A/N: Sorry to have taken so long to update but I had this all planned out in my head but then as I was typing it I kept on changing my mind and then the weekend came and it was really hectic but anyways here it is I hope everyone likes it.

Are Sean and Emma married? No, then I do not own Degrassi.

"Sean oh my god it's been so long when did you get in?" I am shocked I never expected to see him here at Snakes ceremony hell I didn't even know he was back.

"A few days ago, well it was nice seeing you guys I guess I'll see you later." I didn't even get a chance to say anything else he bolted out sight.

"You want me to go get a table babe?" Spinner's voice brings me back from my thoughts.

"Yeah sure, let's sit over there, hey spinner can you get Manny and me something to drink." I sit next to Manny and my mind races to Sean I can't believe he is back I never told him I got married I wonder if Jay ever told him.

"Hey lady, snap out of it Spinner is going to be able to tell something is wrong." Manny says in my ear.

"Do you know if Jay told Sean about Spinner and me?" I am hopping he did.

"I don't think so Em, but why would you care I thought you were over him?" Manny sounds annoyed and I guess she has a reason to Sean Cameron always comes in to my life when everything seems good.

"Here you go babe, Manny." Spinner hands us our drinks and sits next to me, just as he sits down Sean and Jay walk back in. Jay makes his way towards us and Sean goes to sit with Paige, Marco, Ellie, Hazel and Alex.

"I told him about you and Spinner he should be fine he was just pissed that no one told him." Jay tells me in the ear while Spinner is talking to Manny. I pretend that Jay said something funny and laugh.

"Emma, do you want to dance?" Spinner asks me.

"Sure babe" we make our way to the dance floor.

I look at Sean and I can't believe that all this emotions are running back to me. I thought I was over him I thought that if I saw him again I would be fine, that it wouldn't hurt the way it does. I really thought it would be different.

But the truth is that I never forgot Sean, he never left my heart. Time really didn't help me to get over him and it hurts to be here so close to him yet so far away to see him act friendly with everyone else but me.

Oh my god could I still be in love with Sean Cameron is that really a possibility? I'm snapped back to reality when Sean turn to look at me I turn quickly trying to act as if I was not just staring at him.

"Are you ok babe?"

"Yeah Spin, why would you ask?"

"I don't know you just look out of it, Is it because Sean is back in town?" His question shocks me I thought I had been doing a pretty good job at hiding my feelings.

"Sean has nothing to do with the way I feel Gavin he is my past and you are my present and future. I was just shocked to see him here that is all." I tried to sound as convincing as possible to even convince myself that I had no feelings for Sean.

"Are you sure that there is nothing there Emma?" I guess I wasn't as convincing as I thought I was.

"Yes Gavin I am sure I have no feelings for him whatsoever. I love you Gavin Mason you are my husband and I am your wife" I put and emphasis on your wife because I want him to know that I am only his.

"I Love you too Emma Nelson Mason." He leans down to kiss me and catches me completely off guard. We are right in front of Sean and I lock eyes with him and see the hurt in them I never wanted to flaunt my love for Spinner like this in his face I can just imagine what he is feeling.

I slowly give in to Spinners kiss and the last thing I see is Sean walking out.

"Wow Spin, that kiss was something else I don't think you have ever kissed me like that." I can see the huge smile in his face. That kiss was so intense.

"I have to keep the wife happy."

"I'm already happy, I uh need to go to the restroom I will be right back." I let go of Spinner's hand and make my way out to the hall finally I can breathe.

I make my way to the bathroom but I walk in to JT's memorial garden instead I take a seat in a bench. God how I missed JT he always had a way to make me laugh and forget about my problems I wish I could turn back time and just go back to when everything was simple when JT was alive and him and Toby and Manny were my best friends and when Sean was here taking care of me. Did I just think about being with Sean, come on Emma get a hold of yourself you can't let Sean come in and mess your life up again. You are happy now he has no right to come and mess your life up.

"Are you ok?" I look up and see Jay standing over me he has a sincere worry look on his face. He sits next to me and hands me a cup of water.

"Yeah I'm fine I just needed some fresh air." I look down at my hands.

"You know he still loves you right? Every time he would email me he would always ask me to look out for you. I couldn't bring myself to tell him you had someone taking care of you."

"I wish I had told him instead of having him find out like this I never meant to hurt him Jay but I grew tired of always waiting for him." My voice was cracking I do not want to cry over Sean again but it seems like I can't help it.

"That would have been better but he needs to understand that he left you Emma you had to move on you couldn't keep waiting for him forever. I mean Sean is one of my best friends and I would do anything for him but he messed this up. He always runs when things get difficult and that is not fair for everyone else." I never thought Jay would be this understanding no wonder Manny is in love with him.

"Why does he always have this effect on me Jay I seriously thought that if I ever saw Sean Cameron again that I would be ok that it wouldn't affect me the way it's affecting me now. I thought I had left him in my past and it seems like every time I do that he come back in to my life to prove that I could never move on from him it isn't fair Jay." The tears started spilling from my eyes I felt my heart being torn.

"It really isn't fair Em but maybe he does this because you allow him to do it. I mean every time he comes back in to your life you practically drop everything to be with him, but this time is different this time it's not a boyfriend that you are leaving it's a husband and you need to ask yourself if Sean is worth losing Spinner over." Jay starts rubbing small circles in my back trying to get me to calm down.

"I don't want to hurt Spinner I mean he has already been thru so much with what Jane did to him I just can't hurt him" I trailed off.

"But is it fair for either of you to be together if there is nothing there?"

"I can't and I won't walk out on my husband not for someone who will probably leave me in a few months again." I get up and wipe the tears from my eyes. I try to straighten up to head back in to the school before Spinner starts to wonder what is taking me so long.

"Hey Emma, Spinner is my friend too but I think I owe Sean at least this." He hands me his cell phone and I read the text message on the screen.

'Jay I have to at least try to talk to Emma to ask her to forgive me for every stupid mistake I ever made please ask her to meet me tomorrow at noon in the ravine her and I use to go during lunch. Please Jay do everything you can to have her there if after I talk to her she decides to stay with Spinner I will leave her alone.'

"I can't" I hand Jay his phone back.

"I understand, but if you decide to go he will be there waiting for you. Just please do not tell Manny I showed you this she would kill me."

"Don't worry Jay I won't." I start walking away from him but turn around "Thank you for listening to my problem Jay you are a wonderful guy and Manny is lucky to be with you." I turn back around and walk back in to the school.

Should I meet him tomorrow or should I just leave him in my past? I really don't know what to do.

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