Welcome to my living hell.

So now I'm sitting in the great hall staring and drooling over a particular blonde haired boy who is simply unatainable to me. Yes slight depressed teenager here I know.

I was confused. That night, which had been about a month ago had changed my feelings towards him completely. I didn't know what to do, or how to act around him. It's not like his attitude towards me changed- I won't flatter myself- he hadn't ceased on insulting me. Actually they seemed to have increased their intensity. Usually I would have matched his insults with some of my own but now they seemed to get stuck in my throat, suffocating me. And then his eyes would stare at mine with such a penatrating force, as if they were questioning and observing my behavior. His 'friends' would then laugh at my pathetic form snapping him out of his trance and he would jion in with them.

"Er...Hermione?"

My head snapped up to the voice...a little bit too forcefully rewarding my with a sharp pain, I yelped.

Ron with his blazing red hair quickly squeezed in beside me our bodies touching while Harry took the seat opposite to me.

Harry chuckled, his black hari shaking with his movent, "It's just us Hermione. No need to give yourself whip lash."

I smiled, rolling my eyes, "Thanks for the advise."

"Anytime."

I felt a peice of chicken hit my cheek. Ron was eating a chicken leg like a starved dog, his teeth and tongue working at the led furiously.

"RON!"

He looked up from his meal, "What?"

"Can you manage to eat one meal like a decent human being for once in your life?"

"I'm a growing man!"

"Yeah? Which way?" I mumbled under my breath. He didn't seem to hear me as he went back to eating his chicken, but I earned a laugh from Harry.

"So anyways Herms, what were you staring at so intently when we came?" Harry asked.

"Yeah," Ron agreed. "You were drooling."

"Shut up Ron."

"Shutting."

I grinned and then lied, "Oh I was just thinking about tomorrows essay from Snape."

"WE HAVE AN ESSAY!!" Both boys yelled at the same time. Harry's eyes flew wide open while Ron fell of his chair.

I rolled my eyes and reached to help myself to some ceasar salad, but was caught in mid motion as a voice from the other side of the hall called. It seemed that our conversation had been watched.

"Whatch out there Weaselbee. You don't want to have an awful scar like scarhead here do you?"

Malfoy. Malfoy sneering. Malfoy sneering bitterly. Malfoy sneering bitterly and then laughing...a gorgeous laugh that matched is gorgeous good looks...HOLD IT!!

No no no no no... bad hermione! Get your hormones under control!

"Shut you face Malfoy!!" Ron seemed to have recovered from his fall and stomped right up to Malfoy glaring in his face. Ron was tall and was atleast a head taller than Malfoy, yet still Malfoy looked more menacing and intimidating.

He showed his famous smirk, "You know I think I will. I don't need to even open my mouth to express how low you are. You do too well yourself already."

Ron's ears turned bright red. Harry stepped up, "I like that idea Malfoy. So why don't you just run away and laugh about it to your little slytherin friends."

"Don't need to. They're right here."

"Don't flatter yourself Malfoy. I was being sarcastic. You don't actually have any friends. At least Ron will always have those who are loyal to him and will always stick up for him."

"Yeah?" Malfoy challenged. "What about Granger here? Granger don't you agree that Weasel is the lowest piece of dirt that should be overjoyed that people such as myself have to atleact touch him to walk all over him?"

Alll eyes went to me. Harry was already smiling triumphly expecting me to come up with my usual witty comeback. Only when the seconds ticked by did I see a confused frown form on his face.

"Er..I.." I struggled to say something though my mind was yelling NO NO NO! Ron is an amazing friend and I will always be there for him!! But that never came out. I just kept sitting there dumb struck.

Ron turned to face me, "Hermione?" When he saw that nothing was coming out his face fell.

Malfoy saw this and his smirk became more pronounced. "It seemed that the Golden Trio has found some issues. I better not disturb this." And with that he turned around, his cloak whipping behind him as he proceeded out of the great hall. Not before he did hid usual looking me over though of course, which sadly both Harry and Ron did not miss. Great! More Gasoline to add to the fire.

"Hermione...what was THAT!?" Harry turned on me when Malfoy and the slytherins left the Hall.

"I'm sorry...I-I got...I don't know. I was surprised. It was so sudden."

"So you could say anything?? Not even a no?" Ron asked quietly his face hurt.

"I couldn't- it all just wouldn't come out."

"I don't know..."Harry sighed, eyeing me suspiciously. "You've been acting wierd lately."

"Yeah, everytime you're around that git!"

"I guess I'm just stressed."

"Stressed means that you can't stick up for your friends?" Harry asked in disbelief.

"No! No it's just-"

"Hermione what's going on! Are you hiding something from us? Did you do something?" Ron interjected.

Now it was my turn to be shocked as what he was asking clicked in.

"NO!! Oh god no Ronald. I would never do something like that with that prat."

"Then what happened?"

I couldn't say. I couldn't tell them. How would they take it? What would they say if I had told them that I had developed feelings for the git. He was a git. He knew that lately I wasn't being myself and he took advantage of that. Anger boiled through me. Who did he think he was?? So he could just take advantage of me??

And then I smiled bitterly at my two friends. "Don't worry. I'll deal with him guys. I'm sorry. I've just been in a little bit of a slump lately. Don't worry. I still have some of my anger from third year."

This seemed to make them feel better as they grinned sharing the memmory of me punching him in our third year.

Still Harry looked worried, "are you sure you're fine?"

I smiled, "Never been better"...I hope.

Yeah I'm not 100 sure where this going but we'll see. I just wanted to experiment with a dramonie story. I'll try to update more frequenlty. Could please review? that would help a lot.

Thanks