Sean's Point of view..
When I was 13, and had met Emma, I knew she was different. I'm not talking about how she protested about everything either, or how she stood out in crowds, or would always put up a fight to have her way… I meant she was different by the things she'd been through and I could see it in her eyes.
I could tell by how she stared at me back the first day I walked into Mr Simpsons class. The way she watched me wasn't about crushing on me, or seeing what I was about… she watched me because she was curious, she could tell there was something about me too.
I'd learn those things soon about her, how her father left when she was young, and how he was now in a mental institution. I'd find out how her mom was only a teenager when she raised Emma. I'd find out about Jordon too, even though Emma didn't like talking about it (I got the picture, online creepy older man looking for young girls).
When I found these things out about her, I finally knew her biggest secret. She, Emma Nelson, was a victim.. but she'd never act like one. She was so strong, so bold, and so fucking beautiful to me.
It was never about Manny Santos, or Queen B, Paige Michealchuck, for me. I wanted the girl who looked into my eyes, the bad boy of Degrassi, and saw too, a victim who acted like some big tough guy. She figured me out. Poor little Sean wasn't loved by Mommy and Daddy and came from a trailer. I'd also deafened a kid in the ear once who use to pick fights with me. She's the only person I told that to.
I wasn't in love with her when we dated. I was only 13, 14 and almost 15 years old when we dated for Christ Sakes. I didn't have nor know about those feelings yet. I just knew there was something about her I couldn't shake off even if I tried, but I didn't want to. I wanted to be around her, always. Well, up to the days before our break up. That's when she infuriated me the most. She stopped caring about me, paid more attention to Snake who had cancer, and she had every damn right to. My crush on her was getting unhealthy, and unexplainable. So I called it quits, and she did too. It wasn't long that I had met new friends, new girl friends, and she moved on quick too.
Or so we thought…
I'm almost 17 years old now. I'm with Ellie, who when I had met, I had thought she looked like she had secrets too and she did (Drunk mothers, self harm, Dad in Iraq). The sad thing was when I tried to get closer to her, and started dating her, was that I noticed something I couldn't fall in love with… She acted like the victim. She had every right too, but I just couldn't see any beauty in that. Instead of standing up, she ran away. Instead of holding her head high, she held it low, and hurt herself by cutting her arms. She cried a lot, and I had to pick up the pieces as much as I could.
I was stuck with her now though, and I guess in some weird way I like that she leans on me. Makes me feel wanted again.
Emma was the only person before Ellie that made me feel wanted and I got addicted to it I think. When she went MIA because of Snake when we dated, I took it so hard. Guess I liked to be taken care of too and Ellie tried to do that too when she moved in with me but it wasn't the same. There was no connection like I had with Emma.
Something was missing.
I'm not in love with Ellie, but I am in love now and know exactly what it means. How it makes me feel. Problem is, I'm not in love with my girl friend..
..I'm in love with Emma, my ex. Who I had already let go out of stupidity and young mistakes, misunderstandings. Was this what had felt unhealthy and unexplainable to me in the past? Love?
Or had I just fallen in love with her upon seeing her again now that we're older? ..
…..
Want to know how it happened? It was the start of this year, we were back to school, and I met up with Jay, Ellie and the gang, and then she walked in… head held up high, smiling so brightly, those long tanned legs walking down the hall like she owned it.
Emma had grown up a lot too. She'd always been beautiful to me, but now she was not only pretty, but sexy too, and had a blossomed body that the whole school was noticing and she was showing it off, much to my shock. But Emma always did that, had me at the edge of my seat. It took me a few days of being moody, one fight with Ellie, and a small shove I gave to Chris Sharpe in the hallway for no reason for me to understand what was making me so mad..
They didn't know her, those guys who were drooling over her new look, not even Chris Sharpe knew her and he was dating her. They didn't know the things I knew of her, or probably didn't even care about her eyes, her past, her secrets, or her beauty on the inside. They were infatuated with the outside. Who could blame them? But it bothered me.
I tried to ignore it, but then Rick Murray showed up. I heard things, but I didn't read into them or care about rumors until Emma, herself, handed me an orange ribbon in the hallway one day during one of her campaigns with Paige about Rick. I knew she was getting too close. It worried me until I found out from Jay that she had stood up for Rick when Jay tried to pummel the 'Psychos'' ass. I was proud of her, for being her again, and standing up….
…..until I noticed Rick getting too close to Emma now. They were 'friends', kind of, but I knew just by watching the way he watched her that he thought it was more than that. He wanted more. He didn't understand Emma wasn't doing this because she liked him, but only believed it was a good cause- Cause girl, remember?
I tried to ignore it.
And that's when something, horrible, very terrible, happened.
No One's Point of view:
Sean had just walked into the Dot, on a Saturday, and it wasn't as crowded as usual. Weather even seemed too stormy and grey. He was meeting Ellie and the gang here, they had made plans today and they sat quietly in a booth in the corner.
When they saw Sean coming over, he noticed they seemed shocked to see him.
When Sean sat, Ellies hand rested on his thigh, giving it a little 'supportive squeeze', and Jay was looking at his friend with his grey almost see through eyes. Alex even looked less of a bitch than normal.
"What's going on?" Sean asked, missing something.
Jay and Alex shared an odd look in front of him, like he wasn't there or something. That irritated him. Ellie kept staring at him too and when Sean glanced at her ,she looked away, and then down at the table.
She finally spoke, "I should of come home last night, but mom wanted to me stay the night to watch a movie," She glanced from Sean to Jay and Alex, "I didn't hear about what happened until this morning." Her big green eyes stared back at Sean again, shimmering a bit but also looking at him like testing him or something.
Sean had no idea what was going on, and honestly, was getting a little sick of it.
"What happened this morning?" he shrugged, looking at them all. He didn't watch the 'news'. Wasn't his kind of 'show'. So depressing sometimes, or boring.
Jay looked him weirdly this time. Sean's always known Jay was an asshole, but he also knew he had some feelings..deep down.
"Didn't you hear what happened last night?" Jay asked, sizing Sean up like he didn't know if he was ready to hear this.
And maybe Sean wasn't.
Sean glanced around to see the girls, Alex and Ellie, looking at him. Once again, Ellie was studying for a reaction too hard from him. It made him want to snap at her, but he took a calm, deep breath.
Sean rubbed his hands down his exhausted face, and leaned back with a sigh, "Someone just tell me."
They all looked away from him, all but Alex. Ah, theres the bitch we know and love.
That is until Sean saw sympathy in her eyes he'd never seen before. Deep down, they must of also known he was still in love with her.
"Rick attacked Emma last night, in her own home." Alex even said Emma's name softer, or maybe it just always stood out more to Sean when someone else mentioned her. But when someone said her name in a sentence like that…
He went into a bit of a shock.
Alex went on explaining, "Police went on a frenzy looking for him all day today. He tried to hide out at Issacs, but Toby turned him in." Alex looked to Jay who nodded, looking at Sean incase he needed someone to silently let him know this wasn't some sick joke. It was true. "Some are saying when the police caught him, he was covered in her blood."
"Too much info, Alex." muttered Jay, even a slight bothered look raining over his face.
And Sean looked pale as a ghost, his mouth slightly hung. His heart either pounding too hard or not at all.
Was she okay?
What happened?
What'd Rick do?
Was she okay?
"Is she okay?"
"Oh Sean," Ellie whispered, clenching her hand on his thigh again but then raised it up to his arm to caress it. You could see it though, the slight jealousy in her eyes that he was acting this way for his ex..
Sean didn't even flinch or move, didn't even look at Ellie, and the room was getting hot, but he felt cold. He was also getting paler, and dizzy.
Jay added with a cringe of his own, "People have been saying Ricks been stalking her for weeks.. they found like 200 ignored calls on her phone from him, text messages going from I love you's, to I hate you's. Meanwhile, all she texted back was one: Leave me alone."
"Sick fuck." Alex cursed under her breath, trying to cover up how much this even sent chills up her spine. The only other person who made her cringe as much as Rick was maybe Chad, but now Rick took the cake. "She's in the hospital last we heard."
"I heard all the reporters are trying to get a story already out of her." Ellie said, picking her drink up and sipping it. She gazed around and noticed only Jay narrowed his eyes strangely at her. She ignored it.
Sean couldn't take this in. Hospital. She was at the hospital.
"SEAN!" Ellie cried out when he stood up and he stood up too fast, didn't even look up. The waiter had come with the rest of their drinks they ordered earlier, and Sean crashed into him hard, drinks going everywhere. They smashed on the ground and waiter fell back on the ground with Sean staring down while panting heavily.
"S-sorry." He said and looked back at his friends. They all stared wide eyed at him and he swallowed hard before he turned and charged out.
He had to go see her.
Had to go see Emma.
Author note: What do you guys think! I re-did just a bit of the story! Not many changes though. So do you think Emma is okay? Can you tell Ellie's already a little off her rocker? I feel like she has always been an insecure girl and she always had a weird vibe around Emma What do you think? Leave reviews! They motivate me to update more !