Chapter 2
There Is Love Inside This Madness
* " Though I don't believe in magic, I believe in me and you. " - Bea Miller: Fire N Gold
We are finally at the house party, but I felt EXTREMELY uncomfortable. There are WAY too many people at this house. It is hard for my friends and me to move around because we keep bumping into people so we decided to stand by a corner in the living room.
Axel and Sora are the only ones who didn't act drunk as for the rest of us… Well, it is a different story.
The alcohol we drank at my apartment finally kicked in for us. Kairi is all over Sora and he had to support her because she couldn't stand straight, and Seifer had his right arm wrapped around my waist, making me lean into him. He does this to me every time he gets drunk and it gets annoying at times…
Seifer is good looking and he is somewhat my type it's just strange how he only flirts with me when he is drinking.
When he's sober he hardly talks to me, but even if he did give me the time or the day, I wouldn't like him like that.
Seifer has short blonde hair, and he always wears a black beanie. He has a lot of arm muscles and abs, but he is still very thin. He works out religiously to stay in shape. I don't feel that extra spark with him like I do with Vanitas, but Vanitas is an asshole compared to Seifer…
"Hey, Cagalli you look really sexy in that little red dress of yours." Seifer leaned in and whispered to me. His words are making me cringe from feeling his hot breath in my ear.
"Ugh, thanks…" I tried to struggle away from his body, but he had a tight grip on me.
"Vanitas isn't going to like you being all over her," Axel warned Seifer as he took a sip from his red cup.
My heart started to pound in my chest very fast. "Wait, what?" I tried my best not to show how happy I am to hear that.
Vanitas is NOT the jealous type at all. Eva and the other two girls he hooks up with will get a lot of attention from guys because they are very attractive looking, but Vanitas doesn't worry or care if a guy flirts with them.
Axel tells me sometimes the boys will flirt with them in front of him, and Vanitas doesn't show any reaction that he is jealous or mad.
"Yeah, he told me to keep an eye on you, Cagalli. He's like a big brother to you, you know?" Axel chuckled.
I felt the wind knocked out of me… He only thinks of me as a little sister, nothing more… I couldn't help but feel really disappointed.
He would never have a crush on me… Our spark that we used to have was long gone… I know I have to move on from him, but it's just so hard. Every time I talk to other men, I always compare them to Vanitas and they are not even HALF as great as he is.
I always try to find someone better than him, but it never happens. I just don't feel butterflies with another man, like I do with him.
"Cagalli?" Axel called my name.
"Oh! Ugh, yeah sorry…" I stuttered around.
"Vanitas isn't here, so it's fine," Seifer said as he still had me really close to him.
"Suit yourself, but if he decides to come here and see you all over her then it's game over." Axel walked away from us to get more alcohol in the kitchen.
Seifer finally lets go of me and mumbled something then left me with Sora and Kairi.
I need to thank Axel later for scaring Seifer away from me. I hate when men wrap their arms around me when they are sloppy drunk. It makes things awkward and I always feel very uncomfortable.
"Cagalli, let's get a drink!" Kairi hiccupped.
"I think you had enough." Sora scowled at her.
"No!" Kairi pushed Sora away from her and grabbed my hand. She then pulled me into the kitchen with her.
"Kairi, you are going to get us too drunk!" I lectured as she poured each of us a glass full of vodka. She mixed it with orange juice and handed me a glass. I took a sip and gagged. She made it way too strong… Ugh, another Vanitas!
"It's not that bad!" She whined while she took a sip, but then she spits it back in her cup.
"Yeah, that's why you spit it out." I started to gulp my drink because I am beginning to feel like I am sobering up, and I did not want to be sober in this mad house!
"CHUG, CHUG, CHUG!" Kairi chanted making everyone in the kitchen chant with her.
I blushed, but I chugged my drink until there was not even a drop left in my red solo cup. Everyone began to cheer and I couldn't help but giggle. I love Kairi and her reckless behavior!
Kairi gave me a huge hug. "Hey, you should sleep over tonight! Sora is going over to Riku's, so it will just be me, you and my roommate!"
Kairi lives in an apartment with her best friend, Olette. Olette is very quiet, but I think she isn't too fond of me, which I don't understand why. I haven't done anything to offend her, but I try not to let it bother me for Kairi's sake.
"I guess… I know you will make me go to class even if I get really sick!" I poured myself another vodka drink; I tried to not make it as strong as Kairi did the first time!
"You know it!" Kairi winked. She takes schooling seriously even though she parties a lot. She gets good grades and never misses a class.
"Hey, guys." Riku approached us. He is childhood, friends with Kairi and Sora. He has long silver hair that comes past his neck and beautiful turquoise eyes.
Riku, Sora, and Kairi are inseparable! They seriously do everything together.
"Hey, Riku!" I gave him a friendly hug. "Why didn't you pregame with us?"
"I was napping and didn't hear Sora's and Kairi's text messages." Riku grinned sheepishly.
"RIKU! TAKE A SHOT WITH US!" Without agreeing, Kairi poured us vodka in tiny shot glasses.
"Kai, we are going to get sick! I swear if I throw up tonight or tomorrow morning, I am not going to class!" I took my shot and squirmed. I definitely am starting to feel tipsy!
"Oh, hush! I will drag you by the hair and make you go!" She took her shot and cheered.
Riku took his shot but didn't show a reaction. He is a heavy drinker just like Vanitas and his friends.
"LET US DO ANOTHER!" Kairi suggested.
"Kairi!" Riku and I shouted in unison. Riku and I both know for a fact that she and I will be deathly ill tomorrow.
*~*~*My Complicated Crush*~*~*
It is around midnight and even more people showed up to the house party! I am pretty drunk because I felt numb and I am being extra clumsy…
It's pretty bad when Kairi not only got ourselves drunk but Riku too. Riku and I decided to smoke a cigarette outside. I usually don't smoke, but when I am drinking I will smoke a couple here and there just to be social.
A lot of people are in the backyard smoking and drinking. I'm surprised there hasn't been a fight yet, but the night is still young…
"I thought Vanitas would be here since Axel and Seifer are here," Riku commented as he lit up his cigarette.
I just shrugged. I really didn't want to talk about Vanitas to anyone. I am trying to avoid the subject about him the whole time I am here…
"I don't know. He's with his girlfriend at the apartment… so."
"Ah, I see." Riku nodded and handed me a cigarette and his lighter.
I lit my cigarette and began to puff violently. Riku and I did a little small talk before I went back into the kitchen to make myself another drink.
I am still pretty drunk, but I wanted more… As I was pouring my vodka drink, someone covered my eyes from behind. I freaked and dropped the bottle on the ground, but lucky for me the bottle is plastic.
"I'm surprised you aren't in a corner making out with some guy." The guy whispered in my ear. His voice sounded so familiar, and his body is pressed against my back…
"Vanitas?" I hurried and turned around to see a smirking Vanitas.
"Hey," he said coolly.
I am so surprised he is here, but where's Eva? Wouldn't she be with him? I gave him a small hug, but he embraced me harder making me do the same.
I looked up at him and frowned. "Why did you say you are surprised I wasn't making out with someone? Are you calling me a whore?!"
"No, It's just we used to do that back in high school…"
"That was different!" I giggled.
"Because it was with me?" He asked.
I couldn't answer his question… I couldn't tell him the honest truth that it was because of him. I only wanted to make out with just him and no one else.
We locked eyes and we still had our arms wrapped around each other, but we both immediately let go when Axel ruined the mood…
"Hey, you made it!" Axel handed Vanitas a drink. "Where's Eva?"
"I told her I was going to bed and I wanted her to leave, so I came here." Vanitas grinned.
"So, you lied to her?" I scowled at him. I am glad he's here with us, but I hate it when he lies to people! It's so heartless.
"Don't be a buzz kill, Cagalli." Vanitas started to chug his drink.
"I am not a buzz kill! I am fun!" I stuck my tongue out at him.
"Yeah, yeah. Are you coming home with me tonight?" Vanitas finished his drink in less than a minute.
"No, I'm staying over Kairi's. Did you walk here?"
"No, I rode my street bike here," he answered.
I gasped. "Why the hell would you do that?! That's dangerous, Vanitas!"
"He does it all the time." Axel rolled his eyes. "He got to show off his big toy."
"That's stupid even for you!" I nudged Vanitas. I am not too pleased with him. I am not a big fan of people drinking and driving especially when someone is driving a STREET BIKE!
"Stop being a nag…" Vanitas put his arm around my waist. "Let's get another drink even though you can't handle much… You lightweight."
"I'm pretty decent at drinking and you know that!" I argued as I watched him pour my drink. I know he's going to make it strong!
"Sure." He smirked and handed me the drink.
I started to chug even though the vodka is burning my throat! I only could chug my drink halfway because I am gagging.
"Ha, I only put in a little vodka." He mocked.
"Shut up, Vanitas!"
He is making himself a drink, and, of course, he didn't use ANY mixers just straight vodka. It made me cringe just watching him drink it.
Vanitas smirked after he finished his drink and poured another glass full of vodka. He then grabbed me by the arm and dragged me into the living room to meet up with Seifer. I personally didn't want to see him, but Vanitas had a tight grip on me. I definitely couldn't leave his side even if I wanted to.
"Hey, you came!" Seifer stuttered his words. His eyes are bloodshot and I can tell he is blacking out.
"Yeah, this party is kind of lame," Vanitas muttered.
"You just got here." I glared at him.
"Whatever. Let's go outside. I need to smoke a cig." Without me protesting, he dragged me AGAIN to go outside. I swear he's like a little girl and I'm his little doll. He just drags me roughly without caring if he hurts me or not…
We went out in the back and people are more reckless than before, everyone is drunk and getting sloppy.
"Ha, Amateurs," Vanitas said as he lit up his cigarette.
"We have been drinking all night, what do you expect?" I raised a brow at him.
"I drink all day and I never get that sloppy." He inhaled and exhaled smoke from his cig.
"That's a lie! Remember that one time? You went to a couple bars and a casino then you came home and lied on top of me in my bed! I asked you why you were in my bed, and you weren't even making any sense! You couldn't even complete your sentences." I started to bust out laughing thinking about that night. It's strange how I didn't get annoyed with him.
I think it is because I never saw him that drunk in my life, but I secretly liked it. He is in distress and I had to help him. It was cute, to be honest.
"I never threw up, though." He blew smoke in my face making me cough up a lung!
"Hey!" I growled at him.
He smirked as he threw his cigarette on the ground and downed the rest of his drink. "Get me another one." He handed me his empty red solo cup.
"Can you say please?"
He blankly just stared at me. I knew I wasn't going to get a "please" so I just huffed and stormed off while he lit another cig. It took me forever to get into the kitchen because people wouldn't move out of the way, but I finally made it!
As I started to pour him a drink, Kairi hugged me from behind.
"Riku said Vanitas is here!" She whispered in my ear.
"Yeah," I answered.
"He must have come because of you!"
I turned around to face her and shook my head. "No, I think he came because of Axel and Seifer."
"If he wanted to hang with Seifer and Axel, he would just ask them to leave the house party to go to the bars. They are all twenty-one or twenty-two!" Kairi argued.
"Kai, you are too drunk." I dismissed her opinion, but it is strange he didn't ask his friends to go to the bars instead of this house party… I stayed with Kai for a little bit until Sora came rushing in the kitchen.
"Kairi! Don't wander off! I almost lost you." Sora grabbed her hand and took her back in the living room.
I sighed to myself and went to go back outside to give Vanitas his drink, but when I got there a girl is in deep conversation with him.
Her name is Alexia; she is one of the three girls Vanitas is talking to.
She has long brown hair and she is very tan. She is the same age as me, but we didn't have any classes together…
Alexia has her arms wrapped around him and he just stood there talking to her. He didn't have his arms around her, but he didn't push her away either.
I am definitely not going over there so I decided to go out front to avoid him and Alexia. I sat on the house's stoop and chugged Vanitas' drink. I made it very strong because he would've wanted it like that, but it's mine now. He can have her make him a drink.
I chugged the whole drink and I felt my body light. I didn't care, though. I had a reason to drink. He is going to stay over her apartment tonight, and I felt like I need more and more alcohol in my body to forget that.
I don't want to think about him with another girl late at night like I always do. These drinks will make me forget about him and those three women he goes with!
I stood up from the stoop to get another drink in the kitchen, but someone forcefully pushed me down! I am lying on top of the stoop, and a college student who looked like a senior is hovering over me. He pinned my wrists, so I couldn't stand up.
"What a pretty lady," The boy said seductively. I can smell alcohol on his breath.
"Um, can you get off?!" I tried to struggle to break free, but it is no good. He's way too strong.
"Awe, come on! I want to have some fun!" He laughed as he leaned closer to my face. I think he is going to kiss me…
"EW, GET OFF!" I squealed. I didn't want him near me!
"GET AWAY FROM HER!" I heard a dark voice behind us.
The boy unpinned me and turned around to see… Vanitas.
"Vanitas?" I immediately stood up from the stoop and pulled my dress down, so I am not exposing my underwear for the world to see.
"Man, I'm just trying to get lucky!" The student slurred.
Vanitas' yellow eyes darken, which stunned me! I never saw him this angry before… He didn't say a word, but he punched the student right in the face causing the student to fall down on the porch. He is knocked out cold…
I slowly walked up to Vanitas and stared at his beautiful eyes. He saved me… "Thank you…" I whispered.
He just shrugged. "It's not a big deal." Vanitas is back to his old self…
"Hey, you! Are you causing problems?!" Another student pointed at Vanitas.
"So what if I am?" Vanitas asked in a low voice.
"I'll kill you!" Another student charged at Vanitas!
"Vanitas, no!" I started to freak out as Vanitas dodged the kid's punch. Vanitas then punched the kid in the gut causing him to grunt in pain.
Everyone around us stopped their conversations to watch Vanitas and the kid fighting, but then they all started to throw punches at each other!
It is a huge brawl that Vanitas started! I never understood why people always pick fights when they are drunk. I'm drunk right now, but I wouldn't dare to hurt another person! This is all Vanitas' fault! He always has to prove he's stronger than everyone…
"YES! A BIG BRAWL IS HAPPENING!" I heard Axel chant as he punched a random student in the face.
"I WANT IN ON THIS!" Seifer shouted while he started to attack students around him.
I watched everyone fighting on the front lawn, and I am confused on what to do.
I know the cops will show up soon. They are all causing too much commotion! This party turned into a mad house and it is all thanks to Vanitas!
*~*~*My Complicated Crush*~*~*
"Cagalli, wait up!" I heard Vanitas' voice from behind me, but I refuse to look back at him. I am annoyed with him because of the mess he made.
The party got busted and everyone ran away from the cops so they didn't get citations for underage drinking.
I am still pretty drunk as I walked a fast pace to try to get away from Vanitas.
"CAGALLI, COME ON! Let me at least take you home. You don't have to talk to me after we get back to our apartment!" Vanitas pleaded.
I turned around to face me. I felt like I had fire burning in my eyes. "You idiot!" I slapped him across the face! "What were you thinking?!"
"Geez, what a pain." Vanitas rubbed his cheek that I slapped.
"You started that big fight for no good reason!"
"No good reason, huh? If it wasn't for me, you would've got raped right on the front porch!" Vanitas grabbed my arm and pulled me close to him. "You never give me credit, Cagalli."
I felt tears well up in my eyes, he was right. If it weren't for him I would have gotten taken advantage of. Vanitas saved me, and I am being a drunken jerk to him.
Vanitas hugged me tightly and whispered in my hair. "It's okay, I will never let anyone do that to you."
I wished I could believe him, but I can't. Sometimes he will be there for me while other times he's nowhere to be found. Vanitas is a selfish person. He only cares for himself, even though he proved me wrong tonight, but when the sun comes up, he'll be back to his asshole self.
I couldn't help myself to be smitten by him. It was manly seeing him fight like that. He punched a guy for me! He turned the house party into a mad house, but he showed that he cared for me and me alone…
We broke our hug and I stared at him with widening eyes while he gave me a warming smile. I could give myself up to him, but I knew I would regret it in the morning.
"Are you going to ride with me?" He asked.
"No, I am walking home. You drank a lot and I don't want to die." I pouted. I wished he didn't do reckless stuff like that on a daily basis.
"How about this, I will buy you food then you can ride with me."
I crossed my arms over my chest. "Vanitas, you need to stop bribing me with food, it's not going to work all the time, you know!"
Vanitas just smirked at me. "What are you talking about, it ALWAYS works."
"Well, not this time." I turned my back on him and began to walk away.
"We'll go to Co Go's to get fresh homemade pepperoni rolls!" He yelled from behind me.
I stopped in my tracks. That does sound good right now! I need something salty and greasy, and a pepperoni roll would be perfect!
"Well?" He came right behind me and whispered in my ear.
Without looking back at him, I sighed deeply. "Fine…"
"Ha, got you." He wrapped his arm around my waist as we started to walk side by side to go to Co Go's. Along the way, I cursed myself for being a sucker for food.
*~*~*My Complicated Crush*~*~*
Vanitas and I are sitting on the curb in front of Co Go's, enjoying our homemade pepperoni rolls. They are so big and there are a lot of cheese and pepperoni in them! It melted in my mouth instantly!
"I don't get how you eat, so much but you are still so tiny," Vanitas commented as he chewed his food.
"I have curves!"
"You have an ass, but no tits…" He slowly grabbed my right breast.
"CUT IT OUT!" I slapped him on the head as hard as I could.
"I'm only kidding… Geez, you take things to heart."
"Do not!" I argued.
"Awe, look at them! Aren't they a cute couple?!" A woman loudly whispered to her boyfriend.
"I think they heard you," the boyfriend said in embarrassment.
I felt my cheeks flustered, but Vanitas showed no reaction. I scooted away from him, but he immediately wrapped his arm around my torso and pulled me close to him.
He continued to talk to me, acting as if nothing happened while I try to force myself to stop thinking thoughts of Vanitas and I being a couple.
*~*~*My Complicated Crush*~*~*
"Here, take this since you are afraid I am going to wreck." Vanitas handed me his black helmet. I put it on my head, but it felt uncomfortable because it is too big on my head.
"Why isn't their straps to adjust the sides?!"
"Just live with it, Cagalli." Vanitas rolled his eyes while he went on the front of his black street bike.
I stared blankly at him while he is getting comfortable. "Where's your helmet?" I asked.
"I don't need one, come on. I am tired."
I sighed and climbed on behind him. I wrapped my arms around his waist, praying we make it back home in one piece.
I am starting to feel sick, but I held it in because I would be embarrassed if I threw up in front of him.
Vanitas has seen me sick before, and he always makes fun of me for it, so I try my best not to get too sick anymore, but I fail miserably.
"Wrap your arms tighter around my waist, and scoot in closer," he ordered.
I did as he says and he started his engine. The muffler is roaring violently.
Without hesitation, he pressed down on the foot pegs and we are flying! He is going so fast, and the wind is hitting my face; it felt amazing.
Vanitas used to take me with him on his bike all the time, but ever since he and Eva started dating he stopped taking me. I missed this! I always felt so alive, so free when I am behind him on his bike…
He turned his head to make sure I am alright then he pressed down on the foot pegs to go even faster. I started to giggle; I am enjoying every moment with him.
*~*~*My Complicated Crush*~*~*
We are finally home, but I felt like I am going to throw up when I slowly got off of Vanitas' bike. I began to rock back and forth…
"Are you okay?" Vanitas asked.
I handed him his helmet, but I started to gag! I rushed over to the bushes next to our apartment and threw up!
I at least wanted to hold it in until I got into our bathroom!
As I kept throwing up, Vanitas pulled my long blonde hair back from behind, so I wouldn't puke on it.
"Let it all out." He rubbed my back with his free hand.
I did as he says and puked harder. Well, there goes my pepperoni roll, but at least I lost the calories for it…
After I was done puking, Vanitas picked me up in a cradle and took me to my room. He put my small trashcan next to my bed and tucked me in. I am still drunk even though I puked a lot… I couldn't fall asleep; my head is spinning! Vanitas went to leave me, but I grabbed his wrist.
"Do you need something? Water?" He asked.
"No, I just want your company!" I blurted out.
Vanitas chuckled. "Alright, move over…"
I did as he says and he lied on my bed. He is really close to my body and he is facing me. We stared at each other for a while until he started to mock me.
"Swear, you can't even drink a little without getting sloppy," he said.
"I drank a lot tonight… Sh!" I slurred.
"You are a pain in the ass, Cagalli," he whispered.
"Vanitas…"
"What?"
I looked deep in his eyes. "Can you come closer?"
His eyes widened at my request. "Why?"
"I have to tell you something..."
He did as I said. He slowly went close to my face.
"Closer."
He blinked, but he went a little closer until our foreheads are touching. "What do you have to tell me?"
I giggled then whispered, "You smell like cinnamon!"
I couldn't remember what he said back to me…
Everything after that was such a blur…