Disclaimer:

Me: Okay, so I don't own Twilight or any characters associated with it... this is boring.

Edward: Do you have to do it for every chapter, it seems ridiculous to me.

Me: Yes its only fair, and fun in a way too, writing as you, lol, I have to admit.

So, where was I, oh, yeah. It was a painful three days for me, and for all that time I could see Carlisle watching over me. It was only later that I realised just how hard it had been. Once he bit me, he had to stop, and that's no easy thing for a vampire to do. I wonder at how there are so many of us, when it's so hard to change people. Carlisle became a vampire in the 1660's, he changed me in 1918, the time between must've been so lonely for him, his family dying, while he lived forever. No really close friends... he was alone and scared when he changed, but kept silent and out of the way...

After the three days had passed I felt the fire fading out of my limbs and rational thought returning weakly back to my head. I felt my heart beating so fast I thought it must have to break through my chest. It stopped. And the only thought that ran through my head was I'm dead! I'm dead, and Dr Cullen killed me! I heard him say "I hope he's okay, please let him be okay, I hope his instincts don't take over" It was kind of faded and as if he was trying to get his thoughts together or something.

"Okay? Me? Okay? You just killed me! You. Just. Killed. Me, and you think I'm okay?"

"I didn't say anything, I was just thinking it... curious..." His voice sounded clearer that time, not faded like before, and I realized I could hear everything with such clarity.... I could hear the slight breeze outside, or the butterfly flapping it's wings as it flew around the house. I opened my eyes, and everything was clear, Dr Cullen's face was perfect, and unflawed. And I could smell... it was only then that I realised I hadn't been breathing. I took in rapid gulps of air, but it brought me no relief from the burning in my throat. I clutched at it, and tried to tear it out. I had no success and the burning continued more savagely.

"It's okay, you're thirsty, we should hunt."

"Hunt?"

"Yes, you are a vampire, you need blood."

"Blood...Vampire..."

"Yes, come on."

I followed him and immediately noticed how graceful I was, but the thought was tiny compared to the burning in my throat, it felt like it would consume my being, though no where near how bad it was as I changed. Then I ran, I ran so fast it felt like I was flying, and Carlisle followed me. As he started to catch up, I turned, ready to fight, a growl rippling through my throat. He looked at me and I heard his thoughts.

"Please, listen to me, you can read minds, I know that. don't fight me, you need to hunt, it's you're hunt, I won't intrude." Though he said it reassuring enough, there was an anxiety behind his words, that I couldn't put my finger on.

I growled at him and ran into the forest. I heard the wet sloshing of a heart beat, and a mildly attractive smell coming from the source. The fire in my throat flared and roared up. I rounded the tree. A mountain lion was lapping up water from a small lake, the burning at my throat overtook me, and I launched myself at it. I barely registered what I was doing. At the back of my mind was the tiniest thought that I had once admired the creature I now considered my prey. It didn't stop me, and I drank the last drops of blood. I looked down at myself, and noticed how torn and bloody my shirt was.

The burning didn't fade and I realised I was still thirsty, even after such a big meal. I ran through the forest again, not really sure of what I was searching for, but I found it. A large bear, it was a big grizzly, and it would have looked life threatening to any human. Before I thought, I launched my self at it. Even the bear didn't pose a problem, and soon I had finished that meal too. I wasn't quite satisfied, there was this aching for something more, and I knew no amount of animal blood would satisfy that, it was like a forbidden fruit, but until I had it I wouldn't be satisfied. I ran back to Carlisle, I knew there was nothing else I could do, I didn't know what was happening, or would happen to me. I came back to the house and Carlisle was there anxiously waiting. I heard his thoughts again. He was seriously worried I'd found a human scent...
I went to him, and immediately my hackles were raised, he posed a threat. I stood ready to fight, but he stood there, passive and I gradually returned to normal, though weary of the fact I was with another vampire who could pose a threat.

He turned around and brought something from behind his back towards me. A mirror. I looked in it and couldn't believe what I was seeing. I was beautiful, I'd say handsome but that wouldn't fit. I looked at myself a few times before noticing my eyes, they were a fiery red. The opposite to Carlisle's, which were a rich amber colour.

I had no idea what to say, so I didn't. He just explained to me about 'vegetarian' vampires, and how he was changed. He told me of enhanced abilities some vampires have, like my ability to read minds. He told me of the Volturi and his time with them.

And whilst he said that I realised that with my gift I didn't have to kill innocent humans OR live on a diet of animals...

Authors note:
Okay, I hope you like it, I enjoy leaving things on a cliff hanger like that. Yeah, I know I'm cruel, but I think the next chapter should be here pretty soon. Again, don't forget to review.