pants must now be worn to bed every night, no exceptions. It only takes one sleep induced fuck to mess this all up.

So far my first day without sex wasn't traumatic; a little painful, yes, but definitely not heart stopping.

We combined rules 2 and 5. I made breakfast for us, and we sat at the table together, eating while we talked. This went down as the highlight of our day. I can't remember the last time we sat down together in the morning, it's usually a quick peck over pouring coffee in a to go cup while racing out the door.

I can feel a dopey fucking grin on my face as I think about our breakfast conversation. We made a point not to talk about work. Instead, we talked about the first time we ever met. It is so sad that you tend to forget all the details that were so important to you back then.

Thinking about them all, I realize that I need to get them down in case I need to be reminded again one day.

Jasper Whitlock...the day he moved to Forks, the entire school was buzzing at the prospect of getting a new student. All the girls hoped he was the next prom king and the guys hoped he was the next sports hero. Everyone was hoping to be his friend, boyfriend, lab partner... Me, I just wanted him to leave me alone. I was never one to draw attention to myself and being friends with the new boy certainly would.

When I got to the lunch room that day, I found out that the new boy was as wonderful as everyone hoped. Everyone was talking about him and now I was curious. I was kinda hoping that I would get to see him, that he would walk in and satisfy my curiosity. Lucky for me, he didn't disappoint and I now know that he never will. He became the center of my world from the moment he entered the cafeteria doors and I can't imagine my life without him.

Now these are the important details of our first meeting...

The first thing I noticed about him when he walked in were his eyes. They were piercing and intense as they scanned the room. I still, to this day, don't know what he was looking for because when they landed on me, my whole world was flipped. He was the first man I ever truly looked at and appreciated in a sexual light. I had never been attracted to any of the boys I grew up with. Seeing Jasper standing there that day, I experienced my first in school erection...it was the first of many.

When he walked by my table, I watched him out of the corner of my eye, noticing his unnaturally tan skin tone in a sea of the pale bodies that made up Forks High School. His lips were full and red and his eyes were such a dark hue, that they were almost navy. When he turned and looked at me, I was in a daze. He was stunning. His smile was beautiful and I finally believed in love at first sight.

Now, the rest of the day may have gone by in a haze, but the first thing he said to me is something I will remember forever. When I was standing at my locker after lunch, he walked over to me, leaned against the door and told me, "My name's Jasper Whitlock...and you'll never forget me." He gave me the most adorable smirk and walked away...from that point on, I never have.

Okay...thinking about all this is making me desperate to satisfy the beautiful Texas boy sitting in my living room. Thank goodness for the leeway in the first rule, because I was about to make him a very satiated man...

Until tomorrow...

A/N2: For all of you who know me, you know that I lovingly and painstakingly respond to every review I have always gotten...even when you are upset with me, I do my best to fix it. That being said, if I am going to attempt to update this everyday...that will be impossible and I feel awful for it because I like responding, but I refuse to be generic in my responses and send everyone the same one. So...unless you ask something specific...you will probably not get a response from me, but every single one makes my heart melt...so thank you..

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