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Chapter TWO ---And All Our Hearts Turn Cold

I couldn't look at him. Was I worth nothing to him? Was I so unimportant that he'd have a whore in his bed as soon as I left the door?

I felt it now, my widened eyes curving themselves to be narrowed as his while my pink eyebrows pointed down in frustration, anger, and sadness. I'd always known this day would come, that he would tire of me and find another...but so soon?

"Shu-" he attempted, but I was out the door and running to the driveway, hopping inside my white sports car and shifting it to reverse.

How could he do that to me? Did he hate me so much to do that in our house? In our bedroom and with another woman? She was pretty I'd give her that, but...but what about my heart Yuki? Didn't that mean as much as her breast? Wasn't it worth more than those gold flowing hair? Oh Yuki...you poor poor bastard, why'd you have to go and ruin me?

Flashback

That's right...he hasn't paid attention to me. For the past months that rode by, I would find occasional tabloids with his picture and another woman, sometimes it was another man and always they would change in every magazine's issue. I had calmed myself, insisting upon my hope that they were all composites, because that wouldn't have been the first.

When the newspapers had no more shame and posted more almost daily-like, I confronted Yuki and asked him about it, and him being my darling Yuki, he dismissed it with a wave of a hand and a quick mumble of the pictures being composites.

I sighed a relief for I would believe him, but a certain fear in me refused to vanish in the void of our love making. My love making to him, but never reciprocal.

And the day where my fears are finally confirmed...oh Yuki, why? Why would you do this to me?

Earlier today, I had just gotten back from my tour. Tohma and I had become almost like friends, and he had allowed me a break from my fans to run to my Yuki. Earlier today, I stopped by the bakery store and bought Yuki's favorite treat, strawberry cake, hailed a cab and hurried home...if faith would have allowed, I should have waited a moment longer before entering our house. The house Yuki and I have been together for three years...

When I entered the house, I was just in time to hear a scream of lustful delight. A woman's voice that was so enchanting, was screaming my Yuki's name.

"Ohhh, Yuki, more...MORE!"

And as I listened to the request, I unconsciously removed my shoes and walked ever so slowly, up the stairs and into the hallway where a skimpy red dress laid unwanted on the ground and a white piece of panty-hose partnering with it.

"AH! God, yes...there! I want it...More...deepeerr!!"

My hand shook slightly, already tears were forming on the edge of my eyes. I refuse to believe anything without seeing...I won't believe his betrayal...I won't...I won't I won't I won't--

And I have opened the door to my destruction.

My pink bangs hung loosely on my eyes, but even they cannot cover what was plain in sight. My lover, my handsome, golden haired lover being inside a woman with dark golden haird and quivering lips from pleasure my boyfriend was giving to her, the kind of pleasure that I would only see fit to be mine.

There obvious in my eyes was Eiri thrusting with all his might inside the woman, his lips intent on her large breasts. One of her hands dug deep on his shoulder while the other buried itself inside his golden forest...and I was entrance with the moment as my heart slowly chipped away at their moans.

I dropped the cake on the ground, and all spells broke to be replaced by hell.

The woman opened her eyes when there was no more thrusts pleasuring her, when Yuki stopepd completely in his mission and his attention moved away from her...and why? Because Yuki, my Yuki was staring at me.

"Shu-Shuichi?" his voice quivered, "It's not-" he stopped. Of course, IT IS what it looks like and he just watched me cry...

I grasped my chest tightly and choked through my tears, "It hurts..." I blinked as much as I can, my breathing becoming louder and louder, "It hurts. IT HURTS!" and then I turned and ran.

End of Flashback

I knew he wasn't expecting me, but even so, it gave him no right to outright get a fuck. As I screamed at how much I hurt, I wondered inside if he knew what I meant, did he know that the remaining things that the media had managed not to rip away from me was completely broken then? Did he know how much it hurts to have given him my love and to have it be crushed? I wanted to tell him horrible things...but that look on his face, they would never allow me to give him hell.

If he wanted me to leave him, all he had to do was tell me. If he wanted to dump me, there were less painful ways and more accepting.

It was partly my fault for I was suppose to go to my parents condo up in the Hakone Mountains for a visit, but instead I ditched on my way to check up on my lover to see what he was doing so early in the morning...and now that I know, now that I can't go to him anymore...I'm here on the slick, snow covered mountain road, twisting my car with the speed I should not be riding with.

My phone rang and without thinking, I answered it.

"Shuichi?" It was Eiri, "Listen, look come back, we can talk-"

"Don't you dare tell me what WE can do! There's nothing for us left, why don't you go back and fuck your whore silly--" I was screaming so loud I did not see it coming, a van twice as large as my sportscar turning a corner.

In panic, I swerved my car, but the other driver did the same, and as his van spun, it hit my tiny baby and flung it over the road rail.

I was screaming the whole way down, my vehicle tumbling and tossing me inside like a rag doll. There was no escape for what was to happen and I just braced myself as my white Benz and with me inside was drove off a cliff side. I yelled my fright and anger out as I saw the never-ending drop.

"Oh GOD!" I shouted.

Then, I hit bottom.

AN: Okay! Don't freak, this story is fifty-five percent probably a happy ending! So go read chapter Three!!!! (Story is not complete yet.)

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