Ch. 2
I rush into my apartment and there she stands before me. "How did you get in?" I blush she is so perfect. "Andre had a key and gave it to me before he left for the war..." Her hair laid over one eye- a sign to me that she is in mourning. I take my hand and push it behind her ear. What am I doing? The funeral was just today- I bite my lip. She is making everything in me turn into jello. My world is flipping in my stomach- Andre's death is on hold to me. It's as if time is standing still and she is a beautiful deer timidly walking in my presence. "Beck?" Who's Beck I think to myself when I realize she has called my name. "Yes?" I reply out of habit. "Is this a bad time? I just needed company tonight and wanted to see someone!" She wanted to see someone and she chose me over Cat- I feel the butterflies in my tummy burst. She notices the redness in my cheeks and my flustered behavior-"Where did you just come from?" "Cat's house why?" I ask. "Cause you are blushing up a storm. And I haven't seen you like this in awhile Becket!" "I ummmmm..." "Were you guys doing anything?" "We aren't dating Tori that ended long ago- remember bad chemistry. I like someone else anyways..." Oh fuck did I really just tell that to a woman- a member of the human species that over analyzes and questions everything. "Who do you like Beck?" I hardly feel like this is the place to talk about this considering her fiancé just died. But she is being so playful and is flirting with me. "It doesn't matter Tori. She doesn't like me I am invisible to her." As I am saying this Tori is gazing at all the photos of me and Andre over the years. "I have pictures of us from high school dating back to freshmen year. I have a scrapbook of all the plays we have been in over the years... Take it!" Her eyes get big and tears come to them. "I can't accept this he was your best friend. He is as much a part of your memories as he will be a part of mine," she smiles. "He was your fiancé Tori! I want you to have it and if you want to come over and look at it with me I would love that." I just want to grab her and hold her close to my heart. "Oh Tori I am so sorry you have to go through this alone," I say. "I am not alone I have you and Cat." How can she smile after today? Then I notice she has grabbed my hand and is lacing her fingers between mine. Her hands are so soft and gentle. "Beck why are you being such a gentlemen? We are adults when are you just going to admit that you aren't invisible to me?" What is she talking about? "Tori, I don't speak woman what are you talking about?" "You said you are invisible to the girl you like... I am letting you know you aren't invisible to me." I now realize she has always known that I have adored her. "Tori... I think you should... You should!" "What should stay or go?" My face is blistering red at this point- I am a puppet on strings and she is a master controlling me however she wants to. "Beck, I am just letting you know I am available." I am starting to feel toyed with. "Tori, I think you should..." Before I can finish my sentence her lips are close to mine. I can almost taste those cherry lips of hers. "Beck, don't pretend anymore. I know there is something there. I see the way you look at me." I don't know what to say anymore- it is written all over my face. The truth is shining all over my face. "Tori I don't know what you are talking about!" I lie between my teeth. "Beck, I know you want to kiss me..." "Well of course I do Tori you are a beautiful women. But Andre just died and I don't think this is appropriate." She pulls away and smiles. "There you go being the gentlemen again. Beck you are something else. Thanks for the scrapbook." She turns and leaves. I just sit in my apartment confused-alone and realizing I could have had her.