Regret….

Every entity in this world knows the meaning of regret and has probably experienced it at least once. Vampires are of course, no exception…. Not even pure-bloods like me.

We creatures of the night who have lived through centuries have seen it all. War, peace, evolution. We could be considered wise compared to mere mortals, yet despite the general assumption, we are not perfect. Even the cruellest of vampires are capable of feeling regret.

I stare out the window at the dark night sky, thinking and contemplating. My mind absently pointed out that there are no stars in the sky tonight. Even the moon is barely visible, covered by dark clouds. It was to be expected since it has been raining for the whole day.

Somehow, the night sky reminds me of my dilemma. The dark starless night represents my loneliness, with nothing to light up my dull and monotonous life. The clouds symbolise confusion, as my mind is clouded by desires and obligations. The rain that has been pouring down since this afternoon clearly resembles my regret, for I have made many wrong choices. There are so many regrets in my heart.

When you approached me on that snowy night and confessed to me, I was surprised. Why would the Level E vampire hunter that has a personal vendetta against the whole vampire population confess to me, the pure blooded vampire prince that stole away the girl he thought he loved?

Zero, why did you pick me?

And why did I say yes?

That was the main question floating in my mind. Why was I so quick to accept your confession, without even batting an eyelid? You're a Level E vampire, vampire hunter, and a guy. It's not that I'm homophobic, most vampires go both ways. It's just that I've never fallen for a guy before.

Fallen?

My mind realises this terrible slip. Was I implying that I have actually fallen in love with you, Kiryuu Zero?

Preposterous!

Though not impossible.

I will not delude myself with illusions and lies, after all that is a human trait, and as a pure-blood, that trait is beneath me. You are easy on the eyes, that much I can say, and you're intelligent to boot. But we've been enemies ever since you tried to assault me when he was younger, so what has changed?

I am not in denial.

I am not in denial. I am not in denial.

I do regret saying yes.

I am not in denial. I am not in….

…I am in denial. I grimace visibly and feel like smashing my head into the wall over the sheer frustration of this new-found knowledge…. but I might break it.

The wall I mean, not my head.

The truth is, I do not regret saying yes to you, as the few months we were dating were the best months of my life. I hate to admit this, but you make good company. Your sarcasm, fiery temper and innocent naivety really attracts predators like me. You're the perfect prey, putting up a fight and refusing to surrender, till the predator stops playing and sinks its fangs into you. Your nervousness whenever you saw me was just another cute attribute that I love about you. Sometimes we kiss. Sometimes we hug. Sometimes we just sit next to each other, holding hands, feeling each other's presence in solitude.

No, I do not regret saying yes to your confession.

What I regret most are my actions from just a few hours ago.

Yesterday, I received a phone call from Yuuki saying that she will be returning to Cross Academy during her college's vacation. While she went to a college across the country, Zero and I still stayed in Cross Academy. Headmaster Cross had recently converted Cross Academy into a private all-male's college, thus admitting fewer students than before to help protect the secret of the Night Class. The classes are still split into Day Class and Night Class, but with the lack of mobs of rabid fangirls, there is no necessity for guardians in the academy. After much persuasion, Zero has joined the rest of the vampires in the Night Class.

I panicked when I received the news. I know that Yuuki liked me, one has got to be blind not to notice it during our days in Cross Academy when we were still high schoolers. What will she think when she finds out that Zero and I are going out? What if it puts a strain to their relationship? Zero wouldn't be able to handle the pain of his closest friend abandoning him.

After thinking it through, I made my decision. It was obvious that someone would have to make a sacrifice for all of us to come through unscathed in this twisted love triangle.

Before this goes too out of hand, I have to end this relationship.

I was the first person to meet Yuuki this morning as she entered the academy grounds. Greeting her with a fake smile on my face, I offered to carry her bags in. But instead, she giggled and placed her hand in mine. With her strong grip, any efforts of resistance on my part would be too obvious. So, I endured the torturous walk back to the academy with Yuuki's hand in mine and the person herself babbling non-stop into my ear. Luckily I've learned to tune it out through the years.

Unfortunately, I was unaware that we were being watched from the shadows.

Once I got her settled in, I gave an excuse to get away from her. She chirpily announced that she'll be looking for Zero. I groaned inwardly. Looks like I'll have to avoid Zero for the whole afternoon.

But it's not like it'll make a difference. After hearing what I have to say, by tomorrow Zero will be the one avoiding me, I thought sadly.

I went to his room, and making sure that he wasn't there, left him a note.

"Meet me by the forest at 6.00.

Kaname."

Seeing the smile on your face nearly broke my resolve. I like your smile that you so rarely showed. I like to see you happy.

What I'm about to do will make you hate me for the rest of your life.

"Kaname…"

You sound so happy to see me. You shouldn't be.

I can't believe I'm doing this to you. But if it's the only way….

"Zero, let's break up."

At those words, your expression changed, to one of anguish and pain. Immediately I want to go to your side and gather you in my arms, but I restrained myself. I need to see this through.

"What… are you saying?"

"Yuki's back. I…. love her." Not as much as I love you, I silently added.

Before I could change my mind, I quickly walked away.

Just then, the sky turned dark and it started to rain. I hate myself for doing this to you, but I know how much you treasure your ties with Yuuki. I guess we have to try to forget each other and move on.

Easier said than done.

I don't want to forget you, Zero. I don't want to move on.

Am I crying? I can't tell with the rain drops trickling down my face.

I feel like screaming. The world is so unfair!

Why was I so stupid?

After thinking about it, I realise how foolish my actions were. I grab my coat which is hanging behind the door and ran out of my room to get outside. Jumping through the window would have been faster, but with such heavy rain I won't be able to control my fall.

Zero, hang in there….

A/N: I don't really like this chapter. Bleh. I was trying NOT to make Kaname emo-ish, cuz to me he's more of the silent, noble, confident type. Yeah, I'm proud to admit that there was Yuuki-bashing. She's plain annoying. *hides from Yuuki fans*

Now I feel Kaname is being OOC. I mean, I wrote him with a sense of humour! *dies* Somethings wrong with 's formatting, so some of the parts might have been formatted wrongly. And there might be grammatical mistakes, I overly-confused myself with present tense and past tense and all that till in the end I gave up, and posted this chapter to get it over with. I can't wait to write the next chapter!

By the way, thanks for all the encouraging reviews, story alerts, author alerts, favs, etc.! *glomps everyone* I hope you'll continue reading! ^^