The next morning Logan found himself standing out side of Julian's door. He had no idea what he would do or say, all he knew was that he needed to see Julian. Now. He knocked softly on the door but received not answer. He raised his hand, about to knock for the second time when he heard footsteps behind him, slowly approaching.
"Logan..." It was Derek, he had a sad expression on his face
"What?" Logan almost hissed at his friend, not wanting to hear what he had to say, afraid that his words would confirm the though that was slowly creeping over his mind.
Derek hesitated before he finally decided to get it over with. "Logan, I-I'm sorry, but he-he's gone."
Logan froze in his spot. It was like someone had just stabbed him in the chest. His Julian, his beloved, beautiful Julian was gone. This couldn't be happening he thought to himself. No, Julian's not gone, he'd never leave without saying goodbye. He couldn't be gone. Other than Derek Julian was the only constant in Logan's life. Julian was the only one who'd ever loved Logan back no matter how messed up he was, he was the only one who was always there. And now even he was gone.
"Logan?" Derek whispered, concern for his friend clear in his face, "Why don't you just skip classes today."
"Julian." Logan's voice was hoarse as he spoke "D, he can;t be gone, he cant!" The prefect was now shouting "Doesn't he know how much I need him? I have to go find him, Derek I have to go find him. Now!"
"Lo, come on, calm down." Derek tried to calm his friend down as he pulled him back into his room. "Have you taken your meds yet?
"No" Logan answered him, he figured there would be no point in lying. The numbness that the pills would give him would be better than the pain he was feeling now, anything would be better that what he was feeling now.
"This room's a mess." Derek pointed out as he was scavenging around for Logan's meds. "Must've been a bad fight."
Logan didn't answer. He couldn't.
"Finally" exclaimed Derek as he opened the small orange bottle and took out two tablets for the prefect and held his hand out to him.
Logan looked at the two small pills and mumbled "More."
"What? No, Lo I can't let you do that"
"Dammit Derek. Just give me two more. I need this D, I really do."
"Logan, look I know th-"
"No! No, D. No, you don't know. I don't want to feel this pain. So please. Please. This is too much."
Derek couldn't stand seeing his best friend like this. Almost begging. It was painful to watch so he sighed and let the prefect have his way.
"Thank you." Logan whispered as he swallowed the one thing that could make him almost forget. Almost.