Disclaimer: I own NOTHING! Does it look like I own anything? Twilight is the property of the wonderful amazing Stephanie Meyers. The song 'I Won't Say I'm In Love' belongs to exclusive right of Disney. Again, Twilight belongs to Stephanie Meyers and the song belongs to Disney.
Author's Note: Sorry I haven't updated in a while. I am updating my Enchanted story right now. School has been evil and taking up all my time (when I wasn't just being lazy).
I Won't Say (I'm In Love)
If there's a prize for rotten judgment,
I guess I've already won that
No man is worth the aggravation
That's ancient history,
Been there
Done that
I cried silently, looking at the Stars in the moonlit sky. It was nights like these that reminded me the most of Edward. Too be honest actually, almost everything reminded me of Edward nowadays and it makes it hard to do anything. The pain just keeps coming again and again and again, over and over. It's been getting slightly better but I don't like pushing it and it is walking a thin line. One push is all it would take to knock me off. My personal sun, savior, and everything, Jacob Black, is wonderful but he is getting a little too friendly. Can't he see that I can't love him? I love Edward and I can't get over that. He doesn't deserve a girl like me who can only give part of herself.
Who'd ya think you're kidding?
He's the earth and heaven to ya
Try to keep it hidden, honey we can see right through ya
Girl ya can't conceal it
We know how you're feelin', who you're thinking of
Everybody seems to think I'm in love with Jacob Black. Just because I think of him all the time, am always with him, need him, want him, doesn't mean...oh who am I kidding? Of course it does. But it is not right, not right at all.
No chance, no way, I won't say it, no no
You swoon, you sigh
Why deny it, uh oh
It's too...cliché
I won't say I'm in love
(Oooooh ooooh oooh)
But I shall never say it. I shall never be able to love again. My heart was taken when Edward left, all there is left is an empty hole where it used to be. I love Jacob but I just can't give him all of me. He deserves someone who can totally reciprocate his feelings and give all of herself to him, not a broken down toy someone threw away like me. But I still can't give him up...
I thought my heart had learned its lesson
It feels so good when ya start out
My head is screaming "get a grip, girl!"
"Unless you're dying to cry your heart out!" Ooooh oooh
Love gives someone the power to heal or break you. Make you one...or make you nothing at all. Edward took my heart and my soul when he left, all that was left of me is mostly an empty shell with the broken leftover pieces. It isn't fair but then, when is life ever fair? But life must have some grudge against me and any happiness I can obtain. I meet Edward and we fall in love. But then he decides he doesn't want me anymore and leaves, leaving me forever human alone. Jacob my savior is a freaking Werewolf and the Vampire Victoria is out to get me. And I am head-over-heels in love with my Werewolf Jacob, yet still in love with Edward. But what if Jacob imprints on someone? Would I be able to survive him leaving me alone too? He's the only thing that makes the hurt go away, the pain to stop hurting. My peace is hanging on a precarious balance and Jacob leaving me will cause an unstoppable slide.
You keep on denying
Who you are and how you're feelin'
Baby, we're not lying, hone we saw ya Hit the ceiling
Face it like a grown up
When ya gonna own up that ya got, got, got it back?
I don't love him like that! I don't I tell you! He's my best friend and only that! Why don't you believe me? But Jacob does make it hard to keep away from him...he makes me happy. But I won't won't won't! I LOVE EDWARD!
Woah
No chance, no way, I won't say it, no no
Give up, give in
Check the grin, you're in love!
You're doing flips read our lips you're in love
No, yes, no! I love him! But like a brother! No, I love him more than that! Ugh, why is life so confusing and complicated. But I can't hurt him like that but I can't stay away.
You're way off base
I won't say it
Get off my case
I won't say I'm in love
No chance, no way, I won't say it, no no
Give up, give in
Check the grin, you're in love!
The scene won't play
I won't say I'm in love
You're doing flips read our lips you're in love
You're way off base
I won't say it
Girl, don't be proud, it's ok, you're in love
No chance, no way, I won't say it, no no
Give up, give in
Check the grin, you're in love!
The scene won't play
I won't say I'm in love
Ooooooh
At least out loud
I won't say I'm in...love
But even so, I can't and won't say 'I'm in love' again. Are you okay with that? I know you know that we both know that we are in love and maybe someday when I get over Edward I can finally give myself over to you completely and say what you want to hear.
Sha la la la la la...(sigh)