A/N: So here is chapter two; I want to thank EVERYONE that reviewed. I think there has been some Nair fandom growth due to um... recent events on television or maybe you've all just been hiding until now. Either way this was the best response I've ever had so thank you so much everyone and I beg you all not to stop loving BN when the writers become delusional again! XD Thank you! NB forever.

Oh and BTW in case you hadn't guessed I don't own the song and yes it's One Republic; but the album version. I have become aware there is some strange over version with a bridge, but I prefer this one so here you go:

We won't say our goodbyes you know it's better that way
We won't break, we won't die
It's just a moment of change
All we are, all we are, is everything that's right
All we need, all we need, a lover's alibi

I walked a minute in your shoes, they never would've fit
I figured there's nothing to lose
I need to get some perspective on these words before I write them down
You're an island and my ship has run aground
Lord knows I'll fail you time and again,
But you and me we're alright

It had nearly been a week. Dan had barely left the hospital, Blair hadn't let Heidi out of her sight and Lily was already in mourning.

Dan had been holding some sort of sleep defying vigil at Serena's bedside; Blair had tried to talk him round; telling him that it was pointless; if Serena awoke, he'd be first to know, and if she didn't, Serena would never know he wasn't there. Dan hadn't said anything but Lily had given Blair a reproachful look when she said this. Dan wanted to be there, if her fingers moved, if she choked a little, if her eyes fluttered; any sign of the life she had; he wanted to see it. He wasn't up for believing what the hospital staff told him. He was a journalist, he got paid money to write lies, and he was pretty sure the doctors would tell him anything if only to give him peace of mind.

Lily was lost, she seemed totally removed from the situation. Heidi had stayed with her for the first night but Lily couldn't cope and Blair had been volunteered by one of the nursing staff. Lily wasn't like Blair; she couldn't hide her emotions for Heidi. Lily avoided the hospital unless she knew there would be a lot of people visiting. She didn't much want to face Dan alone; they had never got along that well since she and Rufus had split. Lily tried to busy herself, but couldn't help but call the hospital every fifteen minutes, in case there was an update.

Blair had been left to look after Heidi and it hadn't turned out so badly. She'd made quite a good job, it wasn't as difficult as it looked; Heidi talked a lot, but then again so did Serena. Heidi had fallen in love with Breakfast at Tiffany's and she had more than double the amount of clothes than she'd started the week with. And Blair was almost adapting to having someone relying on her all of the time. She and Nate had relied upon one another to an extent, but not in the same helpless "brush-my-hair-for-me" way that Heidi did.

Blair had dropped Heidi at kindergarten and gone straight to the hospital, she'd got her old job back, but she'd taken some time off for "personal" reasons, which of course had raised eyebrows. Dan was there, he smiled when he saw Blair. "How's Heidi?"

"She's OK," Blair reassured him, "she's been asking for you both." Understatement.

Heidi had been crying her eyes out every night at bedtime for her Mommy and then Blair would sit exasperatedly reading countless fairytales until she finally fell asleep. Then once Blair herself was just about to drop off Heidi would crawl into bed beside her. The first time this happen Blair hadn't quite realized what it meant until she noticed Heidi's pyjamas were soaking. Blair had nearly shrieked but she, instead, calmly dumped Heidi, fully clothed, into the bath and stripped both of their beds. Now it was a nightly ritual but Blair was much quicker and now managed to sweep Heidi off into the bathroom before she climbed into bed beside Blair. Heidi always cried and made Blair promise not to tell Daddy, but it was OK to tell Mommy.

Dan smiled, "I miss her."

"You know you don't have to stay here. Serena knows you love her and she would rather Heidi was happy than you were here when she woke up."

Dan shook his head but didn't say a word. Blair didn't understand, he couldn't leave he had to make-up with Serena. They'd rowed and it had been totally petty, but it was enough for Serena to storm out to go and see Blair. "Why was she on her way to your place?" Dan asked Blair.

Blair's heart began to beat very fast, in the past week the small alien-like being residing in her abdomen had almost been completely forgotten, but it all came flooding back to her when Dan brought it up. In truth she felt guilty that Serena was on her way to Blair's, if only she'd gone through with it, Serena wouldn't have been outside hailing a cab. "She was just… helping with me and Nate and everything," Blair said off-handily. Everything. Indeed after her almost-week of sampling surrogate motherhood it appeared that the small alien-like being would soon be 'everything.'

Dan nodded, "he loves you," he whispered.

"Love's a strong word."

"No offence Blair, but it doesn't matter who you're with so long as it isn't Nate it will never be strong."

"Can you like stop lecturing me now?"

"Of course, but I feel I should tell you Nate called he's on his way out here today."

"He called you?" Blair tried not to let the upset show in her voice.

Dan raised his eyebrows. "I'm telling you Blair, it doesn't matter how angry you are, both of you will regret it if you never get the chance to fix it."

"I want Nate to brush my hair!" Heidi whined.

"What?" Blair giggled.

"Why is Nate not here? Is he in California?"

"That's right." Blair said shortly as a tear trickled down her face, she wiped it away quickly but not quickly enough. Heidi looked concerned and took Blair's hand lightly.

"Is Nate in hosh-pit-l too? Is that why you're sad?"

"Nate's at his house," Blair said stiffly, that was why she was sad. She managed to squeeze Heidi's little hand, maybe; just maybe, the little blond girl was in fact melting the heart of ice. The little girl looked perplexed.

"I thought this was Nate's apartment."

"So did I."

Just as she said it Blair heard the penthouse lift ding open. Blair's heart began fluttering, she wasn't expecting anyone. Heidi made to run to the foyer. Blair got up and followed her. She knew it was going to be him, before she heard Heidi squeal with excitement or saw his figure holding a duffle bag, which he dropped to kiss Heidi lightly and lift her up.

"Blair," he said in slight confusion, "I thought when Dan said you were looking after Heidi you were at his place."

"No," Blair said without much conviction.

"Natie, come and read me a story!" Heidi pleaded.

"Uh, I need to get going," Nate mumbled.

Heidi looked up at him with her big blue eyes and then at Blair who was glaring daggers at Nate. "But this is your apartment?" She asked in confusion.

As Nate was slowly returning Heidi to the ground and lifting his duffel Blair shook her head. "Nate, I need to talk to you." She blurted out.

Nate looked at her in confusion.

"Please," she looked at him imploringly.

"Or course," Nate nodded.

"Why don't you read Heidi and story and then we can talk?"

"What are you going to talk about?" Heidi piped up.

"The new top secret mission of sending little girls to the moon," Nate joked dropping his duffel again and lifting Heidi up. "Come on, bedtime."

Blair followed down the hall as Nate made for the only single spare bedroom, the bedroom that in less than eight months would have a permanent resident. She felt uncomfortable at how good he was with Heidi. Maybe she should just give him their baby to look after and she could get on with her life.

"You want to listen too?" Nate grinned as he stopped outside the door.

"Yes she does." Heidi confirmed with a scowl. Blair agreed and tucked Heidi snugly into bed as Nate chose a story and then Blair sank onto the sofa which was slightly withdrawn from Nate and Heidi.

Heidi listened intently and Blair listened languidly to all the stories that ended "happily ever after" where nobody had babies or moved coast. It was several stories later until Heidi finally dosed off. Blair got up as Nate's voice trailed off mid sentence. Outside in the hall Blair pulled the door so as a crack of light would still shine through. Nate waited awkwardly as she adjusted the door and then she turned and walked towards their sitting room; Nate followed.

Nothing had changed he'd been gone for three months and Blair had been back for four weeks and it was all the same. He sat down first and Blair sat at the opposite end of the sofa.

"I'm really sorry about what I said. I didn't mean it," Nate broke the silence. Sure Serena was the reason he'd come back to New York, but he couldn't help but think what if it had been Blair that had dashed across three lanes of traffic to get a cab?

Blair didn't say anything so he continued.

"I should have stopped you, or maybe just come with you. But that girl kissed me and I pushed her away and told her-"

"Nate I said I needed to talk to you," Blair cut him off before he could bring up anymore bad memories.

"Sorry, I just thought…" He paused, unsure what he'd thought. She obviously wasn't here for make up sex, but he didn't want her to go. When she didn't cut to the chase he just said it, "I love you Blair, I always have and I always will."

She looked him straight in the eyes and nodded. "I need to tell you something."

"Something?"

She fidgeted slightly and stopped looking into his eyes; she took a deep breath but didn't say anything. Nate reached out and took her hand, shuffling slightly closer. He squeezed her hand, he knew Blair was worried about Serena and maybe she was trying to express it. He knew she had feelings; most people didn't realize this.

She was starring at their hands, intertwining their fingers subconsciously.

"I'm- I'm sort of pregnant," she whispered and her eyes flicked up from their hands to catch his expression.

"Pregnant?" Nate asked as if confused.

"Yes, you know it's the thing that happens when you get drunk and don't think first," Blair snapped, tearing her hand from his and getting to her feet. She walked to the window and looked down on the streets of Manhattan hugging herself with her arms, trying desperately not to cry.

"As in we're having a baby?" Nate asked as if trying to clarify the situation. He got to his feet and was standing behind Blair… Blair wanted to snap at him, but the way he'd said 'we' stopped her. He'd said it as if there was no option; it was either all or nothing.

"I guess so," she whispered quietly.

They stood for several moments in silence, it felt painfully long to Blair and then she felt Nate envelop her in a warm hug that smelt distinctively familiar. She liked Nate's smell and she turned her body into his so she could hide her face in his shirt and breath in Nate. "I'm going to be here for you, no matter what. I promise."

Blair lifted her head and looked into his eyes seriously and then he smiled at her. "I love you," she whispered.

"I love you too," Nate bent down to kiss her and she let herself go weak in his arms. He cradled her gently, running his fingers' through her hair.

Everything was running through Blair's head, she opened her mouth, about to tell him about last week but then she burst into tears and he only hugged her closer and reassured her some more that he loved her. She thought about pulling away and telling him everything, about what she had nearly done, but she didn't. Instead they shared a passionate kiss and she wiped the remorse from her mind. There was no reason he needed to know; she hadn't done it and they were back together just like before.

A/N: Please review. Again thank you so much to everybody that did before and I hope I didn't take too long to update; but anyone who knows me will tell you that I'm usually much, much worse. Now please take a further 30 seconds out of your life and hit the big button.