I hope your men will be okay! Also why would you ask such silly questions? Of course I would miss you, you're one of my favorite people in the whole world, I love you. I know you will make it back fit and in one piece as will your men so don't fret. I pray for you every night, when I dream I dream of you, why on this earth would you think I wouldn't do the same if you were to vanish? Turn into pixie dust and float into the galaxy to become a star. I would look up at the sky and think of you every time, if it happened. I love you so unbearably much, every time I think of you my chest fills with longing and sadness.
Is this what it feels like to miss someone? To banish any foreign thought that is devoid of you? My heart fills with the blood of the earth when you are gone, it pools in my heart and seeps into my lungs and swims into my stomach. How terrible it must feel to be in battle and watch your men fall. I am so very, truly sorry for all the pain and misery this war has caused you. May God have mercy on the souls of your fallen, may he grant peace in their deaths, and I hope, with all the hope in the world, that I can see you again. That I can see the way you blush so maddeningly and stutter like a bird, one more time before either of us die. How I beg for that one wish. What I would give to see you one last time. The blue in your eyes and your sun kissed locks. The adoration in your voice...
It pains me to think of you in such raw abandon to ask such questions. The answers I would give you for you to come back and cease all of this senseless fighting, when do you think they will give up? When will we be granted peace? I ache for you my dear, sweet love. More than any words in my language nor yours nor any others, could express.
Your love, Feliciano
P.S
I apologize for the tear stains, I can't seem to control my emotions when I think of you.