A/N: I'll warn you when the lemon is coming up, and I still don't own the anime.

Chapter 2: Someone to Love Me

When Hisoka awoke the next morning, the first thing that registered was that he was not tired at all. The usual drowsiness that accompanied a night of sleep constantly broken by nightmares was not there. The second thing that registered was the gentle wave of love and comfort that was surrounding him, as well as the warmth of a body next to his. He looked up, and saw his dark-haired partner sleeping soundly, and a small smile curved on his face, as one arm was still around Hisoka and the other was holding his hand. He marvelled at the fact that his partner could still emit such tender emotions towards him even when deeply asleep. He slowed wormed his way out of Tsuzuki's embrace and watched him clutch tightly to a pillow. 'Replaced by a fluffy pillow,' Hisoka thought wryly. 'Baka,' but the word this time, even in his own thoughts, was laced with affection.

Walking downstairs, he made a simple breakfast of tea, rice and miso. He carried them upstairs, placed them on the dresser and turned to wake Tsuzuki up. The moment he touched him, the pillow shot out of his arms, and Hisoka was yanked down next to Tsuzuki, who cuddled him tightly. "B-Baka! Wake up!" Hisoka smacked him over the head, which seemed to do the trick. "Mou, Soka, don't be so mean so early in the morning," he pouted.

"Hmph. I was trying to wake you up to tell you that I made you breakfast."

"Food?" The purple eyes lit up. Hisoka picked the food up and brought it to the bed.

"Aww! You made me breakfast in bed! What can this mean, Hisoka?" His tone was light, eyebrows wiggling, so of course Hisoka responded, "Urusai!" and blushed hugely. Tsuzuki grinned at him, then suddenly sobered.

"How are you feeling this morning, love?" Hisoka wanted to say that he was worrying needlessly and to stop being an overprotective baka, and he was of course fine, but when Tsuzuki looked at him with such love and concern in his eyes, he couldn't do it.

"I slept better than I have in a long time. Arigatou." Suddenly feeling the need to express how much it meant to him, he took the food plates and put them back on the dresser. Resuming his spot on the bed, he leaned up and quickly captured Tsuzuki's lips in a kiss, before pulling away out of sheer embarrassment.

Tsuzuki let out a small laugh at his love's discomfort. "Come here angel," he said warmly, tugging his hand. Hisoka complied and Tsuzuki placed his hands on his hips gently and slowly lifted him so that he was straddling the older man. This placed him almost at eye level with his partner. Tsuzuki leaned back so that he could rest against the headboard, his fingers gently kneading Hisoka's sides. Just looking into each other's eyes, Tsuzuki's hands worked their way slowly up Hisoka's body. By the time he reached his shoulders, the blonde on his lap was flushed and panting lightly, his head falling forward onto Tsuzuki's shoulder. Tsuzuki gave a low chuckle, before lifting his head and seizing his lips in a gentle kiss. When the need for air became too great, they both pulled away, now both panting slightly.

"Tsuzuki?"

"Hmm?"

"Why were you here last night?" Hisoka looked a little shy as he asked this question.

"You needed me. I could hear you screaming inside my head, and then you called me for help. It scared me – I thought Muraki had you." Hisoka felt the memory as Tsuzuki relived it, and felt the massive fear behind it when he thought Hisoka was in Muraki's clutches.

"Tsuzuki…" he whispered, then captured his lips again, chasing the fear away. "Ai-Aishiteru, Tsuzuki."

Tsuzuki looked up at him, purple eyes bright with hope. "Honto?" Hisoka smiled in return. "Really." Tsuzuki laughed joyously and kissed Hisoka fiercely, pouring all his love and desire for the boy into it. Hisoka felt a slight twinge of fear at the desire pouring through Tsuzuki's veins but it was quickly repressed by his belief that Tsuzuki would never do that to him unless he wanted him to. Tsuzuki had felt that brief flash of fear, and knew that he had to ease off. "Sorry Hisoka, I didn't mean to scare you." Hisoka frowned. How had he known? Oh yeah – the increased physical contact allowed Tsuzuki to feel some of his emotions.

A/N: Warning! Beginning the lemon!

"It's okay," he replied. "You just startled me. It's different from him – behind his lust there was an impenetrable darkness, filled with evil. Behind your desire, there is love, and the desire to show and share that love in every way." Hisoka smiled and rested his forehead against his partner's. "Plus, I know that you would never hurt me." With that he leaned and kissed Tsuzuki, gasping when Tsuzuki's tongue traced his lips, then begged for entrance, which he promptly granted.

"Can I touch you?" Tsuzuki whispered softly. "Please," he replied, voice equally as soft, moaning when his partner's long fingers touched the skin at his hips. His hands travelled higher, lifting his shirt as he stroked the soft skin. Hisoka didn't know what to do – the feeling of Tsuzuki's fingers on his skin sent his mind into a whirl. He suddenly let out a whine, clutching his partner's broad shoulders when his fingers reached his nipples.

"Do you want to lie down?" he asked. Hisoka managed to nod, his eyes shut as sensation overwhelmed his mind. Tsuzuki gently lowered him to the bed, carefully arranging his larger body over his lover so that he wouldn't hurt him. He then continued to explore the exposed parts of his chest with his fingers tracing gentle patterns, kneading his ribs, or brushing over hardening nipples. He tugged at the shirt that was still on him. "Is it alright if I take this off?" In reply, Hisoka sat up a little bit and raised his arms over his head, smiling at the larger man. Tsuzuki lifted it off very slowly, kissing the exposed skin, before capturing his lips in a sensuous kiss.

"I want to feel your skin against mine," said Hisoka breathlessly, blushing slightly at his daring. Tsuzuki let out a low chuckle and sat back, slowly unbuttoning his shirt, exposing his tanned skin inch by inch. Hisoka propped himself up to watch, and when all the buttons were undone, he reached out, fingertips brushing the velvetly flesh. His confidence grew when Tsuzuki gave a low groan. He tentatively flicked his tongue over his partner's nipple. "Hisoka, angel, that feels so good…." Delighted that he was able to pleasure his partner the way he pleasured him, he pushed Tsuzuki's shirt the rest of the way off, before pushing him down and the bed and learning the contours of his body with his hands and tongue.

After a while, Tsuzuki said, "Wait, 'Soka, stop."

He looked up in confusion. "You don't like it?" Tsuzuki had to laugh at that. "Oh, angel, I loved it. The proof is right there," he said, gesturing downwards. Hisoka looked down and turned scarlet, seeing the obvious bulge in his pants. "Just, how far do you want to go?" Tsuzuki stroked Hisoka's bare arms, trying to tell him without words that he was fine just like this. In response, Hisoka rolled them so that Tsuzuki was now on top. "Can – can you make love to me, Tsuzuki?"

"Are you sure, love?" Tsuzuki asked, his voice full of wonder. "Yes – but if I get scared, will you stop?" Hisoka hated how much like a child he sounded, but he needed to know. "Of course. You don't even have to ask. Come here," he said, extending one hand and getting off the bed. Hisoka followed, confused, and then gasped as he was pulled flush against a broad chest, lips coming down to hungrily claim his. His larger hands stole down the blonde's sides, moving to the front and slowly undoing his jeans, pushing them down over slim hips. He knelt in front of him, pressing soft butterfly kisses to his thighs, knees, calves, as each body part was exposed. Hisoka slowly stepped out of his jeans, and the second he did, Tsuzuki swept him up in his arms, laying him on the bed, before stepping back and stripping out of his slacks. Hisoka turned slightly on his bed, watching his partner, and at the same time, trying to prevent Tsuzuki from seeing how they measured up to each other. Unfortunately, Tsuzuki knew what he was doing. Frowning slightly, he turned him gently, so that he was once again laying face-up on the bed.

"Didn't I tell you Hisoka? Never be ashamed of your body. You may have the body of a teenager, and you bear scars from your past, but you will always be the most beautiful thing I have ever seen, and your body is perfect in every way." Hisoka felt his eyes tear up a little bit. He knew that Tsuzuki wasn't just telling him what he wanted to hear – he could feel his sincerity. Choking back a sob, he reached up and pulled him down, crushing their lips together, letting out a keening cry that was swallowed by Tsuzuki when he rocked their pelvises together. Tsuzuki's hand stole downwards, gently brushing over Hisoka's desire. He thought he might release right then from the heady pleasure of his partner touching him in such an intimate place. Tsuzuki reached out and grasped the small bottle of lotion on Hisoka's bedside table. "Can you spread your legs a bit, love?"

Hisoka complied, and Tsuzuki settled between them, slipping his lotion-coated hand beneath his body. One finger gently massaged his entrance before slipping in, and that's when Hisoka felt a twinge of fear over what was to come.

"Shh, Hisoka, it's alright. I'll take care of you, I promise." Tsuzuki's free hand stroked his cheek and hair. The love shining in the purple eyes, as well as the waves of love that were emanating from him did much to calm Hisoka's fear. "Don't focus on what I'm doing. Just look at me." Bright green filled with uncertainty met soft purple glowing with love. He immediately felt calmer and the two fingers Tsuzuki was now using were starting to feel less uncomfortable. He gently pushed in a third finger, and felt Hisoka's hands tighten on his shoulders. "Are you in pain, angel?"

"It's a little uncomfortable," said Hisoka, with a small smile. "But I trust you." Tsuzuki leaned down to kiss him, while his fingers continued to scissor and stretch his partner. They curled, and touched some spot deep inside Hisoka, causing him to break the kiss as he arched up, gasping, crying Tsuzuki's name in pleasure. Tsuzuki continually touched that spot, until Hisoka was writhing beneath him. When he finally removed his hand, Hisoka let out a cry of frustration, quickly stifled by a flash of fear. But, with Tsuzuki, this wouldn't hurt, would it? The fingers that had moved inside him felt wonderful….

"Don't worry, love," whispered Tsuzuki, brushing his lips over his forehead. "There might be a little pain at first, but I promise I'll be careful. I want to make you feel so good, angel…."

Hisoka forcibly swallowed his fear. "I'm ready," he said softly, opening his legs a little wider for Tsuzuki, and then wrapped his arms around him, holding him tightly. "Just, do it all at once, okay?" he whispered.

"Okay," Tsuzuki whispered back. He positioned himself at Hisoka's entrance, putting his own arms around the boy, as if they held tight enough, he could take the pain from Hisoka. Closing his eyes, he thrust forward, hating the pained gasp he heard from his little lover.

"I'm sorry, angel. I'm so sorry…" Tsuzuki whispered words of love and comfort into his partner's ear, tenderly stroking his body. Hisoka's grip on him slowly loosened, and he looked up at his dark-haired partner in amazement. "I don't feel afraid! I feel – full, as if I was empty without you before –" he ran out of words to express how he felt, and instead kissed Tsuzuki, gently moving his hips against his. Tsuzuki could feel the joy in Hisoka, at being connected like this, and slowly began to move, matching Hisoka's gentle rocking. Eventually, their need became too great and they began to move faster. To both, it felt more than just physical gratification; it seemed as if their souls were mating. Neither existed but the other, and when they released, they experienced the most intense collision of emotions than they ever had before.

Tsuzuki rolled on his side, pulling his blonde lover with him, tucking him close to his body. Neither ever wanted to let go.

A/N: Please review!