So I got enough encouragement to turn this into a two shot instead of a one shot . I do hope it does live up to the first chapter : ) So this has been revised due to the fact it was quickly written at two am due insomnia. So here is hoping I polished it up just a bit

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Sairy

She had gotten the news at eleven am, she was sitting at her desk and a beautiful hell butterfly floated through the window on the warm spring breeze and announced to her that Lady Kuchiki had gone into labor. Two seconds later she had her head in her waist basket throwing her guts up , but she would not cry in the office .

With a fake smile she went to her Taichou's office announcing the news of the birth of her brothers baby asking for early leave. She had gotten permission ,but she wasn't sure why there was hesitation in her Taichous eyes.

It didn't matter what he thought of her or her dismissal she just took her leave and ran out the door going to the only place that she knew was safe the only place she had found comfort in the last twenty-five years. With an unsteady breath she fell to her knee's in the middle of the meadow it felt like her lungs were burning and her throat was constricting. With tears streaming down her eyes she took gulps of air with the only way to release them was with gagging. Her stomach felt like the continence of it wanted to release, but for some reason it wouldn't come so all she could do was lie choking and shaking in the meadow.

Looking around through wracking sobs her eyes landed on a tree that had broken when Kaien was teaching her to release her sheikai . Looking around the meadow she could hear his laughter his voice she could practically feel him , but he wasn't there and would never be. He was the one person that could make this all okay for her and he was dead.

"Why." She sobbed " Why did you have to die" she screamed into the nothingness " You said you would be here for me when I needed you." She started to cry harder when she got no response. "I need you." Her body trembled as she shook her head " I can't do this alone." Tears rolled down her cheeks. " I can't live this life alone . Why did you have to go. . . . . I hate you !" she screamed . She bit her lips to keep her body from trembling and the tears from coming but only found a line of blood running down her chin.

Kaien was the first one to be taken from her, the first man she had ever loved and trusted to have gotten taken from her. The only thing that made it better was that she would never have to see him again. Calming herself as she felt the blood trickle down her chin she lie in the meadow motionless staring blankly into the world around her.

Byakuya had been taken away from her , but there was always hope , hope that Ain couldn't conceive hope that the family would send her away. But now that hope had been taken away from her. She could wish for a still born but that would even be wrong for her.

She was tired of this life that dealt her blow after blow. Kaien died , Byakuya was married . She was alone truly lone now without hope of ever having any of them back now that this child was brought into the world.

"I want it to stop." She felt her heart breaking as she curled herself up into the fetal position feeling like a spectator in her own melt down.

"Damn you!" She screamed into the nothing "Damn you Byakuya!"

Bitterness and hatred filled her heart and for the first time since the wedding she let anger consume her as she lie in the safety of the hidden meadow. She let the all consuming rage fill her and let herself actually want the baby to be still born and Ain to be taken with it. She wanted Byakuya dead she wanted him to fall in battle.

"God I wish you were all gone . I don't want to have to see any of you anymore." She sniffed and pulled her knee's to her chest. " I don't want to be a Kuchiki." She said with all the honesty in her heart because she was tired of doing nothing but hurt . First leaving Renji , then Kaien then finding out about her sister and the final nail in the coffin watching her beloved get married.

More over the family had stripped her of any personal identity that she could have ever had and turned her into a doll . All she had the strength to do was roll over and play dead it was all she could do after all the blows she taken. They sent her on meaningless dates after Byakuya was married . They set her up with noble boys who wished nothing more than to be close to the Kuchiki's through whatever means possible. So she sat lifelessly through date after date hoping it would all be over soon.

As the dating became more frequent she asked for more missions to get her away because they couldn't fault her for being ambitious it was what the family wanted after all. So she would put herself in front of a cero blast or a hollow she knew she couldn't take on by herself in hope that it would all end valiantly and she would die an honorable death.

Looking out to the little stream that flowed through the meadow through hollow eyes she let herself go limp on the ground as she thought of all her failed attempts to keep from seeing this day. For some insane reason her Taichou was always there .She loved him dearly and would never want him hurt but would curs him for saving her , like he always did . Did he know how much she hated him for it?

Did he even know how much she hated the world around her. She hated Ain for trying to set her up date after date with Renji . The ambitious bitch just wanted another taichou in the family she just wanted another notch on the Kuchiki family tree. It wasn't that she didn't love Renji because she did but he would keep her in the Seireitei and she would have see Byakuya and Ain as a family and she couldn't handle going to events that , that , that . She couldn't even let her mind go there at this moment.

But she did and a fresh wave of tears started to roll down her cheeks. " I can't see them" she said out loud in her stream of fragmented thoughts.

" I know." A strong but soft voice came from behind her causing her to go very still.

"The offer is still open." The kind soul sat next to her stroking her hair and the tears away.

"If you are willing to I will give you my name and my house outside the Seireitei, but you know the only stipulation I ask In return. Are you willing to take that offer?" Pulling her into his lap he held her close. " I am not the most horrible person in the world." He laughed self deprecatingly.

She laughed hollowly. "I will take you up on that offer if you will have me." She replied softly letting herself fall into him. "and no you are not horrible at are to kind for me though ." She sniffed sadly

He held her in the meadow well into the night . The family was informed she was on important mission so there were no questions asked as the Kuchiki's celebrated the birth of the baby boy that would be the next heir.

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The next day her paper work was done and she was sign sealed, delivered and she was no longer a Kuchiki.

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Not long after the paper work was signed the entire gotei thirteen was notified that there would be another Kuchiki wedding the one of the sister of Kuchiki Byakuya.

The wedding preparations were made and she made sure that none of her friends were evolved they would all be there but she did not want any of them helping her with this next journey of her life it would just be too painful. So the task was given to her female relatives who where more than happy to see the young woman happy and finally married off because most of them had given up hope of her ever getting married at her age let alone to prestigious man.

Much to everyone's dismay and disapproval she chose to wear the kimono and jewels her sister chose to wear for her own wedding to Byakuya. There was mutters of disrespect to the Kuchiki family , but it no longer mattered she was no longer a Kuchiki and she could think of no better way to go out than the very way her sister had come in because she knew it would break Byakuya's heart to see her walk down the aisle dressed like the two women he loved most.

The day its self was beautiful just as her brothers had been and perhaps it was even more perfect because there was a quiet happy buzz that one of their own was getting married to another one of their own and the guard loved nothing more than a love match considering they knew how hard it was to actually find one. It was good for their hearts to see a happily ever after .

As she walked out of her room with her attendance and saw Byakuya standing at the door to see her off she had the last laugh at seeing pure pain wash through his eyes as he saw her looking as she did . It made her heart glad he had to stiffen his back and turn away . It made all the hurt she had suffered worth it to see that one look of agony the agony she had felt throughout the years.

Reaching the doors to the temple she put on the dour face that a new bride was supposed to have as she made her way to her new life, but somewhere deep down inside it felt like a weight had been lifted off her shoulder so she couldn't help it when she saw her beautiful husband Taichou Ukitake Jushiro in his fine wedding kimono standing at the end of the aisle waiting with a silent smile as her best friend , savoir and lover.

After the third round of saki had been sipped for the first time in many , many years she finally felt free because she was Ukitake , Rukia wife of Ukitake Jushiro not Kuchiki , Rukia sister to Kuchiki , Byakuya . The next day she would be moved to Juushiro's manor outside the Seireitei where her only responsibility was to take care of her husband and provide the Ukitake family with a heir, and that she could do .

It was a bitter sweet day though . Renji had gone to the human world on a mission . She knew he taken it so he wouldn't have to be there and would not have to make up an excuse and look rude to avoid the wedding . She was also saying good bye for a time to a job she loved , but she would be able to come back when and if she wanted. However the most bittersweet part of the day was when she made eye contact with Byakuya and they both knew they had lost each other forever. As Robert Frost once wrote she thought to herself

. . . . So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day.
Nothing gold can stay.- Robert Frost – Nothing Gold Can Stay.

After the ceremony was over Byakuya could feel his obnoxious wife wiggling with happiness next to him again.

" Isn't it wonderful Byakuya-sama our little Rukia is finally happy with another Taichou and noble no less."

He could say nothing as he watched the last piece of his heart shatter as she rode away with his fellow Taichou.

So yes I read through the comments that were written after I wrote the first one and decided what the heck I can write Rukia's ending. Though I will give you the full poem "Nothing Gold Can Stay" because truthfully it is one of my favorites

Nature's first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf's a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day.
Nothing gold can stay.

Please R&R