"(F/N)... (F/N)..." A voice called threw the darkness of your dreams, as if you did not have enough troubles on your hands.
It was the same after every dream you would be placed somewhere darkness, a small village, high hills... Loads of different places with the same voice calling your name over and over getting loader each passing dream. Only this time the voice came from right behind you and with a fear to turn around to meet the delicate wanting voice you froze still ice freezing the blood in your veins. A slightly warm breath could be felt on the back of your neck but this was not what awoke you this time. What awoke you this time was the feeling of a finger running over the carving on your back making you jump from the sudden pain. It shocked you awake to see a pair of red eyes in a slight concerned look. Sebastian was stood their holding the carriage door open and seeing Ciel had already left you stood up only to sit back down unwillingly a moment later from a slight draft of dizziness.
"Are you ok milady? Is something troubling you? I can assure you that its perfectly safe now and no harm will come to you under my master's wishes." The butlers face straightened from the concerned back to a small welcoming smile. "If your feeling dizzy would you like me to carry you in?"
"No... it...its fine." You told him standing back up again using the side of the carriage to support yourself as he lent you a hand to help you out.
The fresh air hit you and suddenly you felt that bit better after letting go of his hand you took a few steps forward gapping up at the huge manor in front of you. This was your first time at such a large estate and you felt inclined on trying to remember your manners. It had been so long since anyone had shown you such kindness, as usually you would be struggling from day to day for every penny you could forage from the large growing concrete jungle known as London. Far from that now you had a question running threw your mind on how you would ever repay the Earl for his kindness and for saving your life. Maybe you could serve as his maid? But why would he want a filth street rat like yourself. Like he read your mind of the questions you where asking the butler stood beside you.
"My Lord will talk to you during dinner and answer any questions you may have. For now would you care to freshen up in a room I have prepared in case this incident had occurred?" He asked you as your eyes where still lost on the features of the manor, but you gently nod your head as a reply. "There will be time to explore the manor later milady, but for now till dinner is ready I must ask you to stay in the room."
He started on head on in to the manor and you slowly followed taking in every detail as you continued in and threw the maze of corridors. It took a few minutes but you where finally at a room he opened the door and allowed you to step in. The room was fit for a noble of all classes stunning you to think why they would waste such a room on a person like yourself.
"I hope you find it to your liking, as you're our guest you will be treated as such. Gowns and dresses of different verities are in the wardrobe for you to change into and feel free to use anything within the room. Dinner will be shortly so please change before meeting my master. I will come to collect you to show you where the dinning hall is when it is ready." The butler bowed to you before adding. "Is there anything I can do or get for you in the meantime?"
"No thank you sir... That is all." You thanked him with a slight curtsy.
"No need milady I am simply the butler of the house hold so you should call me Sebastian." He told you as you gave a slightly worried nod of your head feeling you had done wrong. "Quite the quite one aren't you? Don't worry about it. I will be sending Mey-Rin along momentarily to help you choice and fit a dress."
He once again bowed and left you closing the door as he left leaving you to the sound of the birds outside your window. You took a peek threw it seeing a wondrous amount of colours and flowers arising from the garden below. Something as beautiful as that almost brought a tear to your eyes as the colour from the flowers shone threw the darkness that you had known over the years of leaving the burning remains and your 'thought to be' parent's bodies. You mind wandered to the sight you had left behind knowing in your own heart it was really those bodies where there! The touch of the lifelessness, the smell of the smoke engulfing the air, the colour of red as absorbed every other colour around you, and the searing heat of the flames had left the scars on your mind. How could they say it was fake when it was as real as the beauty now touching before you. If it was fake then who are you, why had you those memories and to top it what where you? Monsters are nothing but stories in your mind, but that is what the man called you. A sudden knock almost caused you to peel from your skin as your jump almost touched the high ceiling.
"Emmm... Come in?" You mustered up as a girl opened up the door and walked into your room.
Her hair was red in colour tied back and held with a white head band with a strange frilly thing. Her glasses where rather large and cracked one side and judging by her blue maids outfit this was the girl Sebastian had sent you to help get changed.
"Hi milady Mey-Rin I am. Sebastian sent me to help you get changed into a lovely dress he did. Have you any preferences?" She spoke funnily but was rather sweet.
You walked over to the wardrobe and took a gander into it seeing a range of different coloured dresses. You roamed threw them trying to decide what would be best. Seeing you where troubled Mey-Rin walked over and pulled a few out suitable for dinner with the Earl. You chose one that she had laid out for you. It was (f/c) in colour extended so it would touch the floor and had flowers trailing from one side to another across the bottom of the dress from the hip. It also had a few flowers sat on the right shoulder.
"It will go nicely it will, but Sebastian also asked me to take a look at your shoulder." She said pointing at the blood stained shoulder on your t-shirt. "Please miss sit on the bed and I will tend to it for you."
You did as instructed and she headed into a little bathroom just to the side of the room and came back in with a cloth and some water in a small tub. It took you till when she told you to take you t-shirt off to actually remove it after a bit of hesitation, but she was calm and nice with you. You felt sorry that she had to put up with your awkwardness as she was use to it but you where not. One of the straps to your bra had been cut in the process of the knife tearing into your skin so the mark formed was perfectly clear. You could hear the water being drained from the cloth as she had wet and squeezed the access water from it. You gazed to the outside world as she began to clean the blood that had trickled over your form.
"I am sorry this may hurt a bit, it will." She apologized to you as you gritted your teeth feeling the sting as she cleaned up the blood from the carving. "My that must hav been painful for you miss. I am sorry for what as happened I am."
"Its ok..." You trailed off feeling the pain die down as she removed the cloth and took it back to the bathroom with a now red coloured water tub.
She soon came back and set some undergarments on your bed. You carefully removed yours and placed the fresh ones on, but then turned to the corset that was laid out.
"Ye don't have to wear it, but I know some ladies would not be seen without it. Sebastian suggests you let your wound heal, but I laid it our just in case." Mey-Rin explained to you feeling that you should go by tradition but feeling Sebastian was right you did not want to cause your marking to start bleeding again and ruin the dress. Mey-Rin say this and removed it from your sight. The next step was the dress which went on fairly easy and Mey-Rin finished it of with washing, drying and styling your hair nicely. Just in time for a knock at the door.
"Milady, dinner is ready I am here to escort you to the Dining hall where my young master awaits your arrival." Came Sebastian's voice from behind the door, as you got up from the stool you where sat on you thanked Mey-Rin and stepped out the door. "Milady you look stunning."
A light blush flushed across your cheeks as you looked down away from the butler.
"Lets not keep my lord waiting shell we?" He said as he started to walk you looked up after your blush subsided and followed him on.
He led you in threw some big doors holding one open for you as you past threw and swiftly closed it behind you to escort you to a seat at a large table. Ciel was sat at the other side in some blue fancy suit without his top hat but still the eye patch covering his right eye. His expression was that of boredom as he watched you sit in your chair and Sebastian pushing you in.
"Is there anything in particular you would like to drink milady?" Sebastian asked you as your turned to look at him and nodded.
"I would very much like a glass of water please." You said quietly as he bowed and headed threw some other doors which you guessed where the kitchen doors.
"So you name?" Ciel's voice came from the other side.
"(F/N)...(L/N)...Or so I thought..." You spoke so he could hear you. "Those men said it was a lie, but its the only name I have ever known."
"After dinner we will head to my study and I will tell you what I know. We can't have you stumbling across your true self as that could prove dangerous." Ciel explained. "But for now we shell eat."
As he said that Sebastian brought out a troll with plates covered by sliver bowls over the top of them, but whatever was underneath uttered a sweet smell.
"On today's menu is a summer tray-baked salmon with new potatoes and a mix of seasonal vegetables." Sebastian announced as he placed the trays in front of each of them and removed the lid.
The meal looked absolutely stunning that your mouth watered at the sight and smell of the fish, but snapping back to reality you realised you did not know the table manners of an elite, so you gazed over at Ciel who was eating his dinner gracefully. You watched him for a little bit till his eyes looked up seeing you watching him and so you quickly darted yours downwards. A blush of embarrassment came across your face but you shook it of by coping on what you had just seen Ciel do.
You had eyes watching you and one had almost a feeling as though it was enjoying your awkwardness, so you looked up to give a smile to them both.
"Is to your liking?" Ciel asked in his usual tone, as you saw the butler's smirk vanish as you looked at him.
"Yes its very tasty thank you so much." You replied before you both continued your meals.
Sebastian vanished within the kitchen only to emerge when you where both done with your plates. You took a drink of the water he had brought you earlier and watched Ciel stand from his seat.
"I am returning to my study Sebastian so bring me my desert there. (F/N) is free to join me if she so wishes or she can stay and eat here." Ciel announced before leaving the hall.
"Thank you Sebastian." You smiled at him as you placed the glass down.
"Would you like to join my master and I will bring some sweets along?" He asked a small smile on his face and his voice soft and gentle.
"Sure that would be nice." You said as you stood up from your chair.
"You have gotten a lot more open now. Is it that you are beginning to trust us?" Sebastian asked, as you saw the curiosity in his eyes and something that seemed to have a more sinister purpose, but you shook it lose feeling as thought it was imagined. "Well anyway this way my Milady."
He guided you out the hall and threw the manor once again you tried to map things in your head in case it was needed later. Although Sebastian was right you did begin to trust them a little, as you did not want to seem rude. After all they had shown you more kindness then anyone since you had moved to London. You took a shine to Ciel and his butler you owed them for saving you, but the feeling in your gut about the butler stirred even worse the longer you where alone. Within your own world you did not realise the butler had stopped causing you to collide with him, but you barely budged him earning you to fall backwards. You closed your eyes knowing the thud on the floor was not far from reality when you felt yourself stop midway. You opened one eye seeing the butler had an arm wrapped around you preventing you from hitting the floor. He pulled you upwards and once again you where only inches apart. A heated blush was now visible across your face realising he had a arm around you waist.
"Are you ok milady?" He asked you there was no emotion across his face until you wriggled from his arm and a grin immediately developed. "You should be more careful you could have hurt yourself."
"Thanks Sebastian..." You trailed looking away from him as he turned from you to knock on the door he was stood in front.
"Come in." You herd Ciel's voice call as Sebastian opened the door and allowed you into the room first.
You stepped into what seemed like a study. There was a few book cases but what stood out the most was the big desk Ciel was sat out with various papers in front of him, but all neatly organised. There was a huge window looking over the front of the manor behind him and two pictures hung either side of that. The curtains where rather a bit dismal but went with the rest of the room. Ciel was sat scanning over a piece of paper on a rather big purple chair. Sebastian had pulled a chair up in front of Ciel's desk and Ciel motioned for you to sit down upon it. Obliging you sat down on the chair.
"I shell return shortly with desert and a beverage." Sebastian bowed before leaving you and Ciel alone with a silent air between the two of you as Ciel flipped threw papers. "Are you aware of who these Knights are?"
"Knights... Not much really they just said they eradicate monsters like me..." You told him a bit sadly not wanting to believe it was true. "They also told me they now who I was and that everything about me is a lie."
"Indeed it is your name (F/N) (L/N) but its also that of a younger girl that has just be found some miles away from where you believed your old home use to be." He explained to you. "But I have belief you where not involved with any of that since you travelled quite a bit, so question is how did you lose your memory of that and how did you gain the one from the little girl. Next your going to ask me how I know all of this. Simple. The Queen. Seems you have quite a history with the royals."
"His..History? With the Royal family?" You asked totally stunned at Ciel's words as a knock came on the door and Ciel told them to enter.
Sebastian came in with a trolley of different sweets and a tray with a couple of tea cups on. The whole disbelieve was whizzing threw your mind and you started to feel as though you did not know yourself. Knowing the royals forgetting your own memories and living with lies.
"They said I was a monster and that we should be eradicated... But I am human so what does he mean?" You asked Ciel with the question that most of all played on your mind.
"Your partly human. Sebastian has informed me of what your other half is, but are you sure you want to know? You could live your whole life without knowing and never stubble across your other side expect you will live much longer then any human and your ageing will be increasingly slow." Ciel warned you. "That will be you only issue with a normal life. You will out live others."
Your eyes glazed over with so many emotions and these where reflected in your tears. You weren't upset more like confused hoping it was nothing but a dream, but the pain that had been inflicted was all to real. Your version of reality was shattering and you started to tremble in the seat clutching your fingers to your palm glaring down at your lap as tears fell onto the dress below. You could hear the voice of Ciel asking you something but you could not pick it up, so instead you picked yourself from the chair and ran leaving the two in shock. You could not handle it all in one day it was far to much. Everything was just a lie. To your concern your a girl who lost her parents many years ago who had been kidnaped by thugs and only later to be saved by a Earl and his creepy butler. You did not care where your running was taking you, as long as it got you away from the nightmare of a life unfolding before you. Running on and on and on you came to the front entrance where you took no time on thinking about leave the manor. You just shot out across the front court over to the other side to a forest like scenery where you collapsed to your knees on entry. You hadn't the strength to go on any further and you felt watched anyway so you just remained collapsed on your knees crying.
"Its never easy losing who you where and it takes more the strength to accept it back." You herd the voice of the butler behind you. "But I can assure you (F/N) that your not a monster. Just a incredible creature of nature. Well that is what I see."
"Sebastian... What am I?" You said sniffling and wiping away some of your tears knowing after all it would do you no good.
"Your part human, but your also part dragon." He said with a gentle tone and to which you where shocked you never expected such a beast to exist never mind be one. "As time goes on and you recover your memory you will once again regain the knowledge about your race known as Dracul. It means Devil but also Dragon and one who is believed to be half Dragon is also half Demon, but in reality your just half human. I will let you guess who set that name up."
"What are you Sebastian?" You asked out the blue which stunned him, as he was not expecting such a question. "Your not human are you? I can sense it I thought it was just some strange feeling that I should not worry about, but revealing to me what I really am maybe I should not ignore it."
"I am simply one hell of a butler." He grinned as walked around in front of you offering a hand.
You looked at it and placed your hand on his and he helped you up. He removed a cloth from his pocket and wiped away your tears before placing it back in his pocket and holding his hand back out to you again. You swept the dirt from the dress and tucked some hair out the way, but you just looked at his hand.
"Is there something wrong milady? Please allow me to escort you back to the manor. My master will worry." He told you as his grin had been replaced with his professional look.
"Not until you tell me what you are Sebastian! I have to accept what I am so nothing else after today can surprise me anymore." You told him a more serious expression on your face as you looked directly up to him in his eyes almost begging to know.
"Fine." He sighed placing his right gloved hand over his right eye while he closed them shaking his head in disbelieve before pulling it down again to look directly at you. "I'm a demon, so are you happy now miss (f/n)"
"Content." You gave a small short smile before taking his arm he offered to escort you back.
"You have taken that well. Full day or not you really are not surprised I am a demon? Don't you go by your little God faith?" He asked as he walked you across the manor's grounds but instead taking a bit of a detour threw the side gardens.
"I think the biggest surprise was that I was leading a fake life under the name of a dead little girl." You sighed wondering when you would remember your old life feeling it would be a lot easier to accept yourself when you did. "God? I guess I never really had time to think about it. I was so busy with survival its like the idea of him never crossed my mind. Should I be believing?"
You asked him knowing the fact he will tell you to reject that faith, but you eyes wandered around the garden think about how beautiful it was and how it could have been created. Was it possible for one man to cause such a beautiful complex nature?
"Believe what you like, but as I say its useless in the end to have a full blessing you might as well reject being born." He said his tone of voice almost as though he had no interest in the subject and that in generally annoyed him. "You will discover your own path in which I am interested in seeing the results. I am tied to my master by a contract we have. In exchange for my services I can devour his soul. Such a sweet delicious soul much like your own."
"Huh? My s...s...soul? They taste... You can smell?" You stuttered at that as a sudden embrace pulled you close to him and his grinning face and his eye glowing a pinkish colour showing his true side. "Se..seb..Sebastian?"
He held you tight with one arm around your waist stopping escape as he brushed a strand of hair from your face with his free hand. Your eyes where transfixed on his caught like a deer in headlights it seemed impossible to escapes them as he leaned down next to your face. His hot breath brushed against your ear sending a chill down your spine.
"(F/N) of course I am a demon and as in some stories we feed from souls by making a contract with the owner. Well most of the time... We nurture the soul to develop its taste so when we finally feast its a divine one." He whispered into your ear as the feeling of him being so close coloured your cheeks a light shade of red. "Your soul is sweet with a bit of bitterness, but with time it too could become a great feast. If I was not in a contract with me master I surely would make one here and now with you, as I am sure there is a few things that could tempt you into selling me your soul. That's the thing about is demons we are your loyal servant till the end, because the only thing we desire is what is within our masters. You have a long life being a half dragon maybe we will get the chance yet."
You squirmed in his grip trying to break free. You had enough of the demon talking about your soul and how we would like to eat in. In fact you wondered what led Ciel so far to make a contract with him like that. Throwing away your life for stupid goals. You guessed it was because he was young and would not have understood, but for a boy his age running a huge company how could he not. You herd the man chuckle as you tried to wiggle free but failing over and over again.
"You only just learnt what you are, but your strength is still that of a humans. I guess it will take you time to gain your abilities back. I must say they where well concealed. I kind of like watching you squirm." His grinning made you stop. "I am truly interested in what you will do once you discover your real self, as its not very often you come across a young halfster. You must be at least 10 years in to your half life. Oh so young~ I can't wait for the day you offer me your soul."
"LET GO OF ME!" You yelled finally making him let you go as your blush faded to a tint of red maddness. "I will do no such thing!"
"You seem so sure." His grin never faltered.
"That's because I am." Anger welled in your eyes as you where determined to not let this demon get to you, but you herd him chuckle... Did he just tease you? "Its not funny."
"Quite right milady I only care for my master's soul. Speaking of which we should return." He said leading the way leaving you to sigh of the anger and follow on behind.
You could see living here to the point where you regain your memory is going to be a somewhat fun and painful experience. A demon butler, knights on your tail and now the truth of your half dragon half human life. Could it really get any worse?
So here is chapter two where you learn what you really are and who Sebastian really is. Hope I was not to out of character for any of them, but I guess Sebastian would be hard to predict what he would be like around a sweet young innocent half human half dragon girl... Or would he? After all those nuns... I have put a lot of thought into what is to come for the reader or rather you ;) I am still unsure if I want to make it a SebastianxReader but watch out because I like the idea of Sebastian being a bit flirty, but still having his harsh demon side. Well anyway I hope you enjoy!~ I am off to bed to maybe pull more ideas up for this fanfiction.