Author's note – ok I am so sorry I never updated this but I was in the hospital in and out for three months and I never felt well enough to get on here and write. But here it is an update! I am not sure if I even really want to continue I think I am much more of a reader then a writer but I am not going to end it right now until I am sure I want to end so yes it is short but it is still an update! Also I put the song World on fire by Sarah McLachlan in here

Disclaimer – nope still don't own Grey's anatomy

Another week had gone by and Alexis showed no signs of improving. Actually she was continuing to get worse. Hope was beginning to become slim and though this was a hospital and all the doctors new that was true they refused to believe it.

Izzie had made it her Saturday ritual to bake chocolate cupcakes for all the doctors and Alexis to have when they all went to her room Sunday morning. Alexis's parents came to visit on Mondays so none of the doctors went in to her room on that day. Leaving the doctors all of Monday to talk usually not about Alexis but this Monday she was all they had on their minds.

They all sat quietly in the cafeteria picking at their food. They all wanted to say something but were all afraid. Finally George decided he had to break the silence.

Hearts are worn in these dark ages
You're not alone in this story's pages
Night has fallen amongst the living and the dying
And I try to hold it in, yeah I try to hold it in

"She won't die, she can't"

He didn't really even believe this himself. He heard patient's families and friends say things like that. He would always think just because you say it, it doesn't make it true, but this time saying it made it seem like it was a possibility.

There was an awkward silence after what George had said.

The world's on fire and
It's more than I can handle
I'll tap into the water
(I try to pull my ship)
I try to bring more
More than I can handle
(Bring it to the table)
Bring what I am able

"What will we do if she does die?" Alex said.

Leave it to Alex to bring up the fact that she very well may die. Even Alex had grown to like Alexis. She was very hard not to like. She was truthful and that was the main thing she had in common with Alex. He could talk to her and she would tell him her exact thoughts, and she was the only one who would.

No one replied to Alex. No one was willing to face the extreme probability that she would die. They didn't need to think of things like that, they had other patients who needed to be tended to and they didn't need distractions from their work.

Meredith was taking care of a patient who had been in a vegetative state for 4 years and had been hit by a light that fell from the ceiling in the nursing home. "How does a light just randomly fall from the ceiling?" she thought. Sometimes life just didn't seem fair.

They all went home and when they went into Alexis's room the next day they found that she was crying. She was extremely tough and almost never cried with all the things going on no one understood how she did it. Izzie and Meredith immediately ran to her side asking what was wrong. Alex, Christina, and George just stood in the doorway waiting for an answer.

I watch the heavens and I find a calling
Something I can do to change this moment
Stay close to me while the sky is falling
Don't wanna be left alone, don't wanna be alone

This was the first time she had ever seemed like an 11 year old to them. She was always so tough and so strong surely no way an 11 year old who had spent so much time in the hospital would act.

After being asked what was wrong several more times, Alexis finally looked at Meredith and said

"My parents said they don't want to visit me anymore. They think it would be better for me if they just let you guys take care of me."

Hearts break, hearts mend
Love still hurts
Visions clash, planes crash
Still there's talk of
Saving souls, still the cold
Is closing in on us

Meredith was shocked. She didn't understand how they could do that. If she had a child she would be there day in and day out. She looked over at Izzie and was almost sure she was thinking the same thing.

Meredith walked out of the room ready to punch something how could they just leave her like that! She realized she was beginning to cry and ran into an on-call room. Unfortunately for her Derek followed her. She sat down on the bed, tears running down her face.

"It's ok, she will be ok" Derek soothed her.

He had talked to Alexis this morning and knew how Meredith was feeling right now it was just so cruel.

Meredith looked up at him and before he could stop himself he leaned in and kissed her. She pulled away.

"We can't you're married!" she replied looking both scared and angry.

"No, I'm not anymore." Was all he said.

We part the veil on our killer sun
Stray from the straight line on this short run
The more we take, the less we become
A fortune of one that means less for some