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I sat on the deck, sipping my morning cup of OJ. Man, this shit is good. Can't get enough of this stuff. That coffee shit that my friends drink…not the best stuff in the world. But I sure as hell will chug that shit down if you pour a little al in there. I was about to taste some more of the power of Sunny D when I heard a giggle from behind me. I smiled a little, but kept my back turned.

A moment later, I felt a tug on my shirt. I still didn't turn around. Then I felt a small hand come down on my ass, and a giggle not long after. I grin widened but I still didn't turn around. That little hand grabbed my shirt again, tugging as hard as it could. When I didn't turn around, I heard that same little frustrated sigh I hear every morning when we do this. And he'll call me in 3…..2…..

"Mommy"

Silence.

"Mommy"

Silence.

"Momma"

Silence.

I bit my lip to contain my laughter when I heard him huff. I stayed quiet a few more moments after I felt him tug on my shirt again. Then I turned around really quick, trying to scare him. He squealed, my ears filled with the sound of this giggles as he ran back into the living room. I went after him and called his name.

"Hayden"

I heard him shuffling around in his little fort we made out of his boxes.

"Hayden…honey"

I heard him giggle, but it was faint.

"Where are you, little man?"

"Wight here, Mommy" he said coming out of his fort and running into me, almost knocking me down.

I smiled looking down at my baby boy. He's almost four now. He looks so much like him. Bright blue eyes with tiny specks of green. Messy blond locks on the top of his head. He's even got the dimples. I miss him. So much.

*** Flashback ***

I was sitting in Ms. Weaver's class for English but she wasn't in the class. She had just left because she was called to the office for some odd reason. I was about to pull out my iPod when my phone started to vibrate.

Come outside –J

I quickly sent him a text saying I was on my way. Then I packed my shit and walked my ass out of that stupid ass class. When I got to the parking lot, I saw him leaning against his mustang. I started to jog towards him, and of course me being me, I tripped. I wasn't close enough to Jasper for him to catch me so I fell flat on my face.

I heard Jasper chuckle before he came to help. He pulled me up by my arms, holding onto them until he was sure I keep myself upright. Then he proceeded to "dust" me off, paying extra attention to my ass.

"Asshole" I muttered underneath my breath. He chuckled again then grabbed my hand and led to the passenger side of the car, after picking up my bag. I chugged my bad into the backseat, having to bend over to do this. I felt his hands grab my waist and pull my hips into his.

I stood up and leaned back against him. His arms wrap around my waist and he tucks his head into his neck. I felt him inhale and tighten his hold on me. I'm not really sure how long we stayed like that, but it doesn't really matter. I like being in his arms. And I'd like to think he likes me here. This is us.

*** End Flashback ***

"Mommy"

"Yes, booger"

"I want some ceweal"

"That's not how you ask for something Hay"

"Please"

I smiled and ruffled his hair. I turned on the TV and put on Popeye. Then walked into the kitchen and fixed Hay some cereal. I really needed to figure out what I was going to get him for his birthday. He'll be four in a month and I still have no idea what I'll do for his birthday. I carried his bowl of cereal to him at the dining room table that's behind the couch in our living room. I told him to go eat.

I walked upstairs to his room which was across from mine. I took out something for him to wear. Rose should be coming to pick him up soon for his day with her. I'll just ask her and see what she thinks.

I finished picking his outfit out and packed him an overnight bag, just in case he wanted to spend the night. He usually didn't want to, but he might change his mind. After I had his bag packed with his Pull-Ups, his big boy undies, and his change of clothes, I went to the bathroom and ran him some water. I threw in a couple of his action figures and some bubble bath. Then I went down stairs to check and see if he was done eating. He was, so I took his bowl, rinsed it out and set it in the dishwasher.

I followed him up the steps and helped him out of his clothes. I sat on the toilet as he took his bath. I laughed as he got bubbles all in his hair and he started making funny faces. I scooped some bubbles into my hand, blowing them into his face as he giggled.

"You're silly, Mommy"

I laughed and told him to wash up so we can get ready for Auntie Rose. I waited for him to finish before I lifted him up in his towel and carried him to his room. I helped him get dresses and let him put on a pair of his big boy undies over his Pull-Up. After grabbing his bag, I took him down stairs, so he could watch more TV.

Moments later, my doorbell rang. It's probably Rosie. I went to the door and let her in. I hugged her and shut the door behind her. We talked for a little before she left with Hayden.

I had a lot of time to kill so I went outside onto the deck.

*** Flashback ***

I was a little late tonight. I'm supposed to be meeting Jasper at the bar down the street from our apartment. I finally got to the bar, noticing that Emmett was at the door. I smiled at him and he winked, letting me in. Stepping inside, I looked around for Jasper. When I caught sight of him, I smiled making my way towards him. I stopped short when I noticed a girl sitting on his lap. I felt a very familiar pang in my chest when I saw who the girl was. Alice Brandon.

I contemplated whether or not I should go over there, or leave and go back home. The decision was made for me when Jasper looked up and spotted me. I reluctantly walked to the booth they were at.

"Bella!" the bitch had the nerve to act like we were friends. She tried crushing me with a hug in her weird inhuman strength that no girl her size should have. If I hadn't have known her all my life, I would have thought she was about fourteen years old. I gently avoided her hug by merely side-stepping her. I really didn't want any of the diseases I could possibly get being around the dumb slut. I don't even know why Jasper is with her.

I sat down across Jasper, ignoring his glare, and called over a waitress. I asked her for three shots of tequila. If I had to sit here with this thing here all night then I needed to get fucked up. When the waitress came back, I quickly downed the shots, and then ordered three more.

Alice excused herself to go the ladies room. She asked me if I wanted to come, but I ignored her. Finally, she got the hint and left. I turned toward Jasper and raised my eyebrow.

"I think you forgot to mention that she was going to be here, Jazzy-poo" I said glaring at him.

"If I would have told you, I knew you wouldn't have come" he said glaring back at me. A moment later he responded again. "You don't have to be such a bitch to her, Bells" he sighed.

"I don't like her, Jasper. You know I don't. I'm not being a bitch, either. If I didn't have a reason not to like her, then I'd be being a bitch. But I do happen to have a reason. You're dating a fucking slut, Jasper." I stated calmly. Just when he was about to reply, the waitress came back with my shots. I decided I was gonna go slower with these. I took one of the shots and set the other two aside. Jasper, being the ass that he is, took one of the shots and set it next to my empty one.

Alice came back to the booth and sat on Jasper's lap again. I rolled my eyes and took out my phone. I texted Rosie because she hates the dumb bitch just as much as I do.

Jasper tricked me into coming to the fucking bar while he has the bitch here –B

I sent it and looked up just in time to see Alice reaching her slimy hands across the table to try to get my other shot. Bitch.

"Alice? What do you think you're doing?"

She looked up at me surprised.

"I'm taking the shot that my Jazzy got for me" she replied in what I assume is supposed to be an innocent voice.

"Jasper didn't buy you shit. That's my shot sweetheart. That's why it's in front of me. I suggest you move your hand back over to that side of the table before I mess up that nose that Daddy just bought you." I said smiling. She gasped and covered her nose. Tears welled up in her eyes as she stared at me. She is so faking. I was in the same theatre classes she was in, in high school. I know how well she could force the water works. I rolled my eyes as she scampered off into the bathroom.

"Damn it, Bella! Why do you always treat her like that? She has done absolutely nothing to you." Jasper hissed at me before running off to console his slut. Shaking my head, I pulled out a couple of bills and placed them on the table. I walked over to where the pool tables were and starting racking up.

"Mind if I join you?" a velvety voice said in my ear. I turned around was met by the greenest eyes I've ever seen.

"Edward." He said.

"Bella."

"You just got a won of a kind gift. Me. You're my girlfriend now and you're stuck with me" he said smirking.

I smiled, shaking my head, and motioned with my eyes over to the pool sticks.

We ended up playing about five games. Four of which, I won. Now we were currently walking down the street towards a drug store that was around the corner. I really wanted some Jolly Ranchers. I got a bag in each variety, knowing Jasper would be jealous. I paid for them and we left.

I looked over at Edward to see him staring at me.

"What?" I said.

"Nothing" he smirked.

We continued walking until we were at my building. He took my phone out of my hand and pushed some buttons. He then pulled out his phone, pushing some more buttons, then handed me my phone back. He smiled at me before leaning into me. He surprised me by kissing my nose. It was a little weird but sweet I guess. I said goodbye and went into my building. I took the elevator to the seventh floor, got to the apartment, and went in. I heard the TV on in the living room, so I went to go see what Jasper was watching. He really wasn't watching anything; he was too busy sucking face with the slut. I rolled my eyes, walked past them and went into my room. I didn't even take off my clothes; I just turned on my fan, and went to sleep. It was another one of those nights that I dreamed of me and Jasper together.

*** End Flashback ***

I woke up to the sound of a loud banging on my door. I jumped up and ran to the door. I checked the mirror by the door to make sure I didn't look like what I felt. I opened the door and it was somber looking Rosalie. I looked at her questioningly.

"Hey, Rose. What are you doing here? Where is Hayden?" I asked.

"He's in the car." She said quietly

"Is something wrong?" I asked.

"No…nothing is wrong…he just wanted to come home."

"Oh? But, you guys haven't been gone that long. What happened?"

"I don't know, really. He just asked could he go home."

"Oh ok." I followed her out to her car and got a sleeping Hayden out. I grabbed his bag, before I took him inside. I carefully carried him up the steps. I set the bag by the door and laid him down in his bed. I tucked him in and kissed his cheeks. I made my way back down the stairs and hugged Rosie goodbye. She said she'd call me later tonight to check on him, and then she left.

I sat down in the living room and turned on the TV.

*** Flashback ***

Alice invited us to a cook out she was having at her place. I don't know why she invited me but hey, free food. I'm all for it. She called me half an hour ago, how the fuck she got my number, I have no idea. She let me know that it started in an hour and that I should 'dress to impress'. Fuck that. Who the hell dresses up to a cook out? Not me.

So I am dressed like I normally would be. I have on a pair of jeans that are tucked into my leather boots. I have on a red Coke-a-Cola shirt and my leather jacket. This is as dressed up as I'm gonna get. I was sitting in the living room waiting on Jasper to come out. When he finally did, I almost died. He had on black slacks with a dark grey button down shirt on and a black sweater vest on top of that. He looked so fucking sexy. I was seriously thinking about fucking his brains out and I would if I wasn't almost 100% sure that our friendship would be over.

"What the fuck, Bella?"

"What did I do now?"

"You know that Alive wants us to be dressed up for this thing. Go change."

"You know that I don't own any dressy clothes. And I don't really care if she wanted me to dress up. I don't even want to be there. You know how much I don't like her and yet you keep begging me to be around her. What the fuck is up with that, Jasper?"

"I just want you to try to be friends with her. She's a part of my life now, Bella. It's not just me and you anymore." He sighed.

"I don't want to be friends with her. Look I don't feel like arguing with her and I'm not even in the fucking mood to go. Just go by yourself." I sighed, walking towards my bedroom. I didn't make it all the way there because he grabbed my arm.

"Please, Bella. Please come with me. I can't go alone." He pleaded.

I turned and looked into his enchanting eyes. They were pleading with me and I couldn't turn him down. I hate when he's upset with me. "Fine I'll go." I sighed. I was pulled into one of his hugs. I was back in his arms again. Its been so long since I've been here. It felt so good to be there again, even if it was for a brief moment.

"I'll wait while you change. Thank you for doing this for me, Bella." He said, releasing me. I missed the contact as soon as he started to loosen his hold on me. I gave him a small smile and went into my room to change. I walked to my closet and searched for something else to wear. I decided on a high waisted navy blue skirt. I changed my top, picking a shirt I just got from JunkFood. Its red and has this football cartoon on it. I thought it was cute. I stripped and put on the new outfit. I grabbed my navy blue pumps and slipped those on. I ruffled up my hair a little before grabbing my leather jacket. I left my room before walking towards the front door. I grabbed my keys out of the bowl and left the house.

Jasper was already in my car waiting for me. I didn't say anything to him as I got in the car and I stayed silent the whole way there. I could feel his eyes on me when we were walking up to her door. He walked ahead of me then, and knocked a couple of times. Alice answered the door looking like Suzy Home-maker. Please. This dumbass bitch could burn water.

I could tell she was keeping herself from hugging me. She knew better this time. I'm proud of her. I taught the bitch well. I've always loved dogs you know. The backyard looked like a she was throwing a keg party. The only difference is people were all dressed up.

Surprisingly, I'm having a little fun. I danced with some guys that were cute. Got a couple of numbers. At this point, I've had so many fucking beers. I had to piss like a mother fucker. I went into the house and climbed the stairs, looking for the bathroom. Walking down the hall, I heard some noises. Looking down the hall, I saw there was a door that was cracked open. I walked towards it, hearing the noises getting louder. Those noises turned out to be moans and grunts. I could only hear the slight thumping against the wall. It was going to beat of the music. I walked up to the door and peaked in. There she was, in all her porn star glory. Alice was fucking some guy that definitely wasn't Jasper. I pushed open the door and went after her.

"You fucking bitch!" I screamed. I was about two seconds away from ripping out her throat, when I noticed exactly who she was fucking. Edward. I was frozen in my spot. I looked back and forth between the two. I knew she was cheating on Jasper but I never would have guessed it was with my own boyfriend.

I didn't even realize that I had punched Alice in her nose. I didn't realize that Edward was now on the floor crying, holding onto his dick. And I also didn't realize that…

"WHAT THE FUCK?" he yelled. I turned around to see Jasper at the door. His face was red and set in stone. He looked like he was about to burst. It reminded me of the time when I had an Elmo piñata and me and Jasper beat the shit out of that thing till it burst. But that's beside the point. Jasper glared at Alice and then at Edward.

"Get dressed. Now. Be in your room in the next five minutes. It shouldn't take me long to beat this fucker till he can't cry anymore." He said in an eerily calm voice, looking at Alice. She quickly grabbed her clothes, putting them on, and ran out of the room. Jasper the turned his blazing eyes towards Edward, who was still on the floor crying his cheating eyes out. He walked towards and leaned down.

"What the hell are you crying for, anyway? I haven't touched you yet, you little bitch!" he yelled. Edward flinched at the vicinity of his voice. His eyes flickered towards mine. He opened his mouth like he was about to say something. I shook my head, silently telling him to shut the hell up and to not even bother. Jasper looked at me then, seeming to just now notice that I've been in the room. My vision started to blur, tears of frustration and anger, building up around the rims of my eyelids. I blinked them away, finally being able to see Jasper's beautiful face again.

I glared at him. I couldn't help it. I kept telling him and telling him that she wasn't good for him. I've been telling him that since they started dating about two months ago.

"Do you believe me now?" I whispered. The tears were building up again. I didn't blink them away fast enough, one flowed gracefully down my face. It was slow and hot. I wiped off my face with Edward's shirt, blowing my nose in it too. I threw it at Edward before leaving the room. I walked out the front door, got in my car, and drove. Jasper can find his own fucking way home.

*** End Flashback ***

I came out of my haze by the sound of Hayden's feet coming down the stairs. I changed the channel, turning on Tom & Jerry. He came in and got on the couch, laying his head down on my lap. I ran my fingers through his hair, and looked over at the pictures on the wall. There were ones of Jasper and I. Some of Jasper by himself. Most of them were either of Hayden and I, or Hayden by himself. I looked at one of him when he was sixth months. He was such a beautiful baby boy. His birth was the happiest day of my life. I looked at one of the photos of Jasper. My eyes welled up with tears for the second time today. I shook my head, looking back at the TV, listening to my son giggle about the cat and the mouse, chasing each other around.

"Mommy?"

"Hmm?"

"When will I get to see Daddy?" I tensed a little. A couple of tears escaped and I quickly wiped them away.

"I don't know, baby" I whispered.

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