II
The idea from this story came from a book called Speak written by Laurie Anderson. It's about a girl who gets raped and its actually pretty good… and from a bustling blond shinobi in orange… neither one was made or is owned by me… a pity really
I'm going for a thousand words a chapter not including this or the quote.
The idea from this story came from a book called Speak written by Laurie Anderson. It's about a girl who gets raped and its actually pretty good… and from a bustling blonde shinobi in orange… neither one was made or is owned by me… a pity really
I'm going for a thousand words a chapter not including this or the quote.
I can't tell them what really happened. I can't even look at that part myself. An animal noise rustles in my stomach… I put my head in my hands and scream to let out the animal noise and some of that night. No one hears.
-Speak (28)
Unlike the rest of the people my age I failed the genin exam, no surprise there, they give me something that no one is expected to learn how to do. I perform it flawlessly, yet I am still not good enough. At this rate I will become hokage before I become a genin. I spoke to Mizuki, well he came and spoke to me, he told me about a forbidden scroll, its location and what it could do. I took it and read it, practicing until Iruka found me. I used to love Iruka, when I couldn't tell that he hated me. It was the same for the old man, the hokage who was supposed to help me. I never expected him to, so I was never disappointed.
"ne I only got to learn one of the jutsu in here" I said scratching my head and…
I feel like a spectator to the rest of the night. I couldn't' believe what I was told yet I felt as if I already knew it. Still despite that I couldn't believe it then and I shook, shook with fear, anticipation, I really didn't know. Everything made sense. It explained everything perfectly. That is why they hated me. It is all clear to me. I did do something wrong. The IT I used to blame it on does exist and it lives inside of me, making me IT, making me to blame. I deserved the beating then, I deserved it all, and I deserve more for being so ignorant about it. He broke the rule, by telling it to me, and with that one fact, he broke my defenses, no I broke them down myself.
"It's a rule not to say Naruto isn't a demon fox"
A demon fox? I couldn't understand anything at first. Then I heard and rumbling in my stomach and I knew it wasn't hunger. It was another part of me awakening. The Demon, the IT, Me, the deeper second part of me I was hated for. Kyuubi no Yoko, Kitsune, King of the bijuu, my own tenant, the nine tailed demon fox.
Iruka saved me that day. He told me that he didn't care I was the fox and that he accepted me. Ironic, now that he accepted me, I didn't accept myself…
I look in the mirror and all I see are blue eyes and blonde hair. Yet I look into the faces of my classmates and see into their soul, their darkest secrets betrayed by their eyes. Why then couldn't I see inside myself? How could I not see that I had a beast inside of me? Am I really that ignorant like I used to say my fellow classmates were?
I should die, the villagers are right, how could I have lived this long through all the beatings if it wasn't from that damned fox. I'd try to kill myself, but it wouldn't work, my cuts would heal not even leaving a scar, the noose would break before the fox let my airways collapse. It really did protect me all this time. Now I don't want it to…
I'll try anyway. I am at the forest now. It's such a shame I only got to be 12 but then again I really didn't deserve to live that long anyway. I hung the rope in the tree and climbed to the top. I tightened the noose and jumped. I felt free, it was so good to free fall.
"NARUTO!"
I hit the ground, well no, someone was holding me. The noose around my neck was cut and-were those tears on my shirt. I look up into the face of my so called savior.
"Iruka sensei"
He really accepted me and forced me to be rational. He took me to get some Ramen afterwards, (AND DON'T CALL IT NOODLES YOU IGNORANT PEOPLE (lol) ) and it tasted really good. I really liked it. He promised to take me again later. It feels nice to be accepted, finally, accepted…
"Team 7…"
I was teamed up with this pink haired girl who I pretended to have a crush on, Haruno Sakura. Also on my team was the bastard from when I was little, he's an orphan like me; his family was killed by his brother, Uchiha Sasuke. Our jounin instructor was Kakashi sensei. He asked us to talk about ourselves and I acted like the belligerent fool I was supposed to be. I have a rivalry thing going with the sasuke teme and it seems to be going well for me now.
I'm glad Iruka saved me…
Team seven minus Kakashi went to lunch to find out more about each other. Sasuke stayed aloof while I rambled on about absolutely nothing. Sakura's family just joined the ninja world and sasuke has a bloodline called the sharingan. I want to see it in action, but the "me" everyone knows wouldn't stand a chance against him, the real me, I would beat him, barely, needless to say he is a good rival.
Sarutobi sama also accepts me. He is so kind to me now, all thanks to Iruka sensei, but Iruka sensei, he's more like a brother to me. I'm scared to call him Iruka niichan though… he might get mad at me.
They wanted to know about me… what do I say? I can't tell them the truth and they'd figure out if I was lying eventually. I don't even want to think about the fox, much less explain it to these people. Would they leave me like the rest of the villagers or stay like Iruka sensei? I don't know and I can't risk it.
"you there Dobe"
"Oi sasuke teme!"
It's nice even if it's just pretend to have people close to me. I've never felt so accepted and wanted, or at least not rejected. I have something to look forward to and these people help me find meaning in what used to be an empty life. I can't let this end; I can't go back to being an empty shell. Who knows what will happen… Would I look to Kyuubi for companionship?
"So how did you grow up? What are you parents like?"
"Well I was an orphan" Sasuke rose an eyebrow at this "and I lived alone, so nothing major happened"
"Oh, well sasuke KUN"
And it went on and on like that. I really can't tell them too much or else they'll leave me and I enjoy this new life so much compared to the other one I had before. Did Iruka sensei change my life that much…?
(A/N) Well here we go part 2, hoped you liked it. Again, you know, any mistakes, also is anyone has a request for a story, I can't promise anything other than I'll look at it. I like anybody with Naruto I mean EVERYBODY (Yaoi included) sasuke is harder to do but I'll try soo… um… onto part three