Christina experienced the simulation from the "inside" during the attack on Abnegation. She hadn't seen what it did to everyone, what everyone looked like and acted like during it. Seeing Marlene, Hector, and Kee going through it had to have been a shock and an eye opener to her. At the end of it she finally realizes what Tris went through during the simulation in Divergent. It is the turning point that allows them to be friends again. So, I wondered what was going through Christina's mind as she watched the simulation.

It does not include the part of the scene where Christina tells her that she has forgiven her. Who knows I may do that later.

Evidently I'm channeling Christina right now. The last posting for Random Voices- Divergent was from her POV and the posting I'm working on for Random Voices- Allegiant is from her POV too! I promise there are other voices coming when I'm finished with these! (But I do think Christina will show up again!)

From Chapter 26 Insurgent

"Someone shakes me awake:

"Tris, Get up!"

A shout. I don't question it. I throw my leg over the edge of the bed and let a hand pull me towards the door. My feet are bare, and the ground is uneven here. It scrapes at my toes and the edges of my heels. I squint ahead of me and figure out who's dragging me. Christina. She's almost pulling my left arm from its socket.

"What happened?" I say. "What's going on?"

"Shut up and run!"

A Message for the Divergent

Christina POV

I'm not sure what woke me up. Normally I'm not a light sleeper. Something has to happen to wake me up during the night, but I can't figure out what woke me up. I just know that I am awake, and I know there is a reason behind it. I don't hear anything, so I prop myself up on my left elbow and look around again, ready to flop back sleep if I don't see anything.

At first I see nothing. No one else seems to be awake. I'm just about to lay back down when movement by the door catches my eye. What I see makes me sit up and quietly slip on my shoes. Kee, a young girl with a streak of green in her hair, is following Hector, Lynn's younger brother, and Marlene out the door. There is something off in the way they move, but I can't quite put my finger on it. I soundlessly follow them. Wondering where they are going. As they pass through the hallways I realize there are several things "off" about them. It starts with their strange gate. They walk without looking at anything. They don't look down where they put their feet, they don't look at each other, they don't look around, they just walk. Their arms move in sync, left, right, left, right. Then there is their look. Faces slack, eyes vacant. They walk past the chasm, across the glass floor of the Pire. I run and get in front of them. "Hey! Stop"

They don't stop. They continue towards the bank of elevators brushing past me as if I wasn't even there. They wait for the elevator. I catch up and shake Marlene, "Marlene, wake up!" I yell. There is no response "Marlene!" When I shake her she moves like a rag doll. The elevator opens. I hang onto Marlene, planting my feet firmly on the ground, but she doesn't even pause. She keeps walking and breaks my grip. I loose my balance and fall forward. Breaking my fall with my hands.

They step into the elevator. With the same eerie unison they have moved in so far. Each one steps with the same foot at the same time. They turn around synchronized. As the door starts to close Marlene's mouth finally opens, but it isn't her lively voice that speaks. This voice is empty, hollow, lifeless. "We have a message for the Divergent." The doors slide close. I stand back up and walk backwards from the elevator. Straining to see what floor it stops on. The roof, of course, it stops at the roof. As soon as I know where it stopped I turn around and run.

The Divergent, I only know of two in Dauntless. I have no idea where Four is, but I do know where Tris went to avoid me.

The chasm is empty as I sprint through it. I didn't notice that on my way up. Where is everyone? We're at war! Don't we even have a guard? There is no one to help me. I push myself harder. I run faster until I reach the dorms she's in. Then and only then I slow down. There's no point in waking up the entire dorm. I just need Tris. My eyes scan the sleeping bodies in the near darkness until I see a form smaller than the rest. I walk over on silent feet and peer at the face. It is her.

My hands wrap around her shoulders, and I shake her, hard. "Tris, Get up!" My voice is anxious.

Just like when I woke her to take her to the chasm when Al jumped, Tris wakes up without question and slings her feet over the side of her bed. My hand moves to hers, and I drag her towards the door, running again, pulling her with me. I realize at the door I didn't even give her time to slip on her shoes, but we can't go back for them now. There is no time.

"What happened?" She questions me.

"Shut up and run!" I spit back. There is no time, no extra breath with which to stop and explain. We have to catch up with them, and they are already there. We run past the chasm, up to the glass floor of the Pire to the elevators. There is an elevator they took up is open and waiting for us. We come to a stop inside. I push the button for the roof. As the doors close I lean my hands on my knees and gasp for breath.

"What," Tris breathes even harder than I do. "happened?"

"Marlene" I gasp, "and a couple of kids. They got up and left the dorm. They walked up here. It was," I look at Tris. "It was weird. They moved together. They," I shook my head.

Tris closes her eyes. Her head falls back onto the elevator wall. "They're under a simulation." Her voice is dull.

I stare at her. This is what we looked like? This is how we acted?

The elevator comes to a stop. The doors slide open. We exit it at a run.

They are on the edge of the roof, on the ledge. They stand motionless, the wind whips around them, tossing their hair. Their clothes wave in the breeze, but they stand still.

I walk up to them and speak slowly and evenly like one would talk to a scared child, "Just come down off the ledge now," I ignore the rapid beat of my heart. We have to get them down from there, "Don't do anything stupid. Come on, now…" I am begging. Unshed tears are pricking the backs of my eyelids.

"They can't hear you," Tris speaks quietly and walks towards them. "Or see you." She looks resigned. At first I am puzzled by her reaction. How does she know this? Why doesn't she try to do something? Then suddenly I realize she has seen this before. This is what, my mind refuses to go further for a moment. Then I force it to. This is what we looked like that night in Abnegation, what Will looked like the night he died.

We have to stop this. We can't let more people die. We need a plan. "We should jump them all at once. I'll take Hec, you-" Tris cuts me off.

"We'll risk shoving them off the roof if we do that, stand by the girl, just in case."

I move next to Kee ready to grab her if something happens.

It is Marlene who finally speaks. "I have a message for the Divergent," Her voice is flat. There are no inflections, no emotion, no Marlene. It is heartbreaking.

Tris steps forward. She is, after all, a Divergent, the one they are looking for.

"This is not a negotiation. It is a warning," The empty voice continues. "Every two days until one of you delivers yourself to Erudite headquarter, this will happen again."

My eyes dart wildly to Tris. Hoping she understands. What is "this"? I look back at Kee.

In one moment, they step back. I grab for the girl, like Tris meant for me too.

To my surprise it isn't Marlene that Tris flings herself towards. It's Hector.

I move the girl away from the edge and move to help Tris. "Help," Tris's panicked whisper reaches me. I am there, helping her pull Hector up.

Then suddenly the simulation ends. Hector opens his eyes, and they are no longer empty. They are wide and panicked. He looks around wildly.

"Ow," he says rubbing his arm where we yanked on it. "What's going on?" His eyes dart from Tris to me and back again.

I remember that feeling. I remember looking around unsure of what happened while impossible memories ran through my head. I remember wondering how the gun got in my hand. Wondering if I had really ...

I stand abruptly and leave Tris with him and move over to Kee. She's even younger than Hector, maybe 8 or 9, and must be scared. I speak softly to her hoping to reassure her, but after what I've just seen, I'm not even sure what I'm saying. My mind is trying to process what just happened. I'm trying to shut out the memories of the last time this happened.

Tris leaves Hector and walks to the edge and looks down. Then she turns away and stands there for a second, the look on her face is a mixture of horror, guilt, and regret.

"Is this what it was like?" I ask her. "Is this what we were like during the simulation?"

My mind whirls with what I just saw. They didn't see us, they didn't hear us. They didn't react to our presence. It was like we didn't exist to them. It was just like she had said. I tried to reach Marlene. I tried to make her see me. I tried to wake her up. I tried.

But Tris doesn't answer me. Her face is now almost as blank as theirs were.

"Tris? Tris?" I yell at her. She ignores me and walks back the way she came. "I'll be right back," I whisper to the Kee and move her closer to Hector. I run after Tris. She gets into the elevator without a backward glance, and I hear her screams as she descends down. They are not the screams of horror, orterror, or frustration, or grief, they are something deeper than that. Some unknown emotion I have never experienced.

I believe her now. I believe her with the understanding of having seen it and experienced it myself. There is nothing she could have done that night. Nothing we could tonight.

She made the choice. She told me to stand by Kee. She picked who each of us would save. She let Marlene fall to her death. She saved Hector. She shot Will. She saved Four. What kinds of demons must she face?