When I saw that word I felt like life was being slowly drained from my body, that word made my world collapse in one second.. the moment the door of that room closed with my grandma s body in it I fell to the ground unconscious! For a while everything went blank, and when I was starting to wake up again I found myself on a hospital bed and my mum holding my hand and saying gabriella? Oh thank GOD you are awake! I was so worried! Are you okay? but I didn t answer so she repeated gabriella? What s wrong hunnie? Talk to me! but I was just staring at the space without saying a word so my mother ran out of the room and called help! Call the doctor please! the doctor came and asked my mum to leave us alone ,he examined me and then he asked a few questions but he didn t get any answers! Then he went out and told my mum .. gabriella is suffering of a nervous breakdown, she is suffering from denial too, because it seems like she can t accept the reality , so she just rejects it ,her condition is very advanced ,so she might need to go to rehab, and ,I think she might never talk again.. the shock was too harsh on her! But we will see what will happen with medications and therapy.. I am sorry I wish there was more I could do.. my mum nodded and then she went into my room, held my hand and said gabriella..hunnie..i know your heart is broken to small pieces, I know you ve lost one of the most important people to you ,but I ve lost my mother gabriella, and I can t face it without you.. I need you gabby..please hunnie! Yell, scream,shout, break things, I can deal with all that..but this silence.. I can t take it! Gabby I hate to see you suffer, you are my baby girl ,please hunnie fight this, stay with me gabriella ! then my dad came into the room, my mum ran towards him and he hugged her while she cried! He said I am so sorry sweetheart.. I am so sorry! after my mum pulled herself together he asked her how is gabby? my mother nodded in refusal and then my dad said again what did the doctor say? my mother said she has a nervous breakdown, and the doctor said that even after therapy and rehab she might she might never talk again! and then my mum started crying again and he said our baby girl is strong, she can makes it.. she will be fine! and then he came closer to me and kissed me on the forehead and said hey baby girl.. how are you? of course I didn t answer so he said gabby.. baby come on! You can face anything, you are so strong baby! Your grandma would have wanted that right? She would have wanted you to be happy and to get through it all, right? Baby don t give up on us.. we love you so much! All those words I heard, but I heard them as if they were in a dream, I could hear my dad but I can t see him.. all I could see is the picture of my grandma, smiling at me, and the last picture I had of her, entering the morgue. I wanted to cry my eyes out, but it was like I am trapped in this nightmare, where all I could see is the cold lifeless body of my grandma and that awful word that crushed me morgue . The next day the doctor told my mum that they were starting me on the medications hoping for the best. My friends called on my cell phone checking on me but of course I didn t answer, so my mother sometimes picked up, other times she ignored them. A week later most of the students at school has known about what was happening with me, one of my best friends came to visit me one day, her name was monica, she saw my mum, hugged her and said I am so sorry for what s happening .. I hope everything gets better soon.. my mum nodded and then showed her where my room was, she entered with a bouquet of my favourite kind of flowers, lilies, she put it on my bed, sat next to me and forced a smile. Then she said hey gabby, how are you girly? I miss you! my condition hasn t improved at all.. so I was still looking at space, lost in my own world, monica could see that I wasn t even listening but still, she felt like she needed to say what she had to say. So she said gabriella, I know how much you loved your grandma.. I know she loved you too! She was your bestfriend, she was your everybody.. I know hunnie! But life goes on.. people live, people die, and her soul will always be here watching over you, protecting you, and keeping you safe. But don t you think that if she had seen you like that it would have hurt her? What would she want you to do gabby? Live? Or kill yourself? Gabby I know your heart is broken now, and you probably feel like you are all alone in this world, but you aren t.. you ve got your parents, siblings, aunts, uncle, and friends gabby! You aren t alone hunnie.. please try to fight this! And I will be waiting for you.. ok? She still got no answer, she had tears in her eyes, and then she stood up, hugged me, and said I love you gabby and then she medications weren't working, my condition wasn't improving, my parents were so worried, my mother didn't know what to deal with first, the death of her mother, or the illness of her daughter, my mum was shattered, she was really suffering!for 2 weeks i stayed in the hospital, nothing was changing, so the doctors talked to my mum and said ' i believe there is nothing more we can do to gabriella, her condition is too serious, she needs professionals to treat her, she needs therapy and she needs to be taken to rehab, her stay here isn't helping here..i am very sorry ' my mother called my dad at work and told him, he said 'okay,i am coming right over, we will get through it baby, don't worry' and then he got into his car and came over. as he was entering the hospital, he found a group of my friends entering too, monica saw him and said 'oh hey , how is gabby now?' my dad looked at the ground as if trying to get enough strength to say the truth. and then he said 'she..she isn't doing so well, we are going to move her to rehab..' monica gasped and then her boyfriend chad hugged her and said 'she's going to get better..she will' and then they all came to my room, my mum said hi to all of them, some tried to tell her a few words to support her, others didn't know what to say so they just hid in the back trying to avoid the awkward situation. monica came and kissed me on the forehead and said 'hey sweetie, how are you?' i didn't answer, so she looked at chad looking for strength to face me again, he winked at her and said 'hey babe, you got us worried about you! but i am sure that those tough time will pass, and in a few days you will be back with us at school!' from the background a few giggles were heard, so all eyes were on them, it was sharpay and her group, they were laughing at my sight! they thought i looked like a pschyco in a weird movie! so monica looked at them in anger and sharay said 'what? what did we do? should we stand and cry over her? come on! it's enough that we came at the first place!' so troy said 'sharpay nobody asked you to come! here is the door and as you entered you can exit!' sharpay was shocked! troy never talked to her like that, but troy was a good guy, so he knew better, some of here actions he could bare, but this? it was too much even for her! so she left and said 'it's my fault that i thought of wasting my time on little miss montez!' so troy shut the door behind her and then came and stood next to monica and chad. my mother came into the room again and said 'what happened? what's wrong with sharpay?' so chad said 'nothing .. she is just...sharpay! don't mind her.' then he looked at monica and said 'should we go?' monica said 'i don't know.. i don't want to leave her.' my mum said 'it's okay hunnie, i have to get her ready anyway so that we can take her to rehab..and probably nobody would see her for a while..so..' monica said 'not even me?' my mum said 'no hunnie.. i don't think it's allowed, gabby doesn't need any external effects, in rehab it's forbidden to visit the patient, atleast for a while, but i promise that whenever they allow it i will tell you' monica said ', you will keep me updated right? i mean, i need to know how she's doing' my mum nodded and said 'ofcourse hunnie.. and thank you all for your concern, gabby is really lucky to have you!' so troy said 'we are the one who are lucky,' my mum smiled and said 'thank you.. but i believe it's the first time we meet, you are..?' troy said 'i am troy..troy bolton, i am with gabriella at school' my mum said 'yeah i have heard about you troy, well thank you anyway' troy smiled and then they all left, monica kissed my mum and hugged her and said 'my mind is with her ' so my mum forced a smile and said 'thank you..sweetheart' and then she helped me wear my clothes, and packed my things, and called the nurses to put me in a wheel chair. they did and then she and my dad walked next to me until we got to the car, my dad carried me and put me in the back seat, my mum sat next to me, hugged me and said 'i miss you baby girl' and my dad started driving heading to rehab.