Chapter 2: Realization

I stood in the doorway of Mr. Simpsons class. Emma told me to wait for her while she talked to Snake. It was lunch time and I was in a hurry to make it to the food line and to my seat without bumping into or making any eye contact with him. Him...the easiest name to call him, I could never go by his first name. It would be like I was admitting I liked him or even thought about him.

"Okay, Manny. Snake has given us permission to attend Shante's party. He says we have been doing really good in school and helping him and mom a lot with Jack, So he's allowing us to have some fun."

"Alright, Em. Worked your good girl charm and managed us to attend a party that may have booze and hot guys taking girls into rooms."

Emma's face clearly disgusted what I had said.

I giggled. "Kidding Em. So shopping after school for a cute outfit sound good?"

"Sounds great." There went that really dorky smile she had been having. But I had finally figured what it was. And he was coming right this way.

"Emma, um, I totally forgot. Liberty was thinking about helping me sign up for yearbook. I have to go. See you in Math." I speed walked in the other direction in order to avoid my feelings.

"Hey Emma. Want to have lunch with me?"

"Sure, Sean."
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I flashed a big smile towards J.T. while he made really weird faces during Ms. Kwans lecture. It was weird knowing we had actually use to date. He was like a brother to me. I looked at my calendar at the message I had wrote for today.

Shante's Slamming Party...convince Em to convince Snake.

She had actually pulled it off. I glanced at her from across the room. She looked really sweaty, like she was going to pass out any minute, Then I looked at the guy next to her.

How could someone be so beautiful, so amazing, and so nice?

I promised I would never admit to myself that this guy gave me butterflies, The same guy that gave my best friend butterflies.

He looked up at me. I couldn't look away. His eyes we locked in mine. Emma had disappeared and all I saw were big, beautiful blue clouds.

"Manny, please tell me you did your homework from last night? You act like you may have forgotten it at home."

Ms. Kwans voice scared me. "Oh, I have it. I thought I saw something out in the hallway. But I have it."

"Good, so you can read it to the class?" I stood up and and looked down. "Of course."

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Hey guys, I probably won't be able to write the next chapter for a couple of weeks, so I'm going to make it part of this post for today. Enjoy!

(Note: This chapter is one of the two graphical chapters. Some material may not be suitable for teens under 13.)
Chapter 3: Party Time! or Not?

"Emma! Come on. Theres a reason why I told Shante we would be able to help her prepare for the party. I didn't think you would take so long." I banged once more on the bathroom door.

The last few weeks, Emma had been taking an extremely long time getting ready for school or anything that had to do with leaving the house. Today may take the cake as the longest time.

"Okay Manny!" She walked out of the door. "I can't look the least bit cute for a party. It is me and Seans first party since he's been back."

"Yeah, and we wouldn't want to miss your grand entrance." I wasn't in the party mood at the time.

"Do you girls need a ride?"

"No, Mom. I already told you. Sean is picking us up."

I couldn't believe what I was hearing. "What?! I wasn't informed of this Em."

"Manny, I know you might be a little worried since Sean did spend some time in jail for a car accident. But he was racing at the time."

That was the least from my mind. Before I could say anything more, the doorbell rang.

Emma grabbed my hand. "Come on Manny."

Snake opened the door and there stood what looked to me like God.

"Wow." It didn't even matter that I had said it out loud.

"Wow is right." Emma smiled brightly, giving me more reason to feel guilty. I tilted my head down and walked to the door.

"And we expect the girls back at home at about 11:30pm, no later than midnight."

"Got it sir." Sean turned to Emma. "Ready?"

"Yep. Bye"

I waved bye and walked behind Emma and Sean, hoping they had forgot that I was there and continue to be happy with one another.

"You look amazing Emma."

"You too, Sean."

He opened the door for us, letting my in the back seat first.

"You look nice also, Manny."

I kept my eyes on my gold heels. "Thanks." I knew I was smiling inside.

We drove up to Shante's house and heard the music blasting through the windows.

"Looks like we didn't need to come early after all." I hated knowing Emma was right. Shante ha found someone to help her make slamming party decorations.

I spotted Darcy coming out of the front door. "Welcome to the Party Palace."

I smiled at the way she said Party. "Darcy could you be anymore proper?"

"Hahaha, funny, really Manny. "

I left Darcy to talk to Sean and Emma. Shante's house was huge. I tried to guess how many kids were there so far in the living room. 60 was the number.

Hot guys and 8 o'clock. Now these are the guys I should be liking.

I walked to the drink table and grabbed me a cup.

"How can you just sneak into my house and not say hello, or a "Sorry Shante. I couldn't come early to help"?

"I apologize. Emma had to take forever. Are you mad?"

"Of course not, girl. Theres someone I want you to meet."

Shante grabbed my arm and pulled me to a tall, muscular guy.

"Manny Santos, I would like you to meet Brian Morris. He's an old friend of mine from my old school. I wanted you to meet because I think you might have a lot in common." She winked at me. "Buh-bye."

I smiled and shook my head. Shante was really obvious. Too obvious.

"Hi. Brian right?"

"Yeah. Hi." He smiled with the most beautiful teeth. "So Shante tells me your on the spirit squad with her."

"Yeah, I've been on it for like...ever." I giggled.

He smiled a little more. "So you wanna dance?"

"Sure."

We walked to the middle of the living room and danced. "So Manny. Your a senior at Degrassi?"

"Yeah."

"Do you know or did you know a Paige Michalchuk?"

"Did I? I believe the correct phrase was who didn't know Paige."

"Oh really. Well she's my cousin."

"No way. A hot guy like you, related to Paige? Would never have guessed."

He laughed. "Your cup is empty. Mind if I refill for you?"

"No go right ahead." I handed him my cup and looked around for Emma. She was in a corner surrounded by Darcy and her friendship club friends.

I'll let her suffer alone. But wheres Sean?

I turned as Brian walked up to me. "Do you maybe want to go talk somewhere quiet?"

I wasn't sure where this was going, but I sure couldn't hear him talk. "Okay."

We went up to what looked liked Shante's parents room. We sat on the bed and looked around.

"Shante must have some big cash."

"Oh, yes. She had always loved in a big house. When we were kids, her room was big enough to have atleast 4 horses live in there."

We laughed. Brian stared into my eyes.

"Manny, you are a very pretty girl. I hope we can see more of each other after tonight."

"I would like that." I took a sip of my drink and set it on the dresser.

Brian walked up to me and put his hands on my shoulders, while I looked at the pictures on the shelves, I felt him rub my shoulders and breathe deep on my neck.

"Maybe we could have some real fun tonight in case we don't see each other ever again?"

I turned and looked into his eyes. I felt nothing. "You know maybe not. I have a boyfriend."

I grabbed my cup and walked to the door. My hand reached for the knob when I was thrown from the door all the way to the bed.

Brian walked slowly towards the bed and laid on me. "Manny, you seem like a fairly smart girl, although cheerleaders are all mostly dumb. I know you want this."

I tried to get up. "No I don't. Brian you seem like a nice guy but,.." He pounded me to the bed.

"But nothing. I want what I want. And right now-" he started to unbutton my shirt "-its your body."

"No Brian! Stop. Please stop!" He wouldn't stop. He went for it.

Nothing felt more wrong than him having sex with me. I was just wishing he would have the shortest orgasm and let me go. But it seemed longer and longer.

Then fate entered the room. The door opened as a figured appeared at the door. "Sorry...I'm still trying to find the bathroom." He closed thhe door. I recognized the voice.

"Sean help!" Brian slapped me. "Shut up !"

But it was too late. Sean opened the door back up.

"Manny!"

"Sean..."

Brian got off of me while Sean looked for the light switch. Brian buttoned his pants and walked to the door. "Everythings fine, she just really enjoyed it."

Sean knew somehting was wrong and decided to believe me.

"No, looks like the only one who enjoyed it was you!"

Sean punched Brian to the ground. He started kicking his face, letting him know never to hurt me again.

"Come on Manny... lets go."

I tried to stand up, showing that there was a sign of hurting. "Sean please help me."

He walked to the bed and grabbed my pants. He slowly put them on me, touching my hips every now and then. Each touch was magical.

"Grab my hand. We're going out through the back."